I'm so sorry about the last time I attempted to post! Please know that it has nothing to do with abuse.I have stated before that since my stroke I have gone through these strange episodes. It's like I black out,but function like things were normal...well,maybe not normal...LOL. When I go through these episodes I have NO memory of what has happened.
I've seen plenty of doctors at the Mayo Clinic up here and they are all clueless as to why this is happening.My Sister,Mother and Son say in a slipt second I will change from acting my normal self to like being someone different.And I never remember any of it!
It had been awhile since I had one of those episodes but I must admit it gets scarey because I live alone.I have to do my best in order to be able to live a life of freedom and not in an institution.The real scarey part is that there are some doctors who feel I need to be hospitalized until they can figure out what is going on.
It's been real hard for me!!! I've been drug tested when my family has brought me into the ER when having an epidode,but they find nothing.Each episode I guess I act differently,but everyone says it's like I have been drinking.I'm not sure if that has anything to do with the sleep deprivation I go through while going through this.My sister says she has seen me up for as many as 5 days.
Anyway...IT SUCKS...I wish I knew what was happening and how to deal with it.I'm sorry when I have posted when i'm not well,but I guess I don't realize that anything is wrong.
Maybe I should not post at all anymore...I don't want people thinking I am coming here drunk or all doped up.The last thing I want to do is hinder someones recovery process.
I do want to thank you who tried responding to me and not assuming that I was doped up or drunk.Thank you all for being real friends to me these past few years,I have really appreciated it!!!
God Bless Everyone here.
Kevin
I hope they can find out what is causing this Kevin. It must be scarey. It's good to hear that you are all right.
Shelly
Shelly
Kevin,thanks for taking the time to explain this.What an awful way to have to live!!!! We were all worried about you as i recall,but i for one,never once thought you were on any drugs or alcohol.
I hope they figure out what is causing these episodes soon.
Youre a very nice caring guy,i would hate to see you stop posting becasue you are having some serious problems.Thats what this board is for,to help each other,to understand and give support.
Theres no need for you to apologize.Admitting your problem must have been very difficult to do.But by doing so,youve eased our minds a bit.Keep us posted with the testing,i hope they can figure it out for you someday soon,and in the meantime,take every precaution possible not to hurt yourself while in that state.Take care~KIM
I hope they figure out what is causing these episodes soon.
Youre a very nice caring guy,i would hate to see you stop posting becasue you are having some serious problems.Thats what this board is for,to help each other,to understand and give support.
Theres no need for you to apologize.Admitting your problem must have been very difficult to do.But by doing so,youve eased our minds a bit.Keep us posted with the testing,i hope they can figure it out for you someday soon,and in the meantime,take every precaution possible not to hurt yourself while in that state.Take care~KIM
I do too Shelly...but it just doesn't look good. Mainly now they would rather see me put away and I guess I can't blame them.I have been fortunate so far as not to hurt anyone or myself.I don't know what I would do if I found out I had harmed anyone while having one of those episodes.
I'm hoping it will go away,but the odds of something like this popping up and just going away aren't so good either.
I just have to leave it in God's hands. If i'm suppose to be put back into hospitalization then so be it.It won't matter 50 years from now anyway..LOL.
Thanks for responding Shelly.
Kevin
I'm hoping it will go away,but the odds of something like this popping up and just going away aren't so good either.
I just have to leave it in God's hands. If i'm suppose to be put back into hospitalization then so be it.It won't matter 50 years from now anyway..LOL.
Thanks for responding Shelly.
Kevin
Hey Kim....LOL...I went back and saw what I had posted in June and I THOUGHT I WAS ON DRUGS!!! I'm sure there are some who feel I am,but that's okay..I'm not here to make anyone believe me.
Thank you so much for your concern!! It means alot,especially now.
Kevin
Thank you so much for your concern!! It means alot,especially now.
Kevin
Kevin !
my goodness............
i love you and i was so worried about you..........kevin...
your my brother in Christ.............don't forget our deal....in heaven.......
..........i am so glad your ok...........
thank God...........
my goodness kevin...........*sigh*
dont wait so long next time........to post........
I LOVE YOU !....
THUMPER
my goodness............
i love you and i was so worried about you..........kevin...
your my brother in Christ.............don't forget our deal....in heaven.......
..........i am so glad your ok...........
thank God...........
my goodness kevin...........*sigh*
dont wait so long next time........to post........
I LOVE YOU !....
THUMPER