quick summary of my situation: i will be 34 in june. I started doing heroin at 13. suffice to say i have a long history. got on suboxone officialy the right way almost 4 yrs ago after trying to WD from it for a year. (yes a year.lots of mistakes and obstacles). anyways..i really thought i was ok. better. I have been working for the first time in a decade..the few relationships i have improved and i felt good..until i realized i will not be able to pay for this in about six months. i have been on zubsolv for almost a year due too this being last resort of finding a manufacturer to cover it- equivalent to 12 megs of suboxone, yes i know. today i reduced my dose. slightly. and i couldn't handle it. the sweaty goosebumps. the moodswings. and i am astounded that such a minimal reduction caused this. I feel hopeless. that doesn't even describe it. terrified. my bf and my aunt are saying its time to do this, to be free. but the way I'm feeling today is a reality check. i work at a fast food restaurant( thats what happens kids when you drop out of school) and i have customers in my face all day. its physically demanding, and doing it today was torture. i will never save close to enough to take a leave of absence. i feel screwed, and yea I'm aware my attitude sucks. I'm being ran by fear. i don't understand how a slight reduction on that high of dose was so difficult. and i don't know how I'm going to survive this in the end. please, somebody. feedback? anything!
I've been trying to reach out as well case I have nobody to go to and ask questions and Google didn't help it just scared the living crap out of me however Noone nowhere have I been able to find to help me out I'm starting to feel very discouraged maybe this is a sign I sure as heck hope not.....I'm ready to get clean but I made a choice I thought would help but I'm uneducated about the situation and can't find Noone to try and answer my questions....I'm scared I'm ready to get clean and after all this in feeling like I wanna use :(
Idk how to open your reply to read it....in new to this so idk
Hiya
I am 20 odd days off subbies, after a year and quarter on them, and went to work when first coming off them. Lasted 2 days then had to phone in sick, no way I'd recommend days 3 they 7 in workplace whilst withdrawing from opiates. Just not helpful. Stay home and concentrate on helping yourself, I'd feel too much like need pills if I'm colleagues company during them times.
Hope all goes well. Take care and shout if I can help.
Best wishes
Paul.
I am 20 odd days off subbies, after a year and quarter on them, and went to work when first coming off them. Lasted 2 days then had to phone in sick, no way I'd recommend days 3 they 7 in workplace whilst withdrawing from opiates. Just not helpful. Stay home and concentrate on helping yourself, I'd feel too much like need pills if I'm colleagues company during them times.
Hope all goes well. Take care and shout if I can help.
Best wishes
Paul.
Tapering while on subs should be done under a Dr's care. Speaking from personal experience I tried to taper from 16mg to zero and I was sick on the sofa for 45 days. After all that time of still feeling sick in wd, I eventually went back to the Dr and tapered the correct way with his support. I'm not trying to discourage anyone but I was unable to stop by myself