I Have Some Questions, Please Help

Pain Pills
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I know you are right Diane, I quit once but it did not last I was only taking about 6 to 8 a day and then quit, but it only lasted a week, I know I am getting out of control again because I want to take more, I finally realized last night when I was going to order them online that this was really getting out of control and stopped myself. You know I never realized how much they do control your life I thought I was the only one that counted them over and over and hid them and could not wait to get home to take them like you said they even determine how long I am gone from home. I am 51 too and I thought to myself I am too old to let myself do this. but I guess addiction knows no age. Thanks for your post it means alot to me
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Paula,,,

You just hang in there kid...If you ever need to talk..PLEASE feel free to e-mail me...
Phillysladydi@aol.com.

Good Luck....
thanks for your honesty too...

Love and Hugs.
Dianna
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hi paula, what i have learned in my 15 days clean is that its not a drug problem that i have, its a living problem, my unability to live life on lifes terms, when feelings arose i didnt want to deal with i took pills and as each day went by i took more becuz my tolerance grew very quickly. paula it is a day to day struggle and for me my answer came in na meetings. i no longer have the option of taking narcotics becuz all it will take is one pill to start the cycle again. i scoffed at na at first surely that cant be me, well i went to meetings and listened to everyone in those rooms and i found out that i am the same. when you get to the point like i did where you are willing to do whatever it takes to stop the pain inside, healing can and will begin. i stopped taking pills before and started again more than once, however this time was different what happened ? i cant say, i just knew inside that it was time to get honest with myself and my pill intake. your answer will come to you paula, i can feel your struggle and if you listen to the still voice inside, you will find peace

{{{hugs}}}

carol
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Dianna,YOU are awesome,what a great story you are,I remember when you first came here,I really didnt know if you were going to be able to do it,so it is great to see how far you have come,keep it going please and you prove it can be done.