I Just Realized Something......

At this moment, in the here and now, if I had the chance to take "something." I would.....in an instant!!!

Why?
Well, not because I'm in pain today but, I feel these awful anger issues coming out in me caused by Kendall!!! This child will be 4 tomorrow and I have never in my life met anybody who has pushed my buttons like she does. I can honestly say that if she had been born first I never would have had 2.
All I ever do anymore is yell, fight and argue with this beautiful little girl and in the last 2 days I have actually resorted to spanking her on her bumm. I have never been one for spanking unless I've used all other courses of action. Time-outs, talking , and everything else that is recommended but, OH MY GOD!!!! I just want to run from the house screaming. I am so glad (and this is the first time since I've stopped all my medications, that I have had a desire for them for anything other than mdical issues) I have no way of getting a hold on anything.

She's hard-headed, opinionated, strong-willed, stubborn, an individual, and determined. All the things I want my kids to be but, damn she makes me so mad sometimes!!!

An example: a short while ago the baby I b-sit was taking balls off the tree and throwing them around. So Kendall joins in. As I'm trying to pick them up and get the point across to the baby that it's a "no-no" Kendall was kicking the ornaments as I was trying to pick them up. Kicking them around the room like a soccer ball!!!!!


UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This too shall pass. I know but, holy moly she is going to drive me to the looney bin!!!!......lol.

Well, now I must go wrestle the phone from her as she is trying to call China!!!
LOL-Megan. I hear ya. My second Savannah was such and little handful always into something and we just pushed each others buttons constantly. Now she is a little angel and we relate so well. She is my saving grace just beautiful inside and out but you could not have got me to believe that when she was 2 and 3 years old. And in exchange my son is 12 need I say more. It's always something but in the end aren't they great. Even if not today.
Love,
jane
It sounds like Kendall is a bit jealous over mommy's time being taken up by a new child in the house. She just needs a little attention. Maybe you need to take an hour or two a week and make it "mommy and me" time and spend it exclusively together.
I can relate to what your saying. I have a 2 1/2 year old and she is like that All the time. She just keeps on and on doing things she is not supposed to do and when she sees me getting mad she laughs and says "its funny".

I only spank when she doesn't listen. I don't spank her hard though. I don't think she needs to be spanked hard. Just a swat and she gets the point.

I am sorry for what your going through, but I do UNDERSTAND. It makes it much harder to do stuff around here because you never know what shes getting into.
Hi Meg...I still think it goes back to what we talked about yesterday!! You need sometime for you.....all give and no take can make for a very angry Mommy!!!

Trust me..been there done that...own the T-Shirt and it has been laundered a few hundred times.

Huggies!!