Hello
I dont know if anyone can help but last feb. I started taking pain pills. I am now very much addicted. I just got married in may and these pills are taking over my life. I have become a different person. I have tried to stop taking them but i cant do it on my own. THe withdrawels are horrible i cant even function when i dont take them.Does anybody have some advise on how to get off of these pills.
thanks\amber
Hey Amber..glad your here. Your story is our story. You're not alone in this and yes, we can help. We can share with you what has worked for us, it's up to you whether you want to follow it or not.
Getting off of the pills is the easy part, staying off of them is tough.
Yes, you have to go through the w/d. That's a given, But you won't die. Can you come clean with your Dr? They can make your w/d more comfortable. If not, you can try a taper schedule. That hasn't been real successful, but you could try. To me, it's inivetable.... just flush em and get on with your life.
Next is support. This board has some pretty wonderful people that can help and have great advice, but, they don't replace that human face time that we all need in order to get through this. Support means AA or NA and friends and family who will actually help you and not hinder your progress.
There are lots of remedies for helping with C/T. Just ask...
You've reached out and that in itself says that you're sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Cowgirl
Getting off of the pills is the easy part, staying off of them is tough.
Yes, you have to go through the w/d. That's a given, But you won't die. Can you come clean with your Dr? They can make your w/d more comfortable. If not, you can try a taper schedule. That hasn't been real successful, but you could try. To me, it's inivetable.... just flush em and get on with your life.
Next is support. This board has some pretty wonderful people that can help and have great advice, but, they don't replace that human face time that we all need in order to get through this. Support means AA or NA and friends and family who will actually help you and not hinder your progress.
There are lots of remedies for helping with C/T. Just ask...
You've reached out and that in itself says that you're sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Cowgirl
hey cowgirl thanks for the reply
yes i probley could come clean with my dr. I have only been to him one time though so he really doesnt know me.My husband found out a while back that i was taking them and he flipped out. I told him that i stopped taking them. I tried a couple of times to stop but by the 3rd day i was throwing up and had the chills i couldnt function enough to make it to work. It was horrible.I thought about going to detox but i have a daughter who needs me and my family would freak out.I just want to keep it quiet and try to do it on my own ya know...It is ruining my relationship with my husband. I dont know what to do
yes i probley could come clean with my dr. I have only been to him one time though so he really doesnt know me.My husband found out a while back that i was taking them and he flipped out. I told him that i stopped taking them. I tried a couple of times to stop but by the 3rd day i was throwing up and had the chills i couldnt function enough to make it to work. It was horrible.I thought about going to detox but i have a daughter who needs me and my family would freak out.I just want to keep it quiet and try to do it on my own ya know...It is ruining my relationship with my husband. I dont know what to do
I think you just answered your own question... tell your doc. Like you, my husband is under the misguided thought that I quit years ago. He doesn't know about all of the relapses and I'm not saying that it's the smart way to go..but what he didn't know didn't hurt him. Didn't want to rock the boat, ya know? I've been clean 7 months now and he never knew the difference. Sure made it tough on me though. The one person I wanted so desperatly to talk to, I had convince myself that I couldn't. I managed to stay clean but I did it the hard way. We addicts like to do things the hard way.
Sounds like you need to call your doc. Tell him what's up and have him help you through the w/d. He can give you meds to help you get back to work. You'll feel like s*** but you will be able to motivate. Don't let shame stop you from seeking help. Stay honest.
Cowgirl
Sounds like you need to call your doc. Tell him what's up and have him help you through the w/d. He can give you meds to help you get back to work. You'll feel like s*** but you will be able to motivate. Don't let shame stop you from seeking help. Stay honest.
Cowgirl
Hi Amber,
Cowgirl is right -- your story is our story. So glad you posted. What type of pain, how much are you taking a day, and how are you obtaining them? Answers to those questions (if you're comfortable sharing them) might help others share what worked for them in similar circumstances. But be assured, there is hope -- and life can be so much better and more enjoyable once you're free of the pill dependency. M.
Cowgirl is right -- your story is our story. So glad you posted. What type of pain, how much are you taking a day, and how are you obtaining them? Answers to those questions (if you're comfortable sharing them) might help others share what worked for them in similar circumstances. But be assured, there is hope -- and life can be so much better and more enjoyable once you're free of the pill dependency. M.
Hey M..how are you?
Cowgirl
Cowgirl
Rough couple of weeks in some ways, Cowgirl, but thanks for asking. Still clean and sober, and present for my family -- one of the gifts I try not to lose sight of.
Nice to see you posting again. How have you been -- have a nice "vacation"?
Nice to see you posting again. How have you been -- have a nice "vacation"?
thanks
It is really hard when the person that you need support from the most is the one that you have to hide it from. Ive tried to talk to my husband but he just doesnt understand what its like. Its just easier for him to say JUST QUIT!!! Then he gets mad and i get upset and want to take a pian pill. I started out taking 2 or 3 a day but now i am taking about 6 a day percocet or lortab whatever i can get my hands on.This is so hard i dont know if i will ever beat this evil thing. How did you stop taking them? Did you slowly stop or did you go cold turkey?
It is really hard when the person that you need support from the most is the one that you have to hide it from. Ive tried to talk to my husband but he just doesnt understand what its like. Its just easier for him to say JUST QUIT!!! Then he gets mad and i get upset and want to take a pian pill. I started out taking 2 or 3 a day but now i am taking about 6 a day percocet or lortab whatever i can get my hands on.This is so hard i dont know if i will ever beat this evil thing. How did you stop taking them? Did you slowly stop or did you go cold turkey?
Is it the holidays that made things rough? They spin me up but good. First time in 25 years that I've done them clean. Now, there's an eye opening experience.
The break I took was a good one. Had a chance to focus on me and not worry about everyone else. New perspective.
I like what you said..clean and present for my family. Isn't that what it all comes down to in the end?
Love you
Cowgirl
The break I took was a good one. Had a chance to focus on me and not worry about everyone else. New perspective.
I like what you said..clean and present for my family. Isn't that what it all comes down to in the end?
Love you
Cowgirl
Amber... I quit cold turkey. Flushed the rest and got on with it. But don't get me wrong, it took 3 months of falling on my a** to get it right. I was taking 15-20 a day of vicodin and percocet.
You're right, it is hard when you want to tell the one you love the most and he doesn't get it. Most normies are like that. They do not understand that this is a disease. If only they did....
Can you call the Dr. today? Why put it off?
Cowgirl
You're right, it is hard when you want to tell the one you love the most and he doesn't get it. Most normies are like that. They do not understand that this is a disease. If only they did....
Can you call the Dr. today? Why put it off?
Cowgirl
hey cowgirl
yes i am going to call my DR today. what if they just tell me to go to detox or something. I can get through the mental part of it its just getting through the physical w/d's.Do you know what they might give me for the w/d's.?
yes i am going to call my DR today. what if they just tell me to go to detox or something. I can get through the mental part of it its just getting through the physical w/d's.Do you know what they might give me for the w/d's.?
Hi Amber - good for you coming here and admitting that "you can't do this alone". Neither could I. I tried and tried so many times. But the mental obsession is so powerful as long as you have access to pills. You need to make a plan Amber. As Cowgirl said, one for getting clean and one for staying clean. It's time to take back control of your life from these pills. You can do this - I'm rooting for you. Jim
hey jim thank you so much for you support
I know once i am clean i will stay clean. Im not worried about that part. Ive never been one to take drugs. I know once i quit and get over the withdrawels that i am in the clear. Right now my hardest part is going to be the withdrawels. How many pills did you take a day? I take about 6 percocets or lortabs
I know once i am clean i will stay clean. Im not worried about that part. Ive never been one to take drugs. I know once i quit and get over the withdrawels that i am in the clear. Right now my hardest part is going to be the withdrawels. How many pills did you take a day? I take about 6 percocets or lortabs
Amber...sometimes we need to let someone else drive the bus. It's obvious what we have been doing isn't working. Do what they tell you to do. You can tell them your situation and that you feel you can't go to detox. But in the end, let them help you. If your husband heard it from a health professional, would he understand it better? Maybe the Dr. can call him in by himself and explain it....
So proud of you.
So proud of you.
I was at 10-12 hydro's a day, tapered down quickly (with help) to 4 a day and then went ct. It was tough for 3-5 days, then it slowly gets better. The toughest part for me was the trouble sleeping, cuz that then affects your whole mood. For me that lasted 2 weeks. But that's me - everyone is different. The point is we do survive. I know it's tough with your husband, and support is so important right now. Can you get to an NA meeting? Check out www.na.org for meeting schedules, literature, etc. Share it with your husband to help him truly understand how awful this addiciton is. God bless; Jim
thanks cowgirl
ya he probley would be a bit more understanding if a dr talked to him thanks for all of your input.I fee like i can do this!!!
amber
ya he probley would be a bit more understanding if a dr talked to him thanks for all of your input.I fee like i can do this!!!
amber
Amber -- I was taking as much as 20-30 vics a day by the end of my run, then tapered down to 6/day over two weeks, then flushed the rest and went c/t at home. Day 3 was the worst, but I felt much better by Day 5. Telling your Doctor is the preferred route, and he/she may be able to give you something for blood pressure, anxiety, and/or sleep. Sleep (or lack thereof) was the most persistent physical withdrawal symptom for me. You're already showing you have the courage and determination to do it -- you should be proud of yourself for taking the steps to get there.
Cowgirl -- to answer your question in a word...."Teens." Need I say more? If I remember right, you're a mother. And you're right, sometimes it's all about being clean and just showing up. M.
Cowgirl -- to answer your question in a word...."Teens." Need I say more? If I remember right, you're a mother. And you're right, sometimes it's all about being clean and just showing up. M.
I know you can do this. You've got the entire board behind you.
Don't ever give up on yourself. You are so worth this.
Don't ever give up on yourself. You are so worth this.
M... teens? Welcome to my world. I'm lucky, only one left and he's a senior. Almost done. My other 2 are grown and I lived to tell the tale. It does get better..they do grow up and realize that maybe we did know what we were talking about.
Good luck.., you're gonna need it.
Love you
Cowgirl
Good luck.., you're gonna need it.
Love you
Cowgirl
Amber...welcome to hell! Just kidding. Keep reading this message board. Our stories are all the same. You will find that you are not "different".....you can kick this. It sucks, and it's horrible! But, it's only a few days out of your life that you will feel like crap after the pills.