I Keep Trying

Heroin
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the amount of times i have tried to stop using in the past few months is getting ridiculous. I seem to be able to manage a couple of days then as soon as i begin to feel well again I go off to score. then after a couple of days i regret it and the cycle repeats itself again and again. well here i am again trying to get myself clean. perhaps i am just to scared to admit that I want to continue using, but when i really ask myself and think about my using lifestyle I know that its not what i want, yet everything i do suggests otherwise. but if i was happy to continue then surely that is what i would do? anyway what can i say. i am here again trying to get clean and i honestly believe that by the summer i will have achieved my goal. furthermore i have loads of things to do in the sumer so i had better be clean. peace
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Danny, you will get there as long as you don't stop trying.

God bless!
Lois

- just for today
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I totallly understand where you are coming from there mate. I have beeen on methadone for a couple of months now, and I was finding it really hard to stop having the odd dabble, but as I'm sure you know yourself once you have had a habbit, it don't take long to get one back. You sound really determined to stop now, and I'm sure you will, if that is what you want. I will be giving my first clean test tomorrow at my clinic, that will be a buzz in its self!
Good luck and just keep trying mate