Hi, meet my (ex) dealer the other day. He offered me a bag of smack and I said "no thanks, I don't use anymore". Try it, it's the best feeling ever!!
..Sooz..
..Its good you,ve managed to stay strong in yourself and you turned it down..
..good luck to ya..Robbie..
..Its good you,ve managed to stay strong in yourself and you turned it down..
..good luck to ya..Robbie..
That is the best ever!!! I never used to be able to and i would stay clean untill i seen someone i knew.
I am soooo thankfull that today i can also say no!!!
I know how good that feels just imagine what you'd be feeling if you had used
I am soooo thankfull that today i can also say no!!!
I know how good that feels just imagine what you'd be feeling if you had used
Sooz i tell you what you are a stronger person then me i would of been over there like a shot i read that you are from scotland what part i myself are arom scotland i live in edinburgh good on you take care sue
Thank you guys for your words of support. My boyfriend was like "oh, yeah thats good" and I know he tries hard but he dosen't understand what a big day that was for me.
Mia your day will come when you can say no too.
I live in Glasgow. Every time I go out I see people I knew from the "using days" and its amazing how most don't talk to me now but I keep telling myself they where not friends. I feel a wee bit lonely but its better than the alternative.
Once again cheers guys for your support.
Mia your day will come when you can say no too.
I live in Glasgow. Every time I go out I see people I knew from the "using days" and its amazing how most don't talk to me now but I keep telling myself they where not friends. I feel a wee bit lonely but its better than the alternative.
Once again cheers guys for your support.
GOOD JOB GIRL!
I'M A RECOVERING CRACK ADDICT, I DON'T USUALLY POST ON THIS BOARD. BUT YOU ARE REALLY STRONG TO BE ABLE TO SAY NO. I KNOW I STILL WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO DO THAT. BUT I GUESS I'M GETTING STRONGER EACH DAY. STAY STRONG!!!
I'M A RECOVERING CRACK ADDICT, I DON'T USUALLY POST ON THIS BOARD. BUT YOU ARE REALLY STRONG TO BE ABLE TO SAY NO. I KNOW I STILL WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO DO THAT. BUT I GUESS I'M GETTING STRONGER EACH DAY. STAY STRONG!!!
Ughhhggghhhh....good for you Sooz, that exhibits super human strength....see they creep back, and try to get ya back on the account....I don't know what I would have done....maybe just took it....and looked at it, and held it up to the light.....studied it.....I've been known to do that with empty bags I see on the street just checking ya know.....so good for you.
Pleased to meet you...I'm Bryn.....heroin addict, and freak....clean for a year and ten months....still a freak though....LOL....I give you mad props on that one.
Way to go.....be proud as anything.
Pleased to meet you...I'm Bryn.....heroin addict, and freak....clean for a year and ten months....still a freak though....LOL....I give you mad props on that one.
Way to go.....be proud as anything.
Hey Bryn, ows it going? A no what you mean about dealers. You have to chase them all over town to track them down, then they keep you waiting and to top it off when you get home it's a s**t deal. "Powder power" Hate it!! But it wasn't that long ago a was standing in the rain for over a hour! Am on subutex which a find is alot better than meth. How are you managing?
Sooz....right....when you get a bad bag...beat bag we call it here in the States.
There's an old song....maybe Velvet Underground or David Bowie...about witing for my man....lyrics are right on.....he's never early he's always late....of course.....so I give you kudo's big time...you just said NO!!!!! LOL That's an anti-drug slogan from I think the 90's here....like all the addicts in America can JUST SAY NO....LOL....I'm hanging in....I got a year, and some so it really get easier....you can do it....honestly....nah I didn't do the subs...no methadone.
I'd had it....just wanted out of it....no more runs for me.
You keep posting, and all....everybody here helps eachother...you can keep on keeping on....before ya know it...pffff....won't even phase you....you'll see that dealer and be like hmmmm do I know you.....give yourself a big credit on that one though....that is a tough one.
There's an old song....maybe Velvet Underground or David Bowie...about witing for my man....lyrics are right on.....he's never early he's always late....of course.....so I give you kudo's big time...you just said NO!!!!! LOL That's an anti-drug slogan from I think the 90's here....like all the addicts in America can JUST SAY NO....LOL....I'm hanging in....I got a year, and some so it really get easier....you can do it....honestly....nah I didn't do the subs...no methadone.
I'd had it....just wanted out of it....no more runs for me.
You keep posting, and all....everybody here helps eachother...you can keep on keeping on....before ya know it...pffff....won't even phase you....you'll see that dealer and be like hmmmm do I know you.....give yourself a big credit on that one though....that is a tough one.
Oh some humor Sooz...or anyone...my friend and I one time we're waiting for the man...waiting....using a pay phone....he's like yeah, yeah I'm right there.
An hour passes...now we're into our dope money to use a damn phone...oh ummm yeah I just got my last one, and then you....HOURS in the freezing cold.
People looking at us....like ya only wait like that for dope....without a doubt.
So finally I'm so PO'd....I'm like F this guy.....first of all that ain't his real name...I'm like he is a black man....no black man is named whatever he lied his name was....and I go secondly.....that abusing power...he has power, and it's direct abuse of that....she's all NO NO STAY....he likes us...well yeah we're paying for his kids private school tuition, and his bajillion dollar car...LOL...so finally he pulls up....you don't yell at the dealer....you're ll nice to him....I don't say a word....small chit chat....my crazy friend even before she gets her bags in her hands says...."Hey YOU you missuse your power, and I bet that isn't your name either"....OMG......NOOOOOOOOOOO......to this day we laugh our tails off about that.
He didn't care what she said to anyone about anything.....he just nodded his head like shut up silly girl I got some stops to make....the best though is we were clean for quite sometime....who do we see right slapped on the news, and in the papers....HIM.....and that wasn't his name....LOL....he was so crazy he had his child in the vehicle....the cops had staked him out....he led them on a mad chase....stopped at one point, and put the little kid out of the car...and off he went....high speed chase....thank heaven we were so done with that.
Can you imagine though.....YOU ARE MISUSING YOUR POWER....my girlfriend is such a nut...I love her, but like why would you say that? LOL
An hour passes...now we're into our dope money to use a damn phone...oh ummm yeah I just got my last one, and then you....HOURS in the freezing cold.
People looking at us....like ya only wait like that for dope....without a doubt.
So finally I'm so PO'd....I'm like F this guy.....first of all that ain't his real name...I'm like he is a black man....no black man is named whatever he lied his name was....and I go secondly.....that abusing power...he has power, and it's direct abuse of that....she's all NO NO STAY....he likes us...well yeah we're paying for his kids private school tuition, and his bajillion dollar car...LOL...so finally he pulls up....you don't yell at the dealer....you're ll nice to him....I don't say a word....small chit chat....my crazy friend even before she gets her bags in her hands says...."Hey YOU you missuse your power, and I bet that isn't your name either"....OMG......NOOOOOOOOOOO......to this day we laugh our tails off about that.
He didn't care what she said to anyone about anything.....he just nodded his head like shut up silly girl I got some stops to make....the best though is we were clean for quite sometime....who do we see right slapped on the news, and in the papers....HIM.....and that wasn't his name....LOL....he was so crazy he had his child in the vehicle....the cops had staked him out....he led them on a mad chase....stopped at one point, and put the little kid out of the car...and off he went....high speed chase....thank heaven we were so done with that.
Can you imagine though.....YOU ARE MISUSING YOUR POWER....my girlfriend is such a nut...I love her, but like why would you say that? LOL
The last time I scored I was waiting outside this flat in the rain (always rains when your out scoring!!). He had just come done the stair and gave me my bag when the police drove past me. It wasn't till I got home I thought, F*** if I had been stopped and searched I would have been lifted!!
The whole thing was getting to get too dodgy. I could just see the head line in our local paper "Local mother of two caught buying drugs (in the rain)"
F*** that! It's not just that I found out that there was people after him, not just other junkies but guys higher up the ladder. I didn't want to get a kicking for a bag of kit. So glad its in the past.
Has your girlfriend stopped using also? It must have been really tough for you both, dealing with your own addiction and trying to support each other.
The whole thing was getting to get too dodgy. I could just see the head line in our local paper "Local mother of two caught buying drugs (in the rain)"
F*** that! It's not just that I found out that there was people after him, not just other junkies but guys higher up the ladder. I didn't want to get a kicking for a bag of kit. So glad its in the past.
Has your girlfriend stopped using also? It must have been really tough for you both, dealing with your own addiction and trying to support each other.
