Hi, I'm a 27 year old mom of 2 who has been smoking 3-4 times a day for the past 10 years. I managed to stop smoking during both pregnancies but started up again after the babies were born. I know I need to quit and have tried many times unsuccessfullly. My children deserve better and I am tired of avoiding my problems rather than dealing with them. I married my husband at 19 because I was pregnant with my first child. We have had to struggle every day just to get by. We have ruined our credit and have smoked many thousands of dollars away with nothing to show for it. The ironic thing is that I smoke pot because I'm streesed about money problems but I'm pretty much just smoking my money away. I'm finally seeing what pot is doing to our lives. Deep down I have known for years but have been in deep denial. My mind is telling me that I need the pot so that I don't flip out, but my heart is telling me that its only making it worse. I also suffer with severe depression. The doctors have told me that the pot is only making it worse, but when its realy bad atleast the pot temporarily numbs it. I haven't smoked since 10 pm Monday. I'm a little moody but the withdrawls aren't that bad yet. Every time I try to quit I get svere migraines, nausea, nightmares and insomnia. Not to mention being a down right b**** that could go off at any minuit. In the past I even started going to rehab but after a few weeks fell off the waggon again. Everytime I would be at a meeting all I would be thinking about was going to my dealers when the meeting was over. Pretty sad, huh?
Anyways there's my story. I'm so glad to have found this sight and hope it will help me really quit this time. Wish me luck!
Dear Misstoner:
Please try for the sake of your children and yourself. If you can get through the initial withdrawal, it will be difficult, but you can do it.
My 27 year old daughter is a pothead and it has affected her relationship with her family. Now she doesn't even contact us anymore and tried to ruin her only sister's wedding in February. I am heartsick and wish she would get some help. She is ruining her life and my heart is broken in two. She also, suffers from severe depression.
God bless and Good Luck. Try real hard - you can do it!
Susanjean
Please try for the sake of your children and yourself. If you can get through the initial withdrawal, it will be difficult, but you can do it.
My 27 year old daughter is a pothead and it has affected her relationship with her family. Now she doesn't even contact us anymore and tried to ruin her only sister's wedding in February. I am heartsick and wish she would get some help. She is ruining her life and my heart is broken in two. She also, suffers from severe depression.
God bless and Good Luck. Try real hard - you can do it!
Susanjean
mom of 2 here, stoned for years, having kids just made me enjoy pot more! filed bandruptcy, marital problems, depressed, you name it, been there. pot helped at first, then just made things worse. it is hard to say do it for your kids or do it for your husband, if it were that easy you would have stopped the day they were born. you have to do it for you. you have to be fed up enough that you no longer want this monotony to continue. the withdrawal doesnt last forever, and yes you will fall off the wagon, just keep trying that is all you are capable of doing. i have been trying to quit since february, have bought one bag and sold it 2 days later. that is amazing for me. it immediately made me feel down in the dumps i actually started to enjoy how i felt not stoned allthe time. dont beat yourself up, depression sucks and pot seems to make it better, but it is a spiral that just sucks you in and never really gets any better. keep reading the post, keep posting. do what you can.
Thank you for the supportive messages!
Its been 4 days and I still haven't smoked! I'm actually not feeling as bad as I usually do when I try and quit. I've definately been a little irratable, but I haven't had the headaches and nausea as bad as I usually do. My husband and I are quiting together and I think we may actually be succesful this time. I still think about it but then I remind myself why I'm quitting. My kids deserve a better life. When they are old enough I want to be able to say yes I had a problem with it but I kicked it. I actually told my mom yesterday about it. She knew I used to smoke but thought I had already quit years ago. I think I told her because I wanted someone to be accountable to. I couldn't believe how supportive she was. Instead of getting angry with me for messing up my life, she just kept telling me that I'm strong and I can do it. Talk about emotional. That made me more emotional than if she would have been angry with me. I'm very lucky to have people to support me.
Good luck to everyone else trying to kick this addiction!
Its been 4 days and I still haven't smoked! I'm actually not feeling as bad as I usually do when I try and quit. I've definately been a little irratable, but I haven't had the headaches and nausea as bad as I usually do. My husband and I are quiting together and I think we may actually be succesful this time. I still think about it but then I remind myself why I'm quitting. My kids deserve a better life. When they are old enough I want to be able to say yes I had a problem with it but I kicked it. I actually told my mom yesterday about it. She knew I used to smoke but thought I had already quit years ago. I think I told her because I wanted someone to be accountable to. I couldn't believe how supportive she was. Instead of getting angry with me for messing up my life, she just kept telling me that I'm strong and I can do it. Talk about emotional. That made me more emotional than if she would have been angry with me. I'm very lucky to have people to support me.
Good luck to everyone else trying to kick this addiction!
I'm an internationally published expert on marijuana.
There is no clinical or empirical research data that indicates marijuana is physiologically addictive, though a user can develop an emotional dependency on it.
Don't believe the lies of politicians or misguided treatment providers. My best friend receives 300 legal joints each month from the United States Government, courtesy of our tax dollars. He's been smoking 10 joints a day for fourteen years. He is lucid, perceptive, and eloquent, and his body's in great shape (every inch of him has been examined by government researchers).
If you want to know more about it, you can contact me through www.waronjunk.com
There is no clinical or empirical research data that indicates marijuana is physiologically addictive, though a user can develop an emotional dependency on it.
Don't believe the lies of politicians or misguided treatment providers. My best friend receives 300 legal joints each month from the United States Government, courtesy of our tax dollars. He's been smoking 10 joints a day for fourteen years. He is lucid, perceptive, and eloquent, and his body's in great shape (every inch of him has been examined by government researchers).
If you want to know more about it, you can contact me through www.waronjunk.com
whizzinator, exactly why are you posting on an addiction site then if you are pro marijuana, when there are obviously tons of people here that have a so called "emotional" dependency as you call it? there are plenty of pro sites that support your views, this site is for people that are looking for support because multiple joints per day has obviously impiared our functioning, and we are our own experts, highly educated, and many professionals. i am not disputing your "opinion" it just would probably be more useful on a different site.
Hello Miss Stoner: I'm relieved to know you're out there, too. I've got two kids and I've been a heavy pot user (with brief dry spells) for the past five years. I was drug free during my pregnancies and while the children were quite small but the past two years in particular have been a little insane. I quit (and wasn't successful the first couple times I told myself I was going to) primarily because I realized I had only vague memories of the last five years of my children's lives. How sad is that? Of course, my guilt over that realization led me to smoke some more... I've been very anxious and unable to sleep. The second I wake up -- usually at 4:30 a.m. -- the anxiety hits right away. In the past I would have gotten up and smoked a pipe. Now I try deep breathing and counting through my inhalations and exhalations. To be honest, being stoned was much nicer. I imagine that will always be the case, but I want to remember my kids' childhoods.
All I can say is, take it twenty minutes at a time -- an hour at a time is too long and a day at a time is way, way too long. So far, I've been off mj since the end of February. You're already one step ahead of me because you've been brave enough to tell someone who will hold you accountable, in a loving way. That's not an option for me right now. I haven't been blessed with a loving mother. I've been blessed with two terrific kids and a husband who is a great father and completely oblivious to my habits. Sometimes I'm amazed it's possible to keep this sort of activity a secret from someone I'm around all day long but I guess, like alcoholics, one gets pretty clever at hiding an addiction.
On that note, to the whizzinator, I would like to say that I agree absolutely that cannabis is probably not a problem to many who use it -- as alcohol is not a problem to the millions of wine drinkers in the world. I think government drug policies are ridiculous (I mean, thank you Mr. Ness, Prohibition worked SO well). I equally believe that some of us react differently to cannabis than the general population, for whatever reason. I wish I could take the odd toke recreationally the way my husband and most of my friends have the evening glass of wine. I would love to have 300 joints a month and remain an articulate, loving woman with an intact short term memory but for some reason I'm not made that way. I understand your position entirely, but your post is a little like putting a Dewars Do-ers ad up in an AA meeting room. Actually, I find that idea darkly funny and I'll visit your web page right away. No judgment here. It's just that my world is no longer divided into those who partake and those who don't. It now includes the category of those who can't partake. I wish to goodness I didn't fall into that category, but I do.
All I can say is, take it twenty minutes at a time -- an hour at a time is too long and a day at a time is way, way too long. So far, I've been off mj since the end of February. You're already one step ahead of me because you've been brave enough to tell someone who will hold you accountable, in a loving way. That's not an option for me right now. I haven't been blessed with a loving mother. I've been blessed with two terrific kids and a husband who is a great father and completely oblivious to my habits. Sometimes I'm amazed it's possible to keep this sort of activity a secret from someone I'm around all day long but I guess, like alcoholics, one gets pretty clever at hiding an addiction.
On that note, to the whizzinator, I would like to say that I agree absolutely that cannabis is probably not a problem to many who use it -- as alcohol is not a problem to the millions of wine drinkers in the world. I think government drug policies are ridiculous (I mean, thank you Mr. Ness, Prohibition worked SO well). I equally believe that some of us react differently to cannabis than the general population, for whatever reason. I wish I could take the odd toke recreationally the way my husband and most of my friends have the evening glass of wine. I would love to have 300 joints a month and remain an articulate, loving woman with an intact short term memory but for some reason I'm not made that way. I understand your position entirely, but your post is a little like putting a Dewars Do-ers ad up in an AA meeting room. Actually, I find that idea darkly funny and I'll visit your web page right away. No judgment here. It's just that my world is no longer divided into those who partake and those who don't. It now includes the category of those who can't partake. I wish to goodness I didn't fall into that category, but I do.
Hi
I'm a 41 and I smoked for 20 years,and like you I always quit when i was
carrying my children, do you really want to quit if so only Jesus can heal
you. I beg you for your children sake to pick a church and start going.
Every sunday the church is a hospital for the sick. you think you can
do it for yourself and you will fail every time,because satan is a liar,
thief,he comes to steal, kill and destroy..The
reason I on this web site because my son is using pot,beer, my heart
so broken because it took 20 years of taking drugs myself, and I know
that it leads to others drugs also.I continue to pray for him daily, he is
rebelling,not go to school.But you know WHAT I KNOW OUR GOD IS
BIGGER THAN THE PROBLEM,and he will help you too!!!! If you need
help ASK GOD TO HELP YOU!!!! HE WILL.. YOU WILL BE IN MY
PRAYERS RO
I'm a 41 and I smoked for 20 years,and like you I always quit when i was
carrying my children, do you really want to quit if so only Jesus can heal
you. I beg you for your children sake to pick a church and start going.
Every sunday the church is a hospital for the sick. you think you can
do it for yourself and you will fail every time,because satan is a liar,
thief,he comes to steal, kill and destroy..The
reason I on this web site because my son is using pot,beer, my heart
so broken because it took 20 years of taking drugs myself, and I know
that it leads to others drugs also.I continue to pray for him daily, he is
rebelling,not go to school.But you know WHAT I KNOW OUR GOD IS
BIGGER THAN THE PROBLEM,and he will help you too!!!! If you need
help ASK GOD TO HELP YOU!!!! HE WILL.. YOU WILL BE IN MY
PRAYERS RO
