Well I got another script filled today. My goodness. I don't really know what to say except for this tapering hasn't worked. I'm not saying it can't work but for me it hasn't. I did well this morning and refused a offer form obgyn then turned around and got one from another doctor from my primary care doctor. I have told her once and then went back in Dec. after admitting and got more. It was my fault too but come on. Now I feel as though I'm back to square one. Why is this so hard really? I really want to know. I want to quit so bad I do I really do. I need to cut that Doctor all together tell her again about addiction then go to another perhaps and be up front with my husband there cause at this point I don't even know myself I feel like. I really am not tring to bring anyone down just being honest and asking for help. Love you guys and I'm not going to give up
Hi looking 2bclean,
I know how you feel. It's tough. I finally told my doc that I had a problem and asked if there was another way. He said sure but it'll be tough. I got so used to using opiates for a problem that I found out could be treated a different way.
I have chronic cluster headaches and I can't imagine that there is any pain worse. If there is, I really feel for those that have it. I finally switched docs and I've found several options that don't include opiates. I feel so much better and I've gotten off the opiates (27 days).
Talk to your doc. I told mine that I have a problem and I need to fix it. He actually helped.
Once you tell you doc(s), it's a real relief. You don't feel so alone and even if your not upfront with you s/o, you feel like you're trying to help yourself.
Take care and let me know if I can help.
Hawk
I know how you feel. It's tough. I finally told my doc that I had a problem and asked if there was another way. He said sure but it'll be tough. I got so used to using opiates for a problem that I found out could be treated a different way.
I have chronic cluster headaches and I can't imagine that there is any pain worse. If there is, I really feel for those that have it. I finally switched docs and I've found several options that don't include opiates. I feel so much better and I've gotten off the opiates (27 days).
Talk to your doc. I told mine that I have a problem and I need to fix it. He actually helped.
Once you tell you doc(s), it's a real relief. You don't feel so alone and even if your not upfront with you s/o, you feel like you're trying to help yourself.
Take care and let me know if I can help.
Hawk
Clean
Hi. How are you? I read in your post that you asked " Why is this so hard really ?"
The truth is its the hardest thing I have ever had to do. And were not alone. I'm sure
everyone here would tell you the same thing. Now look at all the wonderful people that have done it. And listen to how much better their life is. It can be done but it takes a lot of hard work. You may not get it today, tomorrow, or even next week but you will do it.
As far as the tapering thing....I would have never done it if it wasn't for my wife. She held them for me. Gave them to me on schedule and I got down to just a couple a day. Then quit.
You also really need to make sure you cut off ALL of you supplies. Tell your doctors NO MORE. Also know that there is a lot of support and love right here.
Frank
Quitting is not an easy thing, if it was we wouldn't be here. This might be hard for you to believe & accept, but doing so will help you get a grasp on things. You do have a disease. One of its symptoms is what you just described. Understanding or accepting that can help you tke appropriate action. And to go one step further, this is a situation that you do not have control over in the way you would like to. The fact that you have no control, at this point in your disease, is not your fault. Realize that and accept that.
It being not your fault & your lack of control does not mean you don't have responsibility. It does mean stop hating yourself, accept your problem, and take positive steps. The first thing you need is help, now. You can not fight the disease at this point alone, & this board is good, but not enough for you. If you had cancer or diabetes, you would do more then post on a cancer recovery sight. Drug addiction can be much more deadly, but thankfully, we do have the total possibility of 100% recovery, if we take the correct actions.
You absolutely must start going to na meetings. if you go now, go to more. Also, if you can, get drug counseling. There are 1-800 #'s in the phone book, usually 24 hours, that should be able to point you in the right direction. Please get some help as you are fooling yourself if you think you can do this alone.
I wish you the best.
It being not your fault & your lack of control does not mean you don't have responsibility. It does mean stop hating yourself, accept your problem, and take positive steps. The first thing you need is help, now. You can not fight the disease at this point alone, & this board is good, but not enough for you. If you had cancer or diabetes, you would do more then post on a cancer recovery sight. Drug addiction can be much more deadly, but thankfully, we do have the total possibility of 100% recovery, if we take the correct actions.
You absolutely must start going to na meetings. if you go now, go to more. Also, if you can, get drug counseling. There are 1-800 #'s in the phone book, usually 24 hours, that should be able to point you in the right direction. Please get some help as you are fooling yourself if you think you can do this alone.
I wish you the best.
Thank you guys! I feel strong again as I know I will have my ups and downs but now I feel strong, hopefull and mindfull. I'm going to call around and find out about meetings around here. Thank you guys and I will keep you posted. Have a wonderful night!! And thanks again.
Giving up is something that is just not tolerated on this board. Hang in there. Keep trying. And get additional help...Meetings, Family Etc.
Frank
I agree frank...And would like to add, you should "tell" on yourself..... Tell every Dr you go to about your problem, you will probably continue to fill scripts if you dont burn those bridges Now...
Best Regards,
Tom
Best Regards,
Tom
Tom....lol....Thanks I know.
Frank
lol...ummm Frank, dont take this the wrong way but, that post was meant for looking2bclean, I KNOW you know...... I was agreeing with what you said to her....LOL
Regards,
Tom
Regards,
Tom
Ooppss
Besides no dr in Calif would give me a scrip.
frank
Frank....Your the best!
Regards,
Tom
Regards,
Tom
Hey Frank
You're lucky. The docs I had just say "whatta you want". I'm just glad I finally said 'enough is enough'.
Hawk
You're lucky. The docs I had just say "whatta you want". I'm just glad I finally said 'enough is enough'.
Hawk
