hi there guys i just needed somone to talk to i have just come out of prison and am on a methadone programme im on 70 ml a day and have been using gear i really want to stay clean but cant seem to use my time right ie i dont know what to do with my time i live in colchester and there isnt much for me to do has anyone got any ideas for me as i really do wanna get clean and stay clean plz help xx gina xx
hi there its g here again i didnt know there where sites like this i have read a few other posts and i think it is a great idea is there anyones else here who is just starting there recovery i am i have been clean on and off for about 1 month
Hello Gina and welcome
You say you want to get clean and that you need something to do.
I have a few suggestions you could consider.
You could find out if there is any agencies that deal with drugs.
They would be able to guide you in the right direction in getting clean.
You could also consider a detox or a rehab programme.
Best wishes
Emily
You say you want to get clean and that you need something to do.
I have a few suggestions you could consider.
You could find out if there is any agencies that deal with drugs.
They would be able to guide you in the right direction in getting clean.
You could also consider a detox or a rehab programme.
Best wishes
Emily
thanks emily i am with a place called needas and they have a dip worker from prison i meet every week and discuss things with
also i have just joined a local gym but you know what its like im just finding it hard to make new friends that dont use and have the confidence to get out there
its early days yet i just hope i can get there
also i have just joined a local gym but you know what its like im just finding it hard to make new friends that dont use and have the confidence to get out there
its early days yet i just hope i can get there
Gina hello again
I must firstly tell you that i am usually on the coke board you find a few people wander about the boards. After all we are all addicts.
You have some really good people on this board and they will make you most welcome.
I have done detoxs and rehab i finished rehab last summer and then 3 months after care i finished that in December.
Later this month i will be 12 months clean.but it is still early days yet.
I find it does help me comong here and sharing whether its good or bad you can just vent.
Keep coming back
Emily
I must firstly tell you that i am usually on the coke board you find a few people wander about the boards. After all we are all addicts.
You have some really good people on this board and they will make you most welcome.
I have done detoxs and rehab i finished rehab last summer and then 3 months after care i finished that in December.
Later this month i will be 12 months clean.but it is still early days yet.
I find it does help me comong here and sharing whether its good or bad you can just vent.
Keep coming back
Emily
Hiya gina and welcome to the board i am also newly clean well i had six years before that and it is so easy to fall back too after saying just that one last time liten to people on hear they are really helpful and give some great advice it is hard to fill your time up i have kids and also a job to keep me busy but i know that it is hard to grt a job after been in prison i know as i have been there i did 2yrs in 1997 and noone trusts you sorry about the spelling my husband broke my laptop so i am using my daughters computer and the keys are really big compared to mine anyway keep in touch and let us know how you get on it gets better everyday just take each day at a time and you will do it take carebe good sue
HI Gina I think it's great that you decided to come to this site i find that it is easier for me to talk here because no one knows me i hate showing weekness and alot of people think i'm doing great which i guess i am but it is really hard.
At least i know i dont have to live the way i was living before.
There's alot of good people on here to talk to.
About making new friends it's really hard i allways had so many friends growing up and i hate to be alone but i know it's not healthy to talk to any of my old friends. I'm shure we'll both meet new friends.
At least i know i dont have to live the way i was living before.
There's alot of good people on here to talk to.
About making new friends it's really hard i allways had so many friends growing up and i hate to be alone but i know it's not healthy to talk to any of my old friends. I'm shure we'll both meet new friends.
Mia and Gina
The best thing to do is not to isolate yourself, you will end up going nuts(personal experience HAHA).
Try getting some sort of help out there if you can !!
The best thing to do is not to isolate yourself, you will end up going nuts(personal experience HAHA).
Try getting some sort of help out there if you can !!
Hey, Gina.....not newly clean, but I sure remember it....getting inside our own heads is the problem....the gym is a fabulous idea....although don't beat up on yourself if you just don't feel like going some days....newly clean I was like others as where I went head first....like I'm going to do this, and this, and this.
Then of course we get overwhelmed....so what do we do when we get overwhelmed...we use....that's our way....our coping thing.
That will really help though physically...to kick the azzz out of the blue funk we get in....big black hole....amino acids, and vitamins too help.....you'll be better than ever....you can replace the dope with the exercise....a good habit with a bad habit....I know if I say this you'll want to punch me in the head....cause when somebody told me this....I was gonna punch them....yoga/meditation
it really, really helps....positive thoughts bring positive things....you're doing wonderful....and coming on here was a great step...none of us could cope either, and it never totally goes away....so we jump on here, and somebody sends support or threatens to come kick our a*s....and sets us straight.
Let us know is right....you're in good hands....hang in there....hold tight.
Then of course we get overwhelmed....so what do we do when we get overwhelmed...we use....that's our way....our coping thing.
That will really help though physically...to kick the azzz out of the blue funk we get in....big black hole....amino acids, and vitamins too help.....you'll be better than ever....you can replace the dope with the exercise....a good habit with a bad habit....I know if I say this you'll want to punch me in the head....cause when somebody told me this....I was gonna punch them....yoga/meditation
it really, really helps....positive thoughts bring positive things....you're doing wonderful....and coming on here was a great step...none of us could cope either, and it never totally goes away....so we jump on here, and somebody sends support or threatens to come kick our a*s....and sets us straight.
Let us know is right....you're in good hands....hang in there....hold tight.
Welcome. We are glad you are here.
Just take it one day at a time. There are lots of nice people here.I usually do not post here (no personal experience in using H) but we are all trying to stay clean and we all lean on each other for kindness, honesty and a good laugh.
Keep posting and God Bless you my dear.
Carolyn
Just take it one day at a time. There are lots of nice people here.I usually do not post here (no personal experience in using H) but we are all trying to stay clean and we all lean on each other for kindness, honesty and a good laugh.
Keep posting and God Bless you my dear.
Carolyn
thanks guys i really do appreciate it i have had a really hard day today i had to go to town and sort out my money etc i bumped into old friends and ended up using crack i feel really pi**ed off that i did it but i left as they all went off to score gear now im feeling really agitated
but i have just spoke to my partner he is in prison at the moment he got 4 years and he comes home next april 07 i really do miss him which makes it harder.
i think 2morrow i may go swimming i have tried to cathch up with old firends that say they r not using but end up doing it anyway
but i have just spoke to my partner he is in prison at the moment he got 4 years and he comes home next april 07 i really do miss him which makes it harder.
i think 2morrow i may go swimming i have tried to cathch up with old firends that say they r not using but end up doing it anyway
i have my tag removed 2morrow and i know i have got to stay focased i just cant seem to pull myself out of this i feel so depressed .
when i first came home from jail i just stayed in i even got my dad to give me a lift to get my methadone now though i have been going to get it myself as i think i was going mad just staying in not doing anything but the first week i go out i end up using now i dont know what to do i feel nervous you know.
i know i can beat this i have done it before its just keeping my head together and not being reeled in by others
when i first came home from jail i just stayed in i even got my dad to give me a lift to get my methadone now though i have been going to get it myself as i think i was going mad just staying in not doing anything but the first week i go out i end up using now i dont know what to do i feel nervous you know.
i know i can beat this i have done it before its just keeping my head together and not being reeled in by others
Gina
Seriously if you want to be clean you need to get more support than what your getting.
Your old freinds that use that also needs to ends, it sound harsh i know.
I have had to stop seeing all my old pals that i grew up with.
I do hope you get more help i know it is bloody hard.
Thinking of you
Seriously if you want to be clean you need to get more support than what your getting.
Your old freinds that use that also needs to ends, it sound harsh i know.
I have had to stop seeing all my old pals that i grew up with.
I do hope you get more help i know it is bloody hard.
Thinking of you
Gina, I hope I don't offend you with this comment, but I feel that you may need to clarify your statement. There is no such thing as being clean off and on for a month. You are either not using or you are.
I know how difficult it is to stop using drugs, but the only way to stop using drugs is to stop using drugs. Have you thought of going into a Rehab program? It is the only way that I could stop using cocaine. Not being around people that are using, and not having contact with anyone that could provide my drugs was the only way. I relapsed for almost 5 months till I finally could say I was no longer using. Have you tried any NA/AA meetings?
Anyway, I wish you the best in your journey to get clean. Keep on posting here, using or not. Everyone will be glad to share their Experience, Strength and Hope with you.
I know how difficult it is to stop using drugs, but the only way to stop using drugs is to stop using drugs. Have you thought of going into a Rehab program? It is the only way that I could stop using cocaine. Not being around people that are using, and not having contact with anyone that could provide my drugs was the only way. I relapsed for almost 5 months till I finally could say I was no longer using. Have you tried any NA/AA meetings?
Anyway, I wish you the best in your journey to get clean. Keep on posting here, using or not. Everyone will be glad to share their Experience, Strength and Hope with you.
WELCOME!
GIVE YOURSELF A CHANCE!
Like Janet, I am trying to understand the"clean on and off for a month" part of your story but the most important thing is that you are here willing to confront your reality....it speaks volumes! Just do these simple tasks.....1.First give yourself a chance...your life matters! 2. Be true to yourself and to recovery because after the drugs are gone the addict is still there so after the physical detox, a mental one has to take place....changing all old thoughts, behaviors, and ways! 3. Follow that up with a will to live and commitment and you are well on your way! All the best to you!
GIVE YOURSELF A CHANCE!
Like Janet, I am trying to understand the"clean on and off for a month" part of your story but the most important thing is that you are here willing to confront your reality....it speaks volumes! Just do these simple tasks.....1.First give yourself a chance...your life matters! 2. Be true to yourself and to recovery because after the drugs are gone the addict is still there so after the physical detox, a mental one has to take place....changing all old thoughts, behaviors, and ways! 3. Follow that up with a will to live and commitment and you are well on your way! All the best to you!
Gina
I know how hard it is i'm sorry that your having such a hard time and i know how hard it is to stay clean while going to the clinic because alot of people sell pills there thats where i went when i needed to sell my pills my ex has been going to a clinic for 2 years and he was allways taking Xanax or doing coke thats why it wouldnt work. You probably face all kinds of temptation everyday at one point i definetly could not say no when offered but would not go looking so as long as none was close by i was ok. It is so hard to turn it down when it's right there. I dont know about you but when i quit i mourned it like my best friend was gone. Dont give up and keep posting i know you may be strugling now but talking about it is good i'll allways listen if you need to talk. Mia
I know how hard it is i'm sorry that your having such a hard time and i know how hard it is to stay clean while going to the clinic because alot of people sell pills there thats where i went when i needed to sell my pills my ex has been going to a clinic for 2 years and he was allways taking Xanax or doing coke thats why it wouldnt work. You probably face all kinds of temptation everyday at one point i definetly could not say no when offered but would not go looking so as long as none was close by i was ok. It is so hard to turn it down when it's right there. I dont know about you but when i quit i mourned it like my best friend was gone. Dont give up and keep posting i know you may be strugling now but talking about it is good i'll allways listen if you need to talk. Mia
cheers for all the support guys.
i think what it is when i was in jail i spoke about when i come home im gonna stay clean this time and so on and so on i have now been home 3 weeks and have been using on and off all the time really im starting to feel like i need the gear again when i first came home it wasnt a problem but as usual i said i will just have that one hit and since then i have used a few time yesterday was a real low i ended up in town after getting my methadone meeting this bloke i know and going halfs on a ball gear . i know if i dont cut off im gonna slip again
i am going to get on the phone to my doctors today and ask if i can collect my methadone 2-3 times a week from the chemist a couple of doors away from my house then i wont need to go into town every day and bump into people when im feeling ill
i think what it is when i was in jail i spoke about when i come home im gonna stay clean this time and so on and so on i have now been home 3 weeks and have been using on and off all the time really im starting to feel like i need the gear again when i first came home it wasnt a problem but as usual i said i will just have that one hit and since then i have used a few time yesterday was a real low i ended up in town after getting my methadone meeting this bloke i know and going halfs on a ball gear . i know if i dont cut off im gonna slip again
i am going to get on the phone to my doctors today and ask if i can collect my methadone 2-3 times a week from the chemist a couple of doors away from my house then i wont need to go into town every day and bump into people when im feeling ill
ohnestly peps reading your messages is making me want to cry im feeling really emotional
i have considered rehab when i first came home and just before i was talking to a carats worker in holloway and talking about rehab, at the time i said to her i didnt think i needed it yet let me see how i am when i get home but now im thinking i would be better off going into rehab especially a residential one.
did most of you go to rehab then ????
how was it for you ???
is there any rehabs that you can suggest ??
as i dont know alot about this kind of thing, i am talking to a dip worker at my local drug agency i see her 1 a week and can phone her when ever i want so i do have some support i have never tried going to any meetings or anything but i have arranged to go to this goals course for 2 days in april but we all know that when it comes to drugs even 2 days is a long time away
i have considered rehab when i first came home and just before i was talking to a carats worker in holloway and talking about rehab, at the time i said to her i didnt think i needed it yet let me see how i am when i get home but now im thinking i would be better off going into rehab especially a residential one.
did most of you go to rehab then ????
how was it for you ???
is there any rehabs that you can suggest ??
as i dont know alot about this kind of thing, i am talking to a dip worker at my local drug agency i see her 1 a week and can phone her when ever i want so i do have some support i have never tried going to any meetings or anything but i have arranged to go to this goals course for 2 days in april but we all know that when it comes to drugs even 2 days is a long time away
Gina hello
My god i am from holloway is that where you are at ?
I will understand if you dont want to give that info over.
I have plenty of local info if you want it !!
My god i am from holloway is that where you are at ?
I will understand if you dont want to give that info over.
I have plenty of local info if you want it !!
cheers mate i am from colchester i was in hmp holloway which is the nearest jail to me
