Hi to every1 itz been a while since ive posted ne thing as ive gone through alot in the last little while alot of it bad and some of it good hmmmm where to start uhm well around christmas time thingz where extremly bad for me cept for bein with my family that was the good part but i lost my mind complety on december 26 when i was 9 my grandmother on my mothers side commited suicide as a family we celebrate her life not her death this year i couldnt do it jus couldnt do it everything really got to me not only that i also lost 2 good friends over the christmas season with in the last couple of years do to car accidents one was hit by a drunk driver driven a semi truck and the other was in a high speed collision both on december 31 a couple years apart i dont know y but this all of this was harder to deal with then the years before all of this really got to me i would usually light a candle for each person and remember the good times the happines the brought to my life everything went to hell i became weak and tried to take my life i ended up in the hospital i am sooooooooooo disapointed with my self and my actions how bloody selfish of me i know that me loved ones need me and want me around and i know that my grandmother wouldnt aprove of wut i did i am so ashamed of wut i did i am sooo greatful that i am still alive thanks to my guardian angels bless em while i was in the hospital i met a guy who was hit by a drunk driver broke both of his legs we bonded intsantly and he has become a huge part of my life im not sure but i think in a way this is a type of intervention of sort im so happy to have this man Colin in my life i am tryin to have a new out look on my life and make things better Since my suicide attempt ive contacted the local mental health group in my area and plan on dealin with my issiues ive also had little need or want to go and get high on crack i would rather go and see my sunshine "Colin" i dunno wut else to say cept that im HAPPIER then a pig in ....well u get the point Hope all is well with every1 else and if not thingz WILL get better
U sound like a real inspiration. I hope to follow your story and hope for mine to slowly become somewhat of a sucess story also.
Kyra cheering you on!
Kyra cheering you on!
