Hey everyone...today i was at work and had a great day..i'm in the casino business..i made $280 in tips..i do have a college degree but haven't utilized it yet..i make really good money in the casino business...the problem is is that i quit smoking pot for a little while and back on August 28, 2005 i started smoking it again....about 2 months ago the property that i work at changed owners and today when i was leaving work i was walking to the elevators and there was a table set up and 3 people sitting there..i said "oh what's that"? and they said "random drug tests"...i felt like i had to get the heck out of there before they called me back....i felt like a criminal and i don't think i should feel that way..i am NOT CONDONING using by any means but what about the people who go home every night and get loaded from alcohol? They can keep their jobs..what about the people who use cocaine, pills, etc..they can pee clean in a few days..a lot of this drug testing falls on the marijuana user..and the crack users, etc..get away with it..i just don't think it's fair..i'm an educated, respectful person who owns her own home, has a nice car, good job...good citizen, never been involved with the law....but i do smoke pot..i have OCD and pot does help me relax..like i said I don't mean to sound like i am condoning using any drugs..i'm just describing my personal situation..i need to do something about this pot thing..even though i feel like it is my "medicine" in a sense because Zoloft doesn't work for me (but it sure does affect me when i try to stay off of it for 3 or 4 days)..Anyway, i do value my job and i have a high work ethic..i need to do something about this as i don't want to lose my job..I feel like my freedom is taken away in a sense like i said when it's o.k. to be an alcoholic and it's o.k. to use pills and get messed up every day because it's "doctor prescribed"..doctor prescribed pills almost killed my gf (who is a year in recovery)....she told me never, ever to get on Xanax or any of that..i wouldn't want to anyway..i have a hard enough time battling with myself over my marijuana use....i don't need to get on anything else...i want something for my life..more than the life that that stuff leads to..I do have a guilty conscience over smoking the pot BIG TIME (i constantly batter myself internally for liking it)
but everything else is truly addictive (physiologically, physically,and mentally) and i don't want to consider myself addicted..sure i am addicted in the same sense that a cigarette smoker is addicted (a little moody and such when i can't smoke it-it's more of a mental thing)..i've gotten off of it before and have had no physical withdrawals but a little moodiness for a few days-the same as when i quit smoking cigarettes. (speaking of, that's something i need to quit again, also). I need to get back in a 12 step program, try to deal with my OCD and anxiety without chemicals and do the best i can..in the meantime i will keep praying to God to move my life in a positive direction..thanks for listening.
I hear ya bro! First the bad news - I was still THC Positive after 6 wks of absolute abstinence. Waiting for strips and will test today(7wks). Amazon.com, plug in marijuana test strip, and click health and beauty on left. You can get 5 strips for $10, including shipping. You almost could go to overgrow.com/cannabis cafe/drug testing and you can learn everything you want to know about thc testing. You are pretty much going to have to get off the pot to beat these random tests AND keep you job.
There are many of us that feel the same about the OCD. I know I might be diagnosed with such a thing, although I am leary of all these mental/behavior labels. But I know that I am different from many people and my OCD has been my greatest asset when I focus my energy on positive projects which I usually do. I also have found that pot calms me in a good way alot, and i'm a good person, with good values, (we are not these lyin, no good thieven, selfish ****** that many druggies are painted as). But our society is not changing and even in pot friendly states, these companies are tossing out the potheads.
The anxiety will probably get worse off pot. now I have high blood pressure, which I never had before. I read a large study where they found that the potheads had no greater death rate than non-heads, but I want to know, what about the guy who quit, ha!. It's tough for some of us. I know St John Wort is a proven, apparently safe, herb for depression/anxiety. But I have had problems taking too many of these natural cures together and I think that raised my blood pressure. The younger you get of this pot, the better, it catches up with you. There is no "free ticket" in life. Rootin for you! - The Hardcharger
There are many of us that feel the same about the OCD. I know I might be diagnosed with such a thing, although I am leary of all these mental/behavior labels. But I know that I am different from many people and my OCD has been my greatest asset when I focus my energy on positive projects which I usually do. I also have found that pot calms me in a good way alot, and i'm a good person, with good values, (we are not these lyin, no good thieven, selfish ****** that many druggies are painted as). But our society is not changing and even in pot friendly states, these companies are tossing out the potheads.
The anxiety will probably get worse off pot. now I have high blood pressure, which I never had before. I read a large study where they found that the potheads had no greater death rate than non-heads, but I want to know, what about the guy who quit, ha!. It's tough for some of us. I know St John Wort is a proven, apparently safe, herb for depression/anxiety. But I have had problems taking too many of these natural cures together and I think that raised my blood pressure. The younger you get of this pot, the better, it catches up with you. There is no "free ticket" in life. Rootin for you! - The Hardcharger
Imipril
It was employment drug testing that first caused me to abstain from pot. I felt it was really unfair. There are so many worse things that people do that are either legal or easy to get out of your system. I noticed after quitting that in spite of my nervousness and my problems with focusing, I actually did better. It is such a terrible feeling being positive and wondering if you are going to get caught. I did test clean after 4 weeks of abstinence. I guess everyone is different. I remember being really mad at my employers. I have read statistics that say people that are high have 25% more accidents. I treated myself after I got clean to learning to ride a motorcycle. That gave me the motivation to really want to be as accident free as possible! I am having way more fun on my bike than I ever had on the couch as a stoner. Dancer
It was employment drug testing that first caused me to abstain from pot. I felt it was really unfair. There are so many worse things that people do that are either legal or easy to get out of your system. I noticed after quitting that in spite of my nervousness and my problems with focusing, I actually did better. It is such a terrible feeling being positive and wondering if you are going to get caught. I did test clean after 4 weeks of abstinence. I guess everyone is different. I remember being really mad at my employers. I have read statistics that say people that are high have 25% more accidents. I treated myself after I got clean to learning to ride a motorcycle. That gave me the motivation to really want to be as accident free as possible! I am having way more fun on my bike than I ever had on the couch as a stoner. Dancer
imapril-
Yea, I couldn't agree more. People should be assessed on performance and not some silly chemical test. However, incompetent managers will always look for some excuse to cover their butts. This might be your cue to quit smoking. Or it just might be a cue to start looking for a company that is more in line with your values. Or it might be a cue to start looking for a job that will use your degree, who knows maybe a job doing what you love will help with the OCD thing. I can't imagine how hanging around a gambling enviornment would. Talk about self-deluded peeps! Oh well, at least you are the player that always wins, the house. In any event, it sounds like you have some serious thinking to do.
Yea, I couldn't agree more. People should be assessed on performance and not some silly chemical test. However, incompetent managers will always look for some excuse to cover their butts. This might be your cue to quit smoking. Or it just might be a cue to start looking for a company that is more in line with your values. Or it might be a cue to start looking for a job that will use your degree, who knows maybe a job doing what you love will help with the OCD thing. I can't imagine how hanging around a gambling enviornment would. Talk about self-deluded peeps! Oh well, at least you are the player that always wins, the house. In any event, it sounds like you have some serious thinking to do.
