I went to her cause I don't like meetings cause they make me say I am an alcoholic, and I don't drink! I told her that the people at the 3 meetings I went to all said you won't find one around here were it just addicts. She was so surprised, she said she is going to look for a meeting the is right for me. Besides that I told her about this message broad and how it broad helps me just as much as any meeting. I also told her that the only thing I said at any of those meetings was that I joined a message broad online and I think it's wonderful. Then all the people at the meeting laugh at me, and I really don't want to go back. Then we discussed other things about my life and I got a lot out of it! I feel better.
Marina ~
Hi Marina What a pretty name.You hit home with your last post I am terrified to even try to go to a meeting.I don't think I could bare for anyone to laugh.Its taken me along time just to join this board and try to get help.I wish I could find a therapist I trust but after the last one stuck me on Adderal for 2-3 yrs then lost his license(gee I wounder why)that kinda killed my trust in most Dr I know there must be one that can help me and not just feed me a different drug to start a new addiction.I am glad of this site.Hopefully we can stand by and help each other here.take care.....mollyjean
Good for you Marina, thats the next step we have to take. Ill be going to a counselor shsortly too.
BTW how are you feeling and how much sub are you down to daily?
JohnDee
Hows your Christmas tree?
BTW how are you feeling and how much sub are you down to daily?
JohnDee
Hows your Christmas tree?
Molly~
I am so sorry that happened to you. This dr. asked me if I wanted something for depression I told her no, cause the last thing I want to do is take more pills. She told me that she was proud of me for saying that! I told I just wanted to talk to someone who doesn't know anyone I know and someone to listen :-) Maybe you could look up a dr.'s history before you make an app.
John ~
I am taking 8mgs a day, I break the pill in half I take one at 10:00a.m and the other at 6:00p.m. How are you holding up?
Marina ~
I am always here for all of you
I am so sorry that happened to you. This dr. asked me if I wanted something for depression I told her no, cause the last thing I want to do is take more pills. She told me that she was proud of me for saying that! I told I just wanted to talk to someone who doesn't know anyone I know and someone to listen :-) Maybe you could look up a dr.'s history before you make an app.
John ~
I am taking 8mgs a day, I break the pill in half I take one at 10:00a.m and the other at 6:00p.m. How are you holding up?
Marina ~
I am always here for all of you
I can relate tho I dont drink I tried the aa meeting here as the NA in my area stinks. I attended in miami and chicago and in the aa meeting addictics can share and feel support but here in the deep south for some reason I dont feel the support and know the old timers look kdown on addicts . so I stopped going to aa and na. Ray
Ray- You just have to find the "right" one. I know about the old timer stuff. Seen it a bunch of times. I finally found one I could slide into, kind of like the easy chair that really fits you...
Marina.........Good for you. I had been in couseling before but quit in 10-03 when my using got way out of hand. I just couldn't go in there and face her anymore and I didn't want to lie. I just went back for the first time this week and I loved being able to tell her I am CLEAN! It really helped to talk to her and get her feedback on me and everything going on with me. I highly recommed it for anyone who, like you and I , really aren't comfortable at the NA meetings. I still may go to some of them, also, but I honestly feel like with this board, and her, I may just beat this thing. At least I am doing better now than any time in past 8 years! Something's working right.
So GOOd for you! I really hope you continue to taper ( that's what you're doing, right?) and let go of this devil. I never thought I would be able to do it, and just look at me now. If I can do it, you can, hell, just about anybody can!
I want to say something about this saying that you are an alcoholic vs. addict.... I know that this is a problem and it is bothersome.... but isnt your life worth more than letting semantics give you an exuse or reason .... or if that is not it prevent you from getting the support you need... you -we have all earned our places in those rooms whether it be in AA or NA and if that little word game gets people off the hook both the old timers so they dont have to maybe take a look at themselves and think 'gee maybe I am not so different than an addict' and the addict - newcomers by saying ' goody i dont have to go now...' and the other recovering addict by saying ' well who needs to change this stuff it is just the way it is and the way it has been let someone else change how they are..' then nothing changes... everyone is happy right?....
I think it is all a bunch of crap.....
I hate to hear that any addict not going to get the help and support they need... In fact it breaks my heart as I know that I wouldnt be here today if I hadnt bit the bullet and done it went to meeting.. I went to AA and NA and faced the same issue.... You just have to pick your battles...maybe this should be one of them....
just my 2cents..
Teresa
I think it is all a bunch of crap.....
I hate to hear that any addict not going to get the help and support they need... In fact it breaks my heart as I know that I wouldnt be here today if I hadnt bit the bullet and done it went to meeting.. I went to AA and NA and faced the same issue.... You just have to pick your battles...maybe this should be one of them....
just my 2cents..
Teresa
