i miss wonderwoman! and i also wonder how her trip to india is going!
just had to write that and send it out there:)
xo jojo
Me too JoJo! I have been so excited for her going on this trip, you know she is having the time of her life! I can't wait to read all about her trip. Do you know when she is suppose to be back?
Hope you are well and taking good care of yourself.
Peace
Kerr
Hope you are well and taking good care of yourself.
Peace
Kerr
Good Morning, evening, afternoon, etc......I am experiencing a little jet lag.....:-) So nice to see you dear ones.
I am home from India....very happy, surprisingly healthy....and as of today, 27 days of detox has me believing in miracles.
When I am fully awake I will answer any questions you have......
Namaste,
Diana
I am home from India....very happy, surprisingly healthy....and as of today, 27 days of detox has me believing in miracles.
When I am fully awake I will answer any questions you have......
Namaste,
Diana
ww- welcome home...welcome back, you sound wonderful... can't wait to hear about it all.... 27 clean days i envy you... rest up and please tell us about your journey!!!
xo jojo
xo jojo
Welcome Home!!! Glad to hear you are home safe and sound.
Was the trip all you wanted it to be? I bet your family is WAY happy you're home : )
Glad I checked back here, you have been on my mind...
Kerr
Was the trip all you wanted it to be? I bet your family is WAY happy you're home : )
Glad I checked back here, you have been on my mind...
Kerr
hey kerr- glad you posted again, wanted to say hi and an apology for bring silent when you responded to my 'missing wonderwoman' awhile ago.
i've been in a funk, and haven't posted.
you and ww are rays of light. warming to have you are both here!
maybe i'll come out of my little dark hole now...
:) jojo
i've been in a funk, and haven't posted.
you and ww are rays of light. warming to have you are both here!
maybe i'll come out of my little dark hole now...
:) jojo
Good morning !
Where do I begin ? Let's start with emotion. It is explained to me that everything you feel while in India is tenfold. This trip invoked plenty of raw feelings within me. The smiles come easily as I remember the waving and the laughter as I tried to pronounce names and foods. As much as sadness and sympathy overwhelmed me at times as well, the people of India are loving, hospitable and happy with their lives. I cannot paint a picture of poverty and disease. So much garbage strewn about. Perhaps my coping mechanism is to only see the good.....I saw physical strength that blew me away ! The weight they carried on the back of a bike.....or their heads, or their backs !! The women digging ditches, the children playing in dirt and using nothing but their imaginations. The synchronicity in their driving skills, the close calls, yet no injuries ! It is indescribable to explain how this is so ???? without anger they swerve in and out of traffic with ease.....(of course I noted they have the following..... http://www.sanatansociety.org/hindu..._goddesses.htm) on the dash of their vehicles....I have witnessed this has got to have something to do with the amazing flow of traffic. Prayer....no matter what your story is....works !
I saw alot of hand-holding in India. Men with men. Women with women. And NO it doesn't mean they're gay. We could learn alot from that.
I had many premonitions during this retreat. Clairvoyance. Telepathy. Dreams becoming reality. I will be working with a medium here, in Calgary to begin my new purpose in life. (JoJo, she was soooo right !)
Silliness too. I made friends with some cows. I think the word got out amongst them because I removed some cardboard from poor Bessy's mouth and replaced it with a banana peel. Later on in the week I got a little turned around(ok ok, I was lost) in the woods by the Corbett game reserve and was thankfully led back to the hotel by four of these precious beasts.
I also discovered I tend to use the phrase "Holy Cow".... ALOT. ooops.
I rode a motorcycle for the first time EVER through a marketplace. That was a blast ! I had threading done for the first time, too @ a salon on International women's day. Oh and the best.....I had ayurvedic massage everyday for six days which I have to say I could use a little more of that at home. Who knew getting sesame oil dripped on your forehead would be soooooo relaxing.....
The International Yoga festival was held in Rishikesh while we were there. I saw a man's photo posted throughout and quietly wished to meet such a man with a gentle face and loving kindness in his eyes......
http://www.parmarth.com/yogafestival.htm As busy as H.H. Swami Chidanand Saraswatiji (Swamiji's) schedule was....he took the time to meet with us personally in his garden......he gave me and my dear friend a blessing and I can't tell you how incredibly cool that was ! Blessed by a Swami. I'm still trying to wrap my head around that one.
Sadhvi Abha Saraswati, also, was a beautiful spirit who was kind enough to offer me a warm hug when I told her my digital camera had disappeared near the Ganges while I participated by the fire during Aarti. I hope that wherever it ended up, it brings joy. The group I travelled with has offered to share their photos with me. I am at peace over this.
I connected with the elephants. You've heard me talk about power animals on the boards...totems....these mammals are truly special....I urge you to learn more about them and teach your children their value.
A private moment of me thinking "I love you, you are so wonderful" while stroking an elephant's cheek led to him shedding a single tear. That memory will stay with me forever.
Thank God for India.
Namaste,
Diana (Dyhana is what a few people called me in Delhi)
:-) It is pronounced Dee-yawn-a and it is sanskrit for meditation.
Where do I begin ? Let's start with emotion. It is explained to me that everything you feel while in India is tenfold. This trip invoked plenty of raw feelings within me. The smiles come easily as I remember the waving and the laughter as I tried to pronounce names and foods. As much as sadness and sympathy overwhelmed me at times as well, the people of India are loving, hospitable and happy with their lives. I cannot paint a picture of poverty and disease. So much garbage strewn about. Perhaps my coping mechanism is to only see the good.....I saw physical strength that blew me away ! The weight they carried on the back of a bike.....or their heads, or their backs !! The women digging ditches, the children playing in dirt and using nothing but their imaginations. The synchronicity in their driving skills, the close calls, yet no injuries ! It is indescribable to explain how this is so ???? without anger they swerve in and out of traffic with ease.....(of course I noted they have the following..... http://www.sanatansociety.org/hindu..._goddesses.htm) on the dash of their vehicles....I have witnessed this has got to have something to do with the amazing flow of traffic. Prayer....no matter what your story is....works !
I saw alot of hand-holding in India. Men with men. Women with women. And NO it doesn't mean they're gay. We could learn alot from that.
I had many premonitions during this retreat. Clairvoyance. Telepathy. Dreams becoming reality. I will be working with a medium here, in Calgary to begin my new purpose in life. (JoJo, she was soooo right !)
Silliness too. I made friends with some cows. I think the word got out amongst them because I removed some cardboard from poor Bessy's mouth and replaced it with a banana peel. Later on in the week I got a little turned around(ok ok, I was lost) in the woods by the Corbett game reserve and was thankfully led back to the hotel by four of these precious beasts.
I also discovered I tend to use the phrase "Holy Cow".... ALOT. ooops.
I rode a motorcycle for the first time EVER through a marketplace. That was a blast ! I had threading done for the first time, too @ a salon on International women's day. Oh and the best.....I had ayurvedic massage everyday for six days which I have to say I could use a little more of that at home. Who knew getting sesame oil dripped on your forehead would be soooooo relaxing.....
The International Yoga festival was held in Rishikesh while we were there. I saw a man's photo posted throughout and quietly wished to meet such a man with a gentle face and loving kindness in his eyes......
http://www.parmarth.com/yogafestival.htm As busy as H.H. Swami Chidanand Saraswatiji (Swamiji's) schedule was....he took the time to meet with us personally in his garden......he gave me and my dear friend a blessing and I can't tell you how incredibly cool that was ! Blessed by a Swami. I'm still trying to wrap my head around that one.
Sadhvi Abha Saraswati, also, was a beautiful spirit who was kind enough to offer me a warm hug when I told her my digital camera had disappeared near the Ganges while I participated by the fire during Aarti. I hope that wherever it ended up, it brings joy. The group I travelled with has offered to share their photos with me. I am at peace over this.
I connected with the elephants. You've heard me talk about power animals on the boards...totems....these mammals are truly special....I urge you to learn more about them and teach your children their value.
A private moment of me thinking "I love you, you are so wonderful" while stroking an elephant's cheek led to him shedding a single tear. That memory will stay with me forever.
Thank God for India.
Namaste,
Diana (Dyhana is what a few people called me in Delhi)
:-) It is pronounced Dee-yawn-a and it is sanskrit for meditation.
ww-d- a tear to an elephants eye. and a tear to mine, what a wonderful post. please write more it's so tranquil... and true.
meanwhile how are you? especially now that you have returned and have you been back home to life with family?
i will write more, i just wanted you to know i'm out here.
and moved by all you wrote...
what to hear more.
xo jojo
ps. lost your new digital camera? glad you found peace with it. i don't know if i could, then again maybe in india i still dunno... strength of your nature...:)
meanwhile how are you? especially now that you have returned and have you been back home to life with family?
i will write more, i just wanted you to know i'm out here.
and moved by all you wrote...
what to hear more.
xo jojo
ps. lost your new digital camera? glad you found peace with it. i don't know if i could, then again maybe in india i still dunno... strength of your nature...:)
How am I ? A little down.....I see such excess here....our house is FULL, I talked to hubby last night about it, but I have to wait awhile yet, to get rid of things. Lots of donations to be done......
This week I am preparing our home for my mom's 60th b-day. I can see where the kids and L did some housework while I was gone.....however, there will be severe scrubbing involved today. ;-) I have to remain grateful as I work, but I am in no way a Buddhist lol.
Even grocery shopping will be surreal. How lucky am I that I get to choose what I eat ? Oh and how can I possibly eat steak again ? Without seeing those big ol' cow eyes looking at me..... My mom begged me to not go vegetarian on her because she has a hard enough time trying to feed me when I visit due to my Chrohn's trigger food.....I really don't see me doing that.....I love salmon and chicken too much.....oh and hey, I lost ten pounds.....easy to do.....not a big fan of Indian food....:-)
Regarding my camera, I had experienced big time goosebumps in this place we were visiting.....16th century....my gf said "take a picture", so I did, and this orb showed up, it had a woman's face in it and everything !! Very disappointing that I don't have it anymore.....as you know, orbs seem to be a common theme with me.....however, I showed it to the whole group and made everyone a believer...anyway, it's ok....maybe it's better that I don't have it.....I shouldn't mess with scary things.....no matter how fascinated I am. maybe it "disappeared" for a reason....
PS I have no desire to smoke....however I do desire naps.
I feel very different Jo....it's hard to explain. I'm...just....not.....the same...
I hope you are feeling ok ????
Kerr Bear, what's new with you ?
This week I am preparing our home for my mom's 60th b-day. I can see where the kids and L did some housework while I was gone.....however, there will be severe scrubbing involved today. ;-) I have to remain grateful as I work, but I am in no way a Buddhist lol.
Even grocery shopping will be surreal. How lucky am I that I get to choose what I eat ? Oh and how can I possibly eat steak again ? Without seeing those big ol' cow eyes looking at me..... My mom begged me to not go vegetarian on her because she has a hard enough time trying to feed me when I visit due to my Chrohn's trigger food.....I really don't see me doing that.....I love salmon and chicken too much.....oh and hey, I lost ten pounds.....easy to do.....not a big fan of Indian food....:-)
Regarding my camera, I had experienced big time goosebumps in this place we were visiting.....16th century....my gf said "take a picture", so I did, and this orb showed up, it had a woman's face in it and everything !! Very disappointing that I don't have it anymore.....as you know, orbs seem to be a common theme with me.....however, I showed it to the whole group and made everyone a believer...anyway, it's ok....maybe it's better that I don't have it.....I shouldn't mess with scary things.....no matter how fascinated I am. maybe it "disappeared" for a reason....
PS I have no desire to smoke....however I do desire naps.
I feel very different Jo....it's hard to explain. I'm...just....not.....the same...
I hope you are feeling ok ????
Kerr Bear, what's new with you ?
hi ww- i bet your feeling a bit down has to do with many things, mostly jet lag? also i'm sure the reality of being home versus on such a awesome journey must have much to do with how you feel.
but great the family got on okay with you away. good for them.:)
yes i agree what we have compared to other countries... i have seen it too when i went on my journey... amazing the lives we live and what we have.... i will elaborate more in an e-mail soon...
but .... till then .... you probably aren't the same.
aside from what you experienced and saw took into your heart....
and
especially if you are clean.
are you dreaming?
more soon... xo jojo
but great the family got on okay with you away. good for them.:)
yes i agree what we have compared to other countries... i have seen it too when i went on my journey... amazing the lives we live and what we have.... i will elaborate more in an e-mail soon...
but .... till then .... you probably aren't the same.
aside from what you experienced and saw took into your heart....
and
especially if you are clean.
are you dreaming?
more soon... xo jojo
Good morning,
Yes, I am having repetitive flying dreams. I'm usually in a bi-plane and I have a passenger but never remember who it is. I am still tired, Jo, how long does this jet lag last for goodness sake ? Last night though, I dreamt about killing crickets. LOL LARGE crickets. It reminds me about hearing the crickets in New York @ the Tom Petty show....I swear they sounded bigger and tougher than the crickets wandering around my house @ night. LMAO
My oldest surprised me with a visit yesterday, I haven't seen or talked to him for way too long, we had a great talk about my trip and dreams....he shared a dream about being the blanket of night, and there were holes where he sees the stars while travelling. He is such an interesting old soul.
I think maybe the seroquel impairs my dreamworld a little....I should ask ask Jeff on the other board. I have been seriously considering talking to the Doc about going off these meds. It's been 14 months now. It was prescribed for sleep, but I'm thinking that's just not an issue. The addict in me in saying "be careful, confidence is dangerous"
On being clean.....my husband isn't using around me @ all, either. He sits with me in the evening and talks to me, we are enjoying eachother's sober company. What a concept ??? :-)
Yes, I am having repetitive flying dreams. I'm usually in a bi-plane and I have a passenger but never remember who it is. I am still tired, Jo, how long does this jet lag last for goodness sake ? Last night though, I dreamt about killing crickets. LOL LARGE crickets. It reminds me about hearing the crickets in New York @ the Tom Petty show....I swear they sounded bigger and tougher than the crickets wandering around my house @ night. LMAO
My oldest surprised me with a visit yesterday, I haven't seen or talked to him for way too long, we had a great talk about my trip and dreams....he shared a dream about being the blanket of night, and there were holes where he sees the stars while travelling. He is such an interesting old soul.
I think maybe the seroquel impairs my dreamworld a little....I should ask ask Jeff on the other board. I have been seriously considering talking to the Doc about going off these meds. It's been 14 months now. It was prescribed for sleep, but I'm thinking that's just not an issue. The addict in me in saying "be careful, confidence is dangerous"
On being clean.....my husband isn't using around me @ all, either. He sits with me in the evening and talks to me, we are enjoying eachother's sober company. What a concept ??? :-)
Hi ladies!
WW sounds like you had an awesome trip and that your homecoming has been good as well.
JJ I get the funk thing, been there myself lately.
Quit the nicotine in October, have packed on the pounds and been on an emotional rollercoaster ever since. Recently realized I wasn't gonna snap out of it without some help, so I've taken some steps in that direction.
Life is ever so strange...
Take care
Kerrbear
WW sounds like you had an awesome trip and that your homecoming has been good as well.
JJ I get the funk thing, been there myself lately.
Quit the nicotine in October, have packed on the pounds and been on an emotional rollercoaster ever since. Recently realized I wasn't gonna snap out of it without some help, so I've taken some steps in that direction.
Life is ever so strange...
Take care
Kerrbear
hi ww, kerr b. and all -
i'm deep in a anxious funk. went to the doctor, "time to work on the meds" says the doctor... been a long time, she feels a change will do me good. i agree very cautious but there comes a time.(and it's been a long time like this...) in the meantime spring is somehow in the air here in nyc. blessings yes.
ww how on earth are you adjusting? i can't imagine what it's like to have been in a place like india and be absorbing it all like you did and be back from it, yet you know "there is no place like home..." and i keep thinking of that image of the elephant you wrote about ...
and now you are back to life stuff. you mentioned your son's visit which is great, and your mom's b-day.... and more! you are in it. how is it?
hey kerr i forget to ask, where you are from?
songs... ww today i was listening to prince.. "when doves cry"
xo jojo
i'm deep in a anxious funk. went to the doctor, "time to work on the meds" says the doctor... been a long time, she feels a change will do me good. i agree very cautious but there comes a time.(and it's been a long time like this...) in the meantime spring is somehow in the air here in nyc. blessings yes.
ww how on earth are you adjusting? i can't imagine what it's like to have been in a place like india and be absorbing it all like you did and be back from it, yet you know "there is no place like home..." and i keep thinking of that image of the elephant you wrote about ...
and now you are back to life stuff. you mentioned your son's visit which is great, and your mom's b-day.... and more! you are in it. how is it?
hey kerr i forget to ask, where you are from?
songs... ww today i was listening to prince.. "when doves cry"
xo jojo
Hey ladies.
congrats ww, what an awesome trip. i wish i was brave enough to do something like that. also i collect elephants... i love them.
jojo, kudos for checking in with the doc and looking at changes.
kerr bear, i think we should all just erase the word funk from our lives, i am plagued at least weekly sometimes more.
it is warm here in ky. almost 70 degrees. flowers are blooming and i am hateful, haha.
oh speaking of excess, my husband just bought a big screen tv, from our british neighbor that wanted a bigger one, to impress his english family upon their visit. they think americans are nuts.
congrats ww, what an awesome trip. i wish i was brave enough to do something like that. also i collect elephants... i love them.
jojo, kudos for checking in with the doc and looking at changes.
kerr bear, i think we should all just erase the word funk from our lives, i am plagued at least weekly sometimes more.
it is warm here in ky. almost 70 degrees. flowers are blooming and i am hateful, haha.
oh speaking of excess, my husband just bought a big screen tv, from our british neighbor that wanted a bigger one, to impress his english family upon their visit. they think americans are nuts.
Hey ladies!
JoJo~sorry i didn't get back sooner, i think you understand.
I'm from Washington state, north of Seattle.
Jamv~I agree, no funks aloud!
My cloud has been clearing, not sure what has made the biggest difference, the prozac the doctor prescribed going on three weeks ago, or the pack of cigarettes I bought and smoked last Thursday, and all the ones since then, cuz my hubby broke a rule and I went off the deep end, had my bag packed and trying to figure out where I was going to runaway too after work the next day, and maybe stay away all weekend without letting anyone know where I was, now that would show him and my boys now wouldn't it? I was friggin invisible as far as they were concerned anyway ~sigh~ I went home...very late... 11:00pm...decided to heck with him I was sleeping in my own bed, dammit. I totally over reacted all things considered, I can see that now. I tend to let stuff build and not "deal", and with that "funk" thing I have been in YIKES there was no reasoning with myself. I was sooooooo angry, I drove 10 minutes to a store and bought a pack of cigarettes at 10:30 pm. The scary thing is I haven't felt any remorse, I've been feeling better ever since, coinicidence? justification?~shrug~ For now I'm not going to question too much and just keep putting forth the enourmous effort it takes to be "happy" lol! I've quit before and I will quit again...until it takes. I'm going back to see a counselor too, I'll go, I'll cry, I'll vent, can't hurt. Nothing is ever easy huh?
Hope this finds you all ~happy~
NO MORE FUNKS! NO MORE ISOLATING! Where are those ants and rubber tree plant?
I second what WW said in the other thread ~Have a good weekend, dammit!~
Kerr
JoJo~sorry i didn't get back sooner, i think you understand.
I'm from Washington state, north of Seattle.
Jamv~I agree, no funks aloud!
My cloud has been clearing, not sure what has made the biggest difference, the prozac the doctor prescribed going on three weeks ago, or the pack of cigarettes I bought and smoked last Thursday, and all the ones since then, cuz my hubby broke a rule and I went off the deep end, had my bag packed and trying to figure out where I was going to runaway too after work the next day, and maybe stay away all weekend without letting anyone know where I was, now that would show him and my boys now wouldn't it? I was friggin invisible as far as they were concerned anyway ~sigh~ I went home...very late... 11:00pm...decided to heck with him I was sleeping in my own bed, dammit. I totally over reacted all things considered, I can see that now. I tend to let stuff build and not "deal", and with that "funk" thing I have been in YIKES there was no reasoning with myself. I was sooooooo angry, I drove 10 minutes to a store and bought a pack of cigarettes at 10:30 pm. The scary thing is I haven't felt any remorse, I've been feeling better ever since, coinicidence? justification?~shrug~ For now I'm not going to question too much and just keep putting forth the enourmous effort it takes to be "happy" lol! I've quit before and I will quit again...until it takes. I'm going back to see a counselor too, I'll go, I'll cry, I'll vent, can't hurt. Nothing is ever easy huh?
Hope this finds you all ~happy~
NO MORE FUNKS! NO MORE ISOLATING! Where are those ants and rubber tree plant?
I second what WW said in the other thread ~Have a good weekend, dammit!~
Kerr
How very awesome, your trip sounds like it was a life changing experience. I'm so happy you had a great time. The elephant story really touched me, how great that must have been. Glad you're back, you were missed.
kerr b. i so relate. i just started lexapro after too many years on prozac. i think i'm feeling better. i was really out of it for awhile there. funky me. lol!
glad you are feeling something's happening too with prozac. it helped me for years:)
glad you posted... good to see our peeps here:)
three cheers for the ant and the rubber tree plant. and one special elephant too!
not to mention out beloved magpies
xo jojo
ps. washington state must be nice... what's it like? i'm in nyc.
glad you are feeling something's happening too with prozac. it helped me for years:)
glad you posted... good to see our peeps here:)
three cheers for the ant and the rubber tree plant. and one special elephant too!
not to mention out beloved magpies
xo jojo
ps. washington state must be nice... what's it like? i'm in nyc.
KerrBear, next time you feel like getting in the car......remember that I live not too far from you. I am perfectly willing to run to the hills with a friend....away from our sometimes unappreciative families. :-)
Peace,
Diana
Peace,
Diana
WW same goes this way! Funny how when I had to think about where I would go at that moment, I wasn't sure. I'm very blessed to have good people in my life who I feel safe sharing with and who without hesitation offered to take in the crazy lady! I can leave the country if I want too and have a place to stay, I have OPTIONS, dammit! What I learned from that experience is that I figured out I would be OK with just me, myself and I if I had to be. Sounds weird, but I have this huge feeling of relief. ANYWAY...
JJ Northwestern Washington state, where I live, is wet, windy, and gloomy most of the fall and winter. We have flooding, volcanoes and earthquakes. We have mountains, and I mean real mountains, not those cheap imitations they have on the right coast, we have lakes, rivers, islands, bays, and the pacifric ocean. Color color color! It's BEAUTIFUL in the Pacific Northwest.
I'm glad you're feeling better, I definetely have a better attitude these days. We missed our wonderwoman! That's what's been wrong with us!! duh!
Here's to fresh starts! How appropriate it's spring and that bright fire like orb in the sky is coming out to play more these days. I'm feeling better by the minute.
I can move that rubber tree plant~dammit~
Sweet dreams
JJ Northwestern Washington state, where I live, is wet, windy, and gloomy most of the fall and winter. We have flooding, volcanoes and earthquakes. We have mountains, and I mean real mountains, not those cheap imitations they have on the right coast, we have lakes, rivers, islands, bays, and the pacifric ocean. Color color color! It's BEAUTIFUL in the Pacific Northwest.
I'm glad you're feeling better, I definetely have a better attitude these days. We missed our wonderwoman! That's what's been wrong with us!! duh!
Here's to fresh starts! How appropriate it's spring and that bright fire like orb in the sky is coming out to play more these days. I'm feeling better by the minute.
I can move that rubber tree plant~dammit~
Sweet dreams
Yaaaaaay, kerrbear is feeling beary good !
That's the spirit !!!
Take care of eachother,
Diana
OMG cynical one, you are killing me here with your quotes. LMAO
That's the spirit !!!
Take care of eachother,
Diana
OMG cynical one, you are killing me here with your quotes. LMAO
