After 2 yrs addicted to pain meds~an accidental addiction after having a procedure done at an oral surgeons office...I realized the chase was on after only 6 wks of using the med's....opiates became the be all to end all in my life! When the prescriptions ran out so did my common sence...the two years were life changing so I thought MMT would fix everything....I started the clinic 10 yrs ago...and 19 days ago I walked out of there my pride gone but my determination fired up and ready to go....I was taking 100 mgs for the first 5 yrs the past 4 I dropped 5 mg every 3 months until I got to 60 mg...from there I stayed until 29 days ago when I decided to end the ride and the fight to get my life back began...I dropped from 60mg daily each morning to 5mgs in 10 days...the day I left the clinic everyone there...nurses and all smiled and said you'll be back...I thought I'd die first...how could I let them be right...they didnt know the me before Methadone and I was gonna find that girl one way or the other....here I am clean and feeling a lot better than I did as the real detox began cold turkey at home in a guest room where I thought I'd die...but, I've slowly began to feel better....still not sleeping at all...tossing & turning all night...I still get the rapid heartrate when im up long...I have little energy and the anxiety runs wild....but I am clean after 12 yrs of hating myself ....Im gonna do this! I am doing this! Just wondering when I'll have my own energy...my sleep back to normal and when will this anxiety heal? I am new here but eager to give back as I recover....any advise would mean a lot!
Hey doing. I have come off methadone and I can share what happened to me. I wish I could tell you it a breeze. Nada. It was hell and I never want to do it again. I felt like crap for about 27 days. I did not sleep for almost two weeks! The cold sweats were there for about a month as well. And energy ha that was a dream. BUT day by day it got a little better. So please hang in there cause it is soooooo worth it. 12 years is amazing. Keep on doing the next right thing. Get out and get some exercise, stay busy, and take it easy. Try making a list of things that you are grateful for and a list of 3 things to do daily.(ex.making the bed,doing dishes,walking). Pray. Hope this helps HUGS! You can do it!!!
Jessica
Jessica
Great advice Girl!!!
To I am doin it,
In my humble pinion, it was foolish to drop so quickly, as I see you have noticed. You detoxed correctly in the beginning and you should have kept doing it...slowly. While you may still be going thru some of the hell you have described it probably wouldnt be so bad,but I dont know for sure. In the people I know who have detoxed as you have it took a long while to get back to some semblence of being normal. My husband is still dealing with the no energy and the anxiety. Another friend dropped from like 300mg to 0 in about 3.5 yrs and the first 6 mos for him was bad. Detoxing from methadone is not necessarily harder than heroin, but it does take longer from what I understand.
Because methadone is a pain reliever, it, to some degree blocked the pain he had from a bad back and when he was finished had to have some surgery to repair it. Almost a year later he is finally doing quite well, never thinking that after being on MMT for 13+ years he would ever be off of it.He still volunteers to chair meetings about recovery too.
Many who try to detox come face to face with broken bodies they didnt know they had because of the methadone. Many try to blame methadone for their bad teeth and arthritis they experience when they are older. Thats a laugh because I dont know many heroin addicts who make regular dentist appts when they are using much less regular dr appts.It was the lack of caring for their health and their teeth that has caused all this not because they were on methadone.
All I can say to you is you seem to be determined to be free of methadone and I wish you well. There are many things you can do to alleviate the symptoms you are experiencing,a lot of them are right here on this website,you'll just have to look thru some of the older posts to find them. Try and be patient for one day you will be free of the discomforts you are experiencing and you will find the girl you lost so long ago. She may be older and wiser,but that's OK:)
Keep coming back and catalog how you are doing so other folks in your shoes or those who might be thinking of tapering or detoxing off methadone altogether can read what you are doing or did to get off completely.
Good luck to you and stay strong! I'd think it can only get better for you from here, but dont ever think of it as a failure if you need to,at any time,go back to your clinic and ask for help.
granny
To I am doin it,
In my humble pinion, it was foolish to drop so quickly, as I see you have noticed. You detoxed correctly in the beginning and you should have kept doing it...slowly. While you may still be going thru some of the hell you have described it probably wouldnt be so bad,but I dont know for sure. In the people I know who have detoxed as you have it took a long while to get back to some semblence of being normal. My husband is still dealing with the no energy and the anxiety. Another friend dropped from like 300mg to 0 in about 3.5 yrs and the first 6 mos for him was bad. Detoxing from methadone is not necessarily harder than heroin, but it does take longer from what I understand.
Because methadone is a pain reliever, it, to some degree blocked the pain he had from a bad back and when he was finished had to have some surgery to repair it. Almost a year later he is finally doing quite well, never thinking that after being on MMT for 13+ years he would ever be off of it.He still volunteers to chair meetings about recovery too.
Many who try to detox come face to face with broken bodies they didnt know they had because of the methadone. Many try to blame methadone for their bad teeth and arthritis they experience when they are older. Thats a laugh because I dont know many heroin addicts who make regular dentist appts when they are using much less regular dr appts.It was the lack of caring for their health and their teeth that has caused all this not because they were on methadone.
All I can say to you is you seem to be determined to be free of methadone and I wish you well. There are many things you can do to alleviate the symptoms you are experiencing,a lot of them are right here on this website,you'll just have to look thru some of the older posts to find them. Try and be patient for one day you will be free of the discomforts you are experiencing and you will find the girl you lost so long ago. She may be older and wiser,but that's OK:)
Keep coming back and catalog how you are doing so other folks in your shoes or those who might be thinking of tapering or detoxing off methadone altogether can read what you are doing or did to get off completely.
Good luck to you and stay strong! I'd think it can only get better for you from here, but dont ever think of it as a failure if you need to,at any time,go back to your clinic and ask for help.
granny
