........for ever putting myself in this position to begin with. I thought I was smart enough to know better.
I'll never make it you guys. Never.
JODY, quit the negative...that is EXACTLY what is holding you back.
PLEASE????
PLEASE????
I think I know what your talking about you dont feel good right now. but it will get better and you can make it you have to stay possitve.and talk to people on this board and get help at home if you can. I didnt feel good a few weeks ago but everyday gets a little easier and it will get better. Do you have your self in a program of any kind? When I was not feeling well you were always there helping me... stay strong and I will try to help you as much as I can I am on my 9th day and it does get easier just hang in there good luck and keep posting. Brent/brab
Jodi, sorry I didnt know you were stopping...woops...Are you trying or tappering? Tell us whats goin on...
Hey Jodi, now consider this. How could you hate yourself when we see such a special person in you? Our addict thinking just feeds on this kind of stuff.
I didn't think I could ever quit either. I was just sure I'd ruined myself for life.
You will learn, my friend, that most of us are basically the same. Our personalities differ, but the disease makes us all feel and do the same things.
It took me awhile being here before I was ready. Your time will come too. Most importantly, have hope. I will happily stand by you every step of the way. What an honor!!!!
I won't lie to you. Your situation makes it tough. Just as mine made it tough for me. I understand you so well. But Jodi, you've got to care about yourself. You've got to realize how worth this you are. You have to know how very bright you are. God gave you that beautiful mind. You are also very caring and sensitive. These are wonderful gifts!
Just keep hope, okay? You have all the potential in the world. If you'd like to talk personally, I'm here for you. Just say the word.
Love, Kat
I didn't think I could ever quit either. I was just sure I'd ruined myself for life.
You will learn, my friend, that most of us are basically the same. Our personalities differ, but the disease makes us all feel and do the same things.
It took me awhile being here before I was ready. Your time will come too. Most importantly, have hope. I will happily stand by you every step of the way. What an honor!!!!
I won't lie to you. Your situation makes it tough. Just as mine made it tough for me. I understand you so well. But Jodi, you've got to care about yourself. You've got to realize how worth this you are. You have to know how very bright you are. God gave you that beautiful mind. You are also very caring and sensitive. These are wonderful gifts!
Just keep hope, okay? You have all the potential in the world. If you'd like to talk personally, I'm here for you. Just say the word.
Love, Kat
Jodi...listen up missy...I took pain meds and abused my health for 20 years.Many, many relapses. Lots of self-hatred. I thought my destiny was to be an addict..today, I have 40 days. I will not lie to you and tell you I do not crave narcotics..I do at times. But I also recognize addiction as the insidious illness it is...pills lie to you.....never satisfy...just pull you in deeper . If I can get through 40 days sober, I know you can do it..one step,one day, at a time. I know it seems futile, but we are all addicts here...we know what it's like. You can do this for you....I know you can. We can talk you through withdrawals....but you have to stop putting yourself down. I could tell you stories that would make your hair curl...terrible things I've done to obtain pills, shameful behaviours, you name it. Please believe in yourself. We all have so much more power than we know...you must believe that you can make it happen. Of course you can...do you REALLY want it? Then you can have sobriety...it isn't easy and that's why you need support...Bless you....Love, Sharonn
Jody,
Sweetheart, i know what it feels like to feel hopeless. You have to hang on, because those feelings will change, they will change DESPITE the fact you didnt take any medicine............think back to even several days ago....you sounded fine, felt good....those feelings WILL COME BACK....just ride this temporary negative emotion through...........tomorrow you will feel different and in fact , if you stay on your plan, your gonna feel even BETTER for having rode through a negative period without using.............
YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Keep posting,
Encouraging Hugs,
Ali
Sweetheart, i know what it feels like to feel hopeless. You have to hang on, because those feelings will change, they will change DESPITE the fact you didnt take any medicine............think back to even several days ago....you sounded fine, felt good....those feelings WILL COME BACK....just ride this temporary negative emotion through...........tomorrow you will feel different and in fact , if you stay on your plan, your gonna feel even BETTER for having rode through a negative period without using.............
YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Keep posting,
Encouraging Hugs,
Ali
jmr,
One minute at a time. hang in there. All you need is a desire to be clean/sober,
and you'll make it. Pray, even if it's in disbelief, it works, you can get better inspite of yourself. Pick up the phone, TV, read, post here all night, whatever.
If nobody told you they loved you today...I love you......
Take care...........Bob
One minute at a time. hang in there. All you need is a desire to be clean/sober,
and you'll make it. Pray, even if it's in disbelief, it works, you can get better inspite of yourself. Pick up the phone, TV, read, post here all night, whatever.
If nobody told you they loved you today...I love you......
Take care...........Bob
Jodi:
I felt those same feelings. What I did was I got on my knees and asked God for help (something I never did). I prayed for some direction. I started going to NA meetings even though I was using. I started reaching out to my friend who has a similar story to mine. Him and his buddy would pick me up and take me to NA meetings because I couldn't go alone. Once I started taking action I started making a little progress. All of those stupid credos like "Nothing changes if nothing changes" and "if you want to stop taking pills you need to stop taking pills" rang so true for me. They pissed me off but they struck a chord in me. My prayers are with you tonight.
Rachel
Just a quick hello to Rachel..........*wink*..Bob
Hey Bob. How are ya?
Rachel
Jodi, please just take things one day at a time.... Don't think ahead just think in the present. You can do this if anybody can. I am so glad to hear that you are ready to quit, if you would like for me to help you with a taper, just let me know. I will do anything that I can to help you through this. If you work it, it will work....Hang in there Jodi, you are so worth getting clean.
Jodi, you can do it! look deep inside yourself, there is the person that you truly are and want to be.
Just keep hanging in there, it will come to you. Many of us have tried more than once to quit, myself included.
Just keep hanging in there, it will come to you. Many of us have tried more than once to quit, myself included.
Hi Rachel,
Good thankyou, just hangin' out relaxin'...It's all good........Bob
Good thankyou, just hangin' out relaxin'...It's all good........Bob
Jodi:
I want to share something I heard last night. I went to a meeting I had never been to before and this woman was taking a cake for 32 years of sobriety. She said when she went to one of her first meetings there was a woman who was in a tennis skirt, happy, beautiful who shared and said "I love myself today." She said she rolled her eyes and thought, "What a b****." When she shared this last night, she started to cry because she realized she couldn't say that back then. Two weeks later she asked that woman to be her sponsor.
Rachel
Have you stopped?You never answered.Of course nothing has changed if you havent stopped taking percocert and drinking..How much are you up to and how much are you drinking?
Jodi,we all care about you but nothing has changed.I would love to have a couple of percocet right now.I injured my neck and nearly tore my nose off on a bougainvillea vine over the weekend.Im in f*cking pain.I can only look forward right now.I have so much Icy Hot on right now my dog wont get near me.
You are no different than any of us.You have as great of chance of getting clean as anyone.
One thing thing I admire about you is your willingness to keep posting.Right now, it may be the only hope you feel.You are going to get so sick of it,throw the pills away,grab those precious kids and get the f*ck out of that torture chamber your in.
You are a young woman and I bet your beautiful.You just have a nasty disease called addiction that will continue to lie to you till your dead.
You are too special for that to happen.
Just keep sticking around till you get some courage.
Everone here has supported you and if you can get youreslf to a meeting you will find the same thing.
Im going to sign off becaues even typing right now is hurting..
Jodi,we all care about you but nothing has changed.I would love to have a couple of percocet right now.I injured my neck and nearly tore my nose off on a bougainvillea vine over the weekend.Im in f*cking pain.I can only look forward right now.I have so much Icy Hot on right now my dog wont get near me.
You are no different than any of us.You have as great of chance of getting clean as anyone.
One thing thing I admire about you is your willingness to keep posting.Right now, it may be the only hope you feel.You are going to get so sick of it,throw the pills away,grab those precious kids and get the f*ck out of that torture chamber your in.
You are a young woman and I bet your beautiful.You just have a nasty disease called addiction that will continue to lie to you till your dead.
You are too special for that to happen.
Just keep sticking around till you get some courage.
Everone here has supported you and if you can get youreslf to a meeting you will find the same thing.
Im going to sign off becaues even typing right now is hurting..
Tim,
Those evil boucanvaellia bushes......
Sorry to hear your hurting....
Hugs,
Ali
Those evil boucanvaellia bushes......
Sorry to hear your hurting....
Hugs,
Ali
No way Jodi. You will make it but you have to want too.
No more negative s***. It's time to pull your head out and do something about this. I know you want it.
You made it to one meeting, you can get to another. Just takes a little planning and energy. You don't have to be clean to listen, you know that.
You have no idea how many people are pulling for you here. I'm pushing. And I push hard.
Please darlin, just try.
I love you
Lisa
No more negative s***. It's time to pull your head out and do something about this. I know you want it.
You made it to one meeting, you can get to another. Just takes a little planning and energy. You don't have to be clean to listen, you know that.
You have no idea how many people are pulling for you here. I'm pushing. And I push hard.
Please darlin, just try.
I love you
Lisa
Jodi,
sweetie,
Go have a nice hot bath...lots of bubbles.....read a trashy star or enquirer magazine ( doesnt matter if it gets wet) and put on snuggly flannel pjs that our husbands pretend to hate...lol
Remember that you told us when you were giving birth and didnt want to "Bother" the nurses for an epideral?>?????
Bother us....thats what we're here for.
Lots of people rooting for you, your not alone.
Hugs,
Ali
sweetie,
Go have a nice hot bath...lots of bubbles.....read a trashy star or enquirer magazine ( doesnt matter if it gets wet) and put on snuggly flannel pjs that our husbands pretend to hate...lol
Remember that you told us when you were giving birth and didnt want to "Bother" the nurses for an epideral?>?????
Bother us....thats what we're here for.
Lots of people rooting for you, your not alone.
Hugs,
Ali
