I'm new to this board, I was on another and it has crashed. I didn't have any help other than God and the board. The tough days was 3 thro 5, then a few times a day it would hurt, oh, and that was 24/7, no sleeping and nothing to help me sleep.
Yesterday, I did go to a small clinic and confessed to what I was doing (up to 100 mg Hydros a day) She told me about the Clondine, which I knew from the board but never went to anyone, then she gave me a two week prescription of Ambien. I slept last night for the first time all the way through. Before that, I only slept 2 to 4 hours per night. It was really lonely.
Anyway, just to let folks know that if you really want to do it, flush your pills now and just get it over with (I had over $1000 worth of pills stocked up) OUCH!
I did not have a prescription so I relied on my "source" to get them for me. I have told my source that it's over, my source said he was quitting too, so maybe it's a chain reaction, uh?
Good luck to everyone!
Hey Charlie
I know how you feel, but I got ya beat. I'm on day 20 =:). Congrats on being able to flush em. That's something I could never do. I had to wait till I ran out and convince myself not to buy anymore. I always got mine online so $1000 was only about a months supply. 20 days is a record for me but I'm determined this time.
I also know about the insomnia but that went away after about 5 days. I'm actually starting to feel good again.
Good luck and congratulations on quitting.
Hawk
I know how you feel, but I got ya beat. I'm on day 20 =:). Congrats on being able to flush em. That's something I could never do. I had to wait till I ran out and convince myself not to buy anymore. I always got mine online so $1000 was only about a months supply. 20 days is a record for me but I'm determined this time.
I also know about the insomnia but that went away after about 5 days. I'm actually starting to feel good again.
Good luck and congratulations on quitting.
Hawk
I often tell people to get a script for Ambien to help with the first 2-3 weeks (but not if they wouldn't be able to give the sleeping pills up, too, when this time frame is done), because once you get a full night's rest, you become so much more positive about your recovery.
During withdrawals, you feel so sick and fluish...... and then the 5 days are up and the physical part is pretty much over, but the lack of sleep still causes your body to feel so drained, so miserable...... Getting much needed rest can help with depression, raise your energy level, lessen fatigue, strengthen your immune system......
I don't think you'll need the clonidine now.... I could be wrong, but it's a blood pressure medicine and you only really have to worry about your blood pressure spiking during the acute phase of withdrawal....... so don't take it if you don't have to (also, it's supposed to make you sleepy, so be careful about mixing it with the ambien).
Congratulations on flushing your pills and making a fresh start in life....... And welcome to the Boards!
Danielle
During withdrawals, you feel so sick and fluish...... and then the 5 days are up and the physical part is pretty much over, but the lack of sleep still causes your body to feel so drained, so miserable...... Getting much needed rest can help with depression, raise your energy level, lessen fatigue, strengthen your immune system......
I don't think you'll need the clonidine now.... I could be wrong, but it's a blood pressure medicine and you only really have to worry about your blood pressure spiking during the acute phase of withdrawal....... so don't take it if you don't have to (also, it's supposed to make you sleepy, so be careful about mixing it with the ambien).
Congratulations on flushing your pills and making a fresh start in life....... And welcome to the Boards!
Danielle
Charlie, Hawk,
Great job, it gets better, the feeling of waking up and not thinking I need a hand full of pills to get the day started is in itself worth being clean and sober for me.
Drinking and drugging was a full time job and putting that way of life behind me was the best thing I've ever done for myself.
Keeping clean and sober is the most important thing in my life. The most important decision I ever made was my decision to give up drinking and drugging.
I am convinced that my whole life depends on not taking that first drink or drug.
Nothing in the world is as important to me as my own sobriety. Everyting I have, my whole life, depends on that one thing.
Can I afford to forget this, even for one minute?............I Think Not!
Take care......................................God bless...................................Bob
Great job, it gets better, the feeling of waking up and not thinking I need a hand full of pills to get the day started is in itself worth being clean and sober for me.
Drinking and drugging was a full time job and putting that way of life behind me was the best thing I've ever done for myself.
Keeping clean and sober is the most important thing in my life. The most important decision I ever made was my decision to give up drinking and drugging.
I am convinced that my whole life depends on not taking that first drink or drug.
Nothing in the world is as important to me as my own sobriety. Everyting I have, my whole life, depends on that one thing.
Can I afford to forget this, even for one minute?............I Think Not!
Take care......................................God bless...................................Bob
Thanks Bob
As you can see, I've been a member of this board a long while with few posts. The reason for that is my addiction took control of my life the past year. Ten days ago I became a grandfather for the first time. When I look in that little baby's eyes, I have to ask myself how can I not be there for her. She's the sweetest thing I've ever seen (no prejudice, it's true. lol)
I've never stopped reading this board, just thought that with my using I really had nothing to offer this board. But I've always kept up with everything going on. I really liked your thread on "take what you need and leave the rest". That's what I've done. Luckily, most of what I read I need. I've really gotten serious this time. I've started attending a aa/na group and it's been great. A new way of thinking for me.
Although we haven't spoken much (we did some about a year ago), I'm determinded this time and I thank you for your wisdom and concern for everyone here.
Thanks, Hawk
As you can see, I've been a member of this board a long while with few posts. The reason for that is my addiction took control of my life the past year. Ten days ago I became a grandfather for the first time. When I look in that little baby's eyes, I have to ask myself how can I not be there for her. She's the sweetest thing I've ever seen (no prejudice, it's true. lol)
I've never stopped reading this board, just thought that with my using I really had nothing to offer this board. But I've always kept up with everything going on. I really liked your thread on "take what you need and leave the rest". That's what I've done. Luckily, most of what I read I need. I've really gotten serious this time. I've started attending a aa/na group and it's been great. A new way of thinking for me.
Although we haven't spoken much (we did some about a year ago), I'm determinded this time and I thank you for your wisdom and concern for everyone here.
Thanks, Hawk
Charlie,
Since you and I are about the same clean-wise. Let me know if you'd like to talk and I'll give you my email address.
Thanks & good luck. We can do this.
Hawk
Since you and I are about the same clean-wise. Let me know if you'd like to talk and I'll give you my email address.
Thanks & good luck. We can do this.
Hawk
Thanks for your input, I'm sure I'll be around awhile. I'm really enjoying this feeling of life now. I was only on the pills for 2 years but it seems like eternity, what a waste!
I'm still having some anxiety attacks and the heart racing (same thing?) but that's ok, I know it'll go away.
It was real comical as I was in the hardest part of w/d's, we have a eliptical trainer and I was on that thing all the time, 2:30 AM and I'm going!!! It gave me a little relief, still didn't sleep but didn't hurt, I tell you, thank God for the NFL channel, ha!
I'm still having some anxiety attacks and the heart racing (same thing?) but that's ok, I know it'll go away.
It was real comical as I was in the hardest part of w/d's, we have a eliptical trainer and I was on that thing all the time, 2:30 AM and I'm going!!! It gave me a little relief, still didn't sleep but didn't hurt, I tell you, thank God for the NFL channel, ha!
charlie,
keep up the good work- oh and welcome to the board- glad you are here
love,
adrienne
keep up the good work- oh and welcome to the board- glad you are here
love,
adrienne
Hi Hawk,
Thanks for the post. Congradulations on your new granddaughter! Thats awsome. Thanks for refering to the thread the other day. I meant well with my post, unfortunatley sometimes some people need to twist things to make themselves feel better. But, I've been there too, and just because we get into a program and start getting ourselves together a bit, it sometimes takes longer for some than others. Hence the saying, "Some Are Sicker Than Others". I'm glad to see your feeling well, and in good spirits, and the beautiful thing is your new granddaughter God willing, will only know the real you, not the guy influenced by any kind of substances, you have a wonderful opritunity to be able to stick around a while and enjoy watching her as she grows up. I know I'm so grateful that my kids are still at an age that I can be the father they need and can now depend on. I got clean and sober for me, but one of the greatest motivations for me is, I never want to see that look on there faces again, because daddy broke another promise, I can't change the past, but I sure can make the best of today and begin to make a new and better past with better memories, for them and me.
Great job on your clean time, and again congratulations Granddad, or Pop-Pop,
lol, my kids call my dad Pop-Pop! lol Have a great night.
Take care.....................................God bless.....................................Bob
Thanks for the post. Congradulations on your new granddaughter! Thats awsome. Thanks for refering to the thread the other day. I meant well with my post, unfortunatley sometimes some people need to twist things to make themselves feel better. But, I've been there too, and just because we get into a program and start getting ourselves together a bit, it sometimes takes longer for some than others. Hence the saying, "Some Are Sicker Than Others". I'm glad to see your feeling well, and in good spirits, and the beautiful thing is your new granddaughter God willing, will only know the real you, not the guy influenced by any kind of substances, you have a wonderful opritunity to be able to stick around a while and enjoy watching her as she grows up. I know I'm so grateful that my kids are still at an age that I can be the father they need and can now depend on. I got clean and sober for me, but one of the greatest motivations for me is, I never want to see that look on there faces again, because daddy broke another promise, I can't change the past, but I sure can make the best of today and begin to make a new and better past with better memories, for them and me.
Great job on your clean time, and again congratulations Granddad, or Pop-Pop,
lol, my kids call my dad Pop-Pop! lol Have a great night.
Take care.....................................God bless.....................................Bob
