hi every one my name is sarah im 17 ive been a herion and methadone addict for 3 and a half years i know its not as long as most ppl but its long enuff 4 me i gotta get off the s*** but im so scared 2 withdrawel ive went one day with no methadone and no herion about 2 years ago and it was torture i just couldnt handle the symptoms and that wos only 1 day tto become clean its gonna take a lot longer.I need to get off the s*** its ruining my life ive already lost all my friends and family i only got me parents and boyfriend which my boyfriend is in prison at the moment and because of prison hes now clean, i have been with my boyfriend for 5 years and it was because of him i got on it and now hes off it, it worries me ill never get off it!!!! Please can any one give me ANY advice???????????
Thanx peeps
Sarah xxxxxxxxxx
Can you go to a rehab? Will your parents help you get into one?? You are so young and mixing herion with methadone is so dangerous. I detoxed at home from methadone in 2002. I thought I was going to die and I was on a low dose. I would hate for you to do it alone, like I did. Where are you getting the methadone and how many mgs are you on??
Rae
Rae
Hi there sarah. you've comleted the first step--askin 4 help-- but whether u live in U.S. or G.B. i reckon your best option is the doctor and n.a. But continue 2 use this site cos i believe that mentally this site does wonders.Ask ur doc about buprenorphine.Ask most people on this site and they'll say " wonder drug " but at the same time every body is different. good luck and take care.
Hi sarah have you tried asking your doctor about subbutex or suboxone if you are america. I think you have to get down to about 25-30 mils of meth before you can jump on ti them but i have taken them and so have alot on this site and i think they are great. I have been using since june last year i know you probebly think well thsts not too long so it must of been easy for me but i had 6 yesrs clean time before that i was on it for years try asking your doctor thay are really a great drug take care and be strong sue p.s keep posting on here as there are some very brilliant minds on here and we are always willing to listen if you need to talk
Suboxone is another option but you would have to get down to 30 mgs of methadone before most doctor's will start you on sub. It would stop the herion and methadone withdrawls though. That may be an option if you can afford it. It can get pretty expensive.. You would have to wean off sub eventually and it can cause withdrawl when coming off, IF you don't taper properly.I think it would benefit you... You have to do something. I would highly suggest getting to a rehab or doctor. You are too young and you've been using herion and methadone since you were 14?? Coming here is a great 1st step. It's never to late to change your life around and make it better..I feel for you and I pray you get the help you need and fast..Here is a link if your interested in suboxone..
http://buprenorphine.samhsa.gov/bwn...ator/index.html
Rae
http://buprenorphine.samhsa.gov/bwn...ator/index.html
Rae
Hi
Detoxing is so hard......i tried so many times on my own and just couldn't do it.had access to methadone and swore every time i was going to use it to detox, but never worked....took me to enter a detox, rehab to get it....they helped me.detoxed wiht methadone and then they gave me less narcotic meds to get through it........still wasnt real easy.......but NOTHIN like i had expereinced b4...wasn't defecating on myself whilst barfing........had twitches for a while.but not the chills as bad........the anxiety, that took a while.......still get it, but not those panic attacks like i did............is it possible for u to go t a detox or rehab?
not sure where u r from, I m here in philadelphia.........remeber the day I decided to go.woke at 6am, copped, cos i knew it would be a while b4 I could get in any place and when u do they make u wait forever..finally at 10pm I found some place to take me.and was getting sick y then.........remember that day as hard.......lugging my bag of little clothes up and down, under the el, in the heat.......sick, hot and desperate........but the determination was worth it.....I fought tooth and nail to stay as long as I could and I left behind a home with two teenagers in charge.......one an addict partying away...all utilities were turned off, people were crashing in my house that even they didnt know.......but i didnt care was determined fo rme to get better.....and i did.so so scary this is, but u can do it, if u really want it........seems hard to do but u got to say f*** it to everything else and do for you now...cos if u dont get better nothing else will and when u do everything else eventually falls inot place.........I also attend na meetings and that was a big help for me the support i rec'd plus when i got home..I never knew what to do with myself........hope this rant helped in some way..I have faith in ya girl.......u r young AND strong....damn look how resourceful we r as addicts.....we plan we plot do ANYTHING to get that high and not get sick.......ue those tools to get well
Detoxing is so hard......i tried so many times on my own and just couldn't do it.had access to methadone and swore every time i was going to use it to detox, but never worked....took me to enter a detox, rehab to get it....they helped me.detoxed wiht methadone and then they gave me less narcotic meds to get through it........still wasnt real easy.......but NOTHIN like i had expereinced b4...wasn't defecating on myself whilst barfing........had twitches for a while.but not the chills as bad........the anxiety, that took a while.......still get it, but not those panic attacks like i did............is it possible for u to go t a detox or rehab?
not sure where u r from, I m here in philadelphia.........remeber the day I decided to go.woke at 6am, copped, cos i knew it would be a while b4 I could get in any place and when u do they make u wait forever..finally at 10pm I found some place to take me.and was getting sick y then.........remember that day as hard.......lugging my bag of little clothes up and down, under the el, in the heat.......sick, hot and desperate........but the determination was worth it.....I fought tooth and nail to stay as long as I could and I left behind a home with two teenagers in charge.......one an addict partying away...all utilities were turned off, people were crashing in my house that even they didnt know.......but i didnt care was determined fo rme to get better.....and i did.so so scary this is, but u can do it, if u really want it........seems hard to do but u got to say f*** it to everything else and do for you now...cos if u dont get better nothing else will and when u do everything else eventually falls inot place.........I also attend na meetings and that was a big help for me the support i rec'd plus when i got home..I never knew what to do with myself........hope this rant helped in some way..I have faith in ya girl.......u r young AND strong....damn look how resourceful we r as addicts.....we plan we plot do ANYTHING to get that high and not get sick.......ue those tools to get well
If you want it bad enough then book into a rehab, firstly you need to be in a place of saftey & only when you can admit to yourself that youre "sick and tired of being sick and tired" Withdrawls are the worst part, but i promise you it gets beter. Never give up,NEVER!
Sara how much methadone are you taking daily?
..Alright Sarah..
..Welcome..as you know heroin,s a very hard drug to conquer..but it can be done if you can find the strength in yourself to be able to detox..although the withdrawals are a horrible experience..i personally feel its the staying off that is the hard part..it does get easier to stay clean as time moves by..but in the early stages of recovery..it can be a battle to fight the cravings..but you,ve came to the right place for help and support..there are good people on here that will be willing to hlp ya..but you have to dothe hard part..and thats staying clean..no one else can do that for ya..you sound like you have,nt got many friends left.and you,ve only got your parents and boyfriend..thats the thing with heroin aswell..it rips families and friends apart..but maybe in time if you can stay clean..you can move on in life and make new friends and maybe regain some trust fom your old friends.(non users)..but for the time being..just work on yourself and take it slowly..one day at a time and all that..anyway..i just wanted to welcome ya and it seems everyone else above has given you good advice..so i,ll just say good luck in finding ya feet and getting some sort of recovery programme working..come back and let us know how things are..Robbie..
..PS..Alright Rae..Nice to see ya on this side..hope your ok in yourself..Robbie..
..Welcome..as you know heroin,s a very hard drug to conquer..but it can be done if you can find the strength in yourself to be able to detox..although the withdrawals are a horrible experience..i personally feel its the staying off that is the hard part..it does get easier to stay clean as time moves by..but in the early stages of recovery..it can be a battle to fight the cravings..but you,ve came to the right place for help and support..there are good people on here that will be willing to hlp ya..but you have to dothe hard part..and thats staying clean..no one else can do that for ya..you sound like you have,nt got many friends left.and you,ve only got your parents and boyfriend..thats the thing with heroin aswell..it rips families and friends apart..but maybe in time if you can stay clean..you can move on in life and make new friends and maybe regain some trust fom your old friends.(non users)..but for the time being..just work on yourself and take it slowly..one day at a time and all that..anyway..i just wanted to welcome ya and it seems everyone else above has given you good advice..so i,ll just say good luck in finding ya feet and getting some sort of recovery programme working..come back and let us know how things are..Robbie..
..PS..Alright Rae..Nice to see ya on this side..hope your ok in yourself..Robbie..
Oh, Kid- been there. Get yr using down as low as possible then take the plunge. Go to a Doc or detox centre if @ all poss. They'd know best presumably but u can do it on yr. own I posted to Hulk about detoxing w/o meds Advice from my own 20+yrs in the Wonderous World of Dope-I mean that sarcastically as I am amazed @ what I've put myself thru since I started back in 84.This is a great site free advice, no shame I dig it. If yr. folks are in yr corner , u got an army behind you.My own shame is so great;I can never let my Ma know what I am.But sister, I can tell u truly from the heart that you gotta, GOTTA stop. Don't be a sap like me.I think my problem (one amongst many) was I belived the RocknRoll smack-glamour of artists like Lou Reed, Nick Cave, Keef, etc.Pretty lame, yeah? But drowning in suburban ennui,you cling to whatever keeps u sane, yeah? I also felt I deserved to be punished for being born, for being a girl, all kindsa crazy.How low could I go, right?Well, I found out, Baby.Don't mean to dump on u but u r young & gotta stop, not make the same dumb decisions I did.Do it for yr. folks, do it for your Man, but most of all do it for yr SELF.Bless u.
Dear Sarah,
I am 44 years old and have done allmost every drug imaginable but herion was the worst.I started doing drugs even younger than you.Then on my own i did 13 years of sobrity then forgot who i was and started useing again.those 13 years were the best of my life.finally after several overdoses and dieing twice only by the grace of GOD was i brought back to life,did i decede to stop.But guess what your allready on the first step,We admitted we were powerless over our addiction and our lives became unmagable.So here is my suggestion and i know it will be tough because i did it myself.Find someone that dosent use to help you not to use while you go through at least 2 days of withdraw (i did 3.5) the reason i say this is so you remember this when your sober you must remember the bad times so you never want to use again! Then find a hospital that does detox and go there,then find the toughest rehab, it should be non coed and has a 14 -16 hour a day program like the one i went to called Pyramid in Altoona PA.The only reason i mension the name is for the people in PA.because i feel it is the best program in this state.Then when you get out go to NA meetings at least 5-7 days a week,get a sponsor and make the program for you! Also reading other peoples stories on line helps me to stay strong because it reminds me of who i used to be.also what i do is wake up every morning and remember the bad times and thank GOD fo another sober day.
Sincerly,
Bruce B.recovering addict.
Hey Sarah, real quick question... do you live in California?
I didn't got a response back from the California question, but if you are there is a real good clinic in Santa Monica. The question might have been straight forward, sorry to sound like a stalker. LOL! I also know a girl named sarah that uses her name like that on message boards and emails who I haven't talked too in a long while. Xx Sarah xX. It was just kind of like a whoa thing...
