So , i went to a meeting and told my story and about died. I was soooo nervious all i wanted was a freaking pill, i was not going to talk about this but damm, the after math keeps giving me chills and I feel as if I did not get my whole story out and i left some stuff out, you know when I went to rehab, i could not tell them what country i lived in, how pathetic is that?, and the guy there said remember pen, phone , clock, 5 min later he asked me what he told me to remember, i could not remember, ahhh, what a idiot.. then it became a joke after i was done detoxing i would say hey Wayne, pen, phone , clock..haha.
I really miss rehab, it was my safty zone, i always had someone to talk to, it was cool to be sober, now i am out and have been and no saftey net at all.. i also miss my friends that I lost:(....
Thanks for listening, luv Jasmine....
Jazzy, I couldn't even think in a sentence for the first week. I swear. I was so out of it. I never thought that I was going to get better..
Did you ever think about being a nurse in a recovery center? Having gone to treatment and being in recovery is a plus on your resume now for treatment centers...
I wanted to do that when I was like 21. I started to go to nursing school, but then I had to stop going to school. I am looking forward to going back..
kerry
Did you ever think about being a nurse in a recovery center? Having gone to treatment and being in recovery is a plus on your resume now for treatment centers...
I wanted to do that when I was like 21. I started to go to nursing school, but then I had to stop going to school. I am looking forward to going back..
kerry
what type of rehab were you in?
And how much did it cost? (if you don't mind me askin?
And how much did it cost? (if you don't mind me askin?
Hi all, The name of rehab was actully in Sonoma County, it was St.Helena alcol and chemicial depency program, and it was $20.000.000.for 28 days!! thank god insurance paid for it! also i did think about being a nurse working in a rehab, as a matter of fact they liked me so much, they told me when i had a year clean to go apply there, however i havent got that far yet, but i will!! how is everyone tonite, I am still having anxiety attacks, i wish that I was a norme.
talk to u soon, jasmine..
talk to u soon, jasmine..
Brit, r-u still here?????
I like the Wayne,phone,pen clock ha-ha I was laughing when I read that. I know I am a scatter brain as it is and feeling nervous or recovering doesn't help me out any.. Glad you went though and hope you are feeling ok. Maybe next time you will beable to speak more and get everything out that you want to say! Take care! Rach
Hi Rae, i looked back at my post about the pen, phone ,clock thing and that is pretty funny!! i was cracking up..:):):):)..
its pretty late and everyone is probably sleeping, well talk to you tommrow!(sp?)
luv always jasmine..
its pretty late and everyone is probably sleeping, well talk to you tommrow!(sp?)
luv always jasmine..
Dear Jasmine I hope someday someday soon I will be brave enough just to sit in on a meeting.If you can maybe there is hope for me.You have been such a soothing bit of fresh air for this scared person just trying to get it right.You and a couple others make me feel(tear tear)like somewhere somehow I am not alone.All of you will never know how thankful I am that I came to this site.I am starting to see there is a life out there that I don't need to take 15+ pills a day.So to add to this I would like to say......THANK YOU ALL(again)
Hi Jasmine,
I know what you mean about leaving rehab. I was in a rehab, oh it had to be around 7 years ago now. I didn't stay the 28 days, although they wanted me to. I wish I did now. But at the time the custody battle began with my ex and I couldn't focus on taking care of myself. I was able to stay clean for 5 years after getting out. Unfortunately, I stopped going to meetings and I fell back into the same old thinking. I'm once again doing well. Thank God. You sound good, I'm happy for you.
Love,
Liz
I know what you mean about leaving rehab. I was in a rehab, oh it had to be around 7 years ago now. I didn't stay the 28 days, although they wanted me to. I wish I did now. But at the time the custody battle began with my ex and I couldn't focus on taking care of myself. I was able to stay clean for 5 years after getting out. Unfortunately, I stopped going to meetings and I fell back into the same old thinking. I'm once again doing well. Thank God. You sound good, I'm happy for you.
Love,
Liz
Good for you, Jasmine! That took a lot of courage. I'm so proud of you!
Susan :)
Susan :)
Hey Jasmine, it sure takes a lot of courage to tell your story in a meeting like that. I cannot relate to the rehab side of it because I just went to a lot of meetings. I did not want the insurance companies to know about my little problem.
At my second meeting, someone designated me as the chairperson, to set the topic. I see now that they did this because I had been so withdrawn at the first meeting and they saw this as a way to get an "in" with me. Silly me, I thought they were being rude and cliquish when in fact I was simply so closed off that no on dared approach me!
The topic I selected was: "Are you really an addict if you can control your using?" OK, I'll admit it; I still had a few things to learn at that point. :-)
Keep up the good work, Jasmine. By having to courage to open yourself up like that at a meeting, you will also open yourself up to worlds of new ways to live.
August
At my second meeting, someone designated me as the chairperson, to set the topic. I see now that they did this because I had been so withdrawn at the first meeting and they saw this as a way to get an "in" with me. Silly me, I thought they were being rude and cliquish when in fact I was simply so closed off that no on dared approach me!
The topic I selected was: "Are you really an addict if you can control your using?" OK, I'll admit it; I still had a few things to learn at that point. :-)
Keep up the good work, Jasmine. By having to courage to open yourself up like that at a meeting, you will also open yourself up to worlds of new ways to live.
August
Jaz- Don't worry about talking at the meeting. That is what they are there for. I know. It's hard. One time, I was in rehab at a meeting and actually fell asleep! I woke up when everyone yelled " Thanks Dan!". I have no idea what I said..hehe..I was detoxing, so I guess it was OK to fall asleep, because God knows, I needed it, but even I had to laugh afterwards.. I just wish I remember what I said!!!!!
Thanks all! I woke up this morning at three o'clock, sooo anxious!! what the hell is wrong with me, i was having post accute withdrawl symptoms, aka PAWS..
that sucked! well i just got back from the store and am I am here with my family watching the parade and stuff, what is everyone else up to?? well have a great turkey day!! talk to u all soon:))) love jasmine
that sucked! well i just got back from the store and am I am here with my family watching the parade and stuff, what is everyone else up to?? well have a great turkey day!! talk to u all soon:))) love jasmine
I actually got a kick out of rehab...at some points. Here you have 30 people that don't know each other, living together, all detoxing off of drugs.
I thought it would be a pshycologists playground with all of the different behaviors flying around...
You have all walks of life there, and I went in Oakland. Now talk about diversity.
I also saw some really scary things there. They kept giving me the almost dead drunks as roommates. One lady actually turned yellow after 3 days. They thought that she was going to die...she made it, though. She actually went out and drank again. I mean, she was YELLOW....eyes, skin, everything.
I saw another lady shaking so bad she couldn't even drink water.
I saw alot of hope there too..
I even got to play strip ping pong....lol....
August, how bad is it going to be for me to try to get health insurance again??
kerry
I thought it would be a pshycologists playground with all of the different behaviors flying around...
You have all walks of life there, and I went in Oakland. Now talk about diversity.
I also saw some really scary things there. They kept giving me the almost dead drunks as roommates. One lady actually turned yellow after 3 days. They thought that she was going to die...she made it, though. She actually went out and drank again. I mean, she was YELLOW....eyes, skin, everything.
I saw another lady shaking so bad she couldn't even drink water.
I saw alot of hope there too..
I even got to play strip ping pong....lol....
August, how bad is it going to be for me to try to get health insurance again??
kerry
LB- When I was in rehab, I NEVER got to play strip ping pong!
Also, August, dosen't HIPPA now prevent the problem with insurance. I don't know. I am only assuming.
Also, August, dosen't HIPPA now prevent the problem with insurance. I don't know. I am only assuming.
Kerry, you can get insurance, but it will exclude addiction treatment. I suggest you get it though. You never know when you will be in a car wreck or get cancer, and either way you will find yourself financially ruined without it.
My concern was not so much with coverage as it was with privacy. I was downright paranoid about corporate information peddling and this was before the internet came into popular use.
August
My concern was not so much with coverage as it was with privacy. I was downright paranoid about corporate information peddling and this was before the internet came into popular use.
August
Please excuse my interuption, but what r u guys talking about insurance, and being able to get it again, and what does it have to do with rehab, just curious is all? , thanks..
I still wanna know about the insurance thing???
Jaz- the thread just went off topic, thats all.
