...... keep me in your thoughts.
Next Wednesday I will be going to surgery for my good knee. I have had 5 surgeries on a knee I shattered in 1997 and all the compensation has really taken a toll on my good left knee. So it's time to go in for surgery on it now. I'm a bit nervous. I need at least one good knee or I will find myself in a w/c at a young age. I have one doctor who prescribes my pain meds when needed and oddly enough I have not been able to reach him for the post op pain meds. My surgeon felt it best the other doc handle my meds. My surgery is Wed. and he won't be in til Tuesday. I have called and called and no response. When I first told him of the surgery he said it was no problem he would take care of my post op meds. But it's looking like I might be on Tylenol. A scary thought indeed. But whatever. I'm headed to the OR w/orw/o him.
Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. My goal is to be able to swim and build muscle and keep my legs going another several years. I have always felt very positive about the surgeries in the past. The fact all my docs are not lined up has this one making me very nervous so I'm just asking for any support and calm you can offer. Smile. I know I just have to settle down and trust the process. The rehab will not be so fun and depending on the extent of the surgery could take a few months. I've been through it before. But it's been a few years ago.
Anyway, wanted to post as I'm up and down on the stress rictor scale.
Thanks for listening.
pm
hi honey,
I will be thinking of you, praying for a successful surgery and a better pain free life because of it, there have been many here who had to have pain meds for surgery..while in recovery ...just lay it all on the table re your past addictions, get someone you trust to give them to you as needed. you'll be fine..surgeon thats doing it should not send you home without proper meds.....
Let us know how it goes luv,
You'll do great!!!!!
Hugs,
Ali
I will be thinking of you, praying for a successful surgery and a better pain free life because of it, there have been many here who had to have pain meds for surgery..while in recovery ...just lay it all on the table re your past addictions, get someone you trust to give them to you as needed. you'll be fine..surgeon thats doing it should not send you home without proper meds.....
Let us know how it goes luv,
You'll do great!!!!!
Hugs,
Ali
So sorry that you are going through so much, you are in my thoughts and prayers.
I think you are an amazing person with a wonderful outlook on life and I know you will come through this well.Here's wishing you a speedy recovery. I will also say a prayer that you reach your doctor on Tuesday and that everything goes flawless!
Take care and God Bless
I think you are an amazing person with a wonderful outlook on life and I know you will come through this well.Here's wishing you a speedy recovery. I will also say a prayer that you reach your doctor on Tuesday and that everything goes flawless!
Take care and God Bless
Thanks Ali,
I appreciate the support. I sure hope it goes smoothly. I cannot sleep past couple of nights thinking about it. I do have a friend who will be staying with me the first 3 days to help me. Thank God for that. She is going to help me stock my freezer with food so I can just microwave meals instead of my normal mode of tv dinners after surgery. When I had the first surgery I was in bad shape and had meals on wheels and it was sort of impossible. They always delivered when I was in PT and they delivered in metal tins set by my door which I could not microwave w/o changing into plastic. lol. So I just ended up living off TV dinners and pbj sandwhiches. I needed easy fast ways to fix meals while being on crutches. They would not let me cancel them so I donated them to someone who could use them. It was kind of funny.
The third day after this surgery I'll be alone again but I can do it. I will have to just be very accountable. I do have some neighbors who said they would look in on me. So this hopefully will work.
peace,
pm
I appreciate the support. I sure hope it goes smoothly. I cannot sleep past couple of nights thinking about it. I do have a friend who will be staying with me the first 3 days to help me. Thank God for that. She is going to help me stock my freezer with food so I can just microwave meals instead of my normal mode of tv dinners after surgery. When I had the first surgery I was in bad shape and had meals on wheels and it was sort of impossible. They always delivered when I was in PT and they delivered in metal tins set by my door which I could not microwave w/o changing into plastic. lol. So I just ended up living off TV dinners and pbj sandwhiches. I needed easy fast ways to fix meals while being on crutches. They would not let me cancel them so I donated them to someone who could use them. It was kind of funny.
The third day after this surgery I'll be alone again but I can do it. I will have to just be very accountable. I do have some neighbors who said they would look in on me. So this hopefully will work.
peace,
pm
Hey Just Lurkin!
Hi friend. We sort of lost eachother! I'm so glad to hear from you. I'll try to email you and catch up. I went to Indiana for a family visit and life got crazy on me. How are you anyway???
I do think about you alot.
love,
pm
Hi friend. We sort of lost eachother! I'm so glad to hear from you. I'll try to email you and catch up. I went to Indiana for a family visit and life got crazy on me. How are you anyway???
I do think about you alot.
love,
pm
Hey pm,
I'm sorry you have to have surgery again. I wish you the best. Good luck and a speedy recovery. I will keep you in my prayers as well. Take care and be good to yourself.
God bless
gi
I'm sorry you have to have surgery again. I wish you the best. Good luck and a speedy recovery. I will keep you in my prayers as well. Take care and be good to yourself.
God bless
gi
I'm doing fine thank you..I hear ya about life getting crazy on you it has for me too.I would love to catch up with you and hear all about your trip! Please try not to worry too much about surgery (easier said then done) And please don't hesitate to let me know if you need anything!Love C
Thanks Gina,
I'm usually really ready for these. I think I just need a couple more days. Smile. Gotta get my bad a**, nothings gonna stop me now attitude back. lol.
peace,
pm
I'm usually really ready for these. I think I just need a couple more days. Smile. Gotta get my bad a**, nothings gonna stop me now attitude back. lol.
peace,
pm
Thanks C,
I'll get an email off to you this weekend or Monday for sure.
love,
pm
I'll get an email off to you this weekend or Monday for sure.
love,
pm
Amy,
I posted back to you on my thread, but I just wanted you to call me. I may be able to help you out with some more ready made meals sweetie. I hate to think of you on TV dinners, and pbj sandwichs. My girls can help me whip up some meals you can throw in the microwave that have good nutrition to them. So, just ring me up, and I will see what I can make you to keep ya healthy and strong.
I want you to heal fast, and good meals do help.... so call me, and lets what stuff you like to eat. Plus I want to know which hospital, and do you need a ride, or even help with walking the pup. I am only about 30 minutes from ya.
You are in my prayers sweetie. I am glad you are finally getting this done. I want to see you out of all the horrific pain you have been in with you good knee getting so bad. Are they sure the other knee can hold up for the time being for the good one can heal? I am worried about ya.....
Love you sister,
Carrie
I posted back to you on my thread, but I just wanted you to call me. I may be able to help you out with some more ready made meals sweetie. I hate to think of you on TV dinners, and pbj sandwichs. My girls can help me whip up some meals you can throw in the microwave that have good nutrition to them. So, just ring me up, and I will see what I can make you to keep ya healthy and strong.
I want you to heal fast, and good meals do help.... so call me, and lets what stuff you like to eat. Plus I want to know which hospital, and do you need a ride, or even help with walking the pup. I am only about 30 minutes from ya.
You are in my prayers sweetie. I am glad you are finally getting this done. I want to see you out of all the horrific pain you have been in with you good knee getting so bad. Are they sure the other knee can hold up for the time being for the good one can heal? I am worried about ya.....
Love you sister,
Carrie
PM,
i will be thinking of you and sending prayers your way, be still and everything will work out, they will not make you suffer, if you explain your situation to the dr's at the hosp i am sure they will help you out. lots of posative thoughts and healing.
god speed
terrianne
i will be thinking of you and sending prayers your way, be still and everything will work out, they will not make you suffer, if you explain your situation to the dr's at the hosp i am sure they will help you out. lots of posative thoughts and healing.
god speed
terrianne
Hi PM,
I'll keep you in my prayers. I'm sure it will all work out fine. Hang in there and know everybody here will be thinking about you while you are gone. Good Luck to you.
Love,
Liz
I'll keep you in my prayers. I'm sure it will all work out fine. Hang in there and know everybody here will be thinking about you while you are gone. Good Luck to you.
Love,
Liz
Amy,
I'll be thinking of you, sending white light your way. You're one of the most centered people I know. Get well soon and come back here as quick as you can.
Love, Gina
I'll be thinking of you, sending white light your way. You're one of the most centered people I know. Get well soon and come back here as quick as you can.
Love, Gina
Carrie,
That's really sweet. Thanks so much. I will be at Panorama Surgery Center on Wed. They will send me home that evening. I have a friend who will stay at my place Tue, take me to surgery and flies out on Sat. She said she will help me get things sort of organized in the apt. and with some food for the initial time when she is gone. I'm thinking the worst case scenario is if he does microfractues to the knee in which I won't be able to bear weight. He won't know til he gets in there. In which case the following week after my friend leaves might be kind of tough. Dog walking out to be pretty interesting won't it?! OMG. I do have neighbors who have offered to help after work so that might be good. Feels strange living out here where I don't know a lot of people. You'd come help for real??? But you have your arm and your own set of problems so I just don't want to put anyone out. I'll call you later today. Let's chat about it.
Terrianne,
Thanks. I sure hope that doc makes things right. I plan to go stomping in his office on Monday to find out what the plan is and why they don't return calls. lol. It's funny the very docs who want you to take all that pain med don't want to call you back when something major is happening. I even physically went to the office when we planned out the surgery about a month and a half ago and was assured all would be taken care of. I cut out most the meds he gave me because I just had this weird feeling this was going to happen. I went off all Oxy hell and to just about 2 Vicodin a day. It's hard enough to do it this way. Flirting everyday with this stupid pill disease. I just wish I could take Ibuprofen or NSAIDs and be done with all this stinking pill crap. I'm so sick of it. Venting venting beep beep beep!!! Sorry. I just about went onto a soapbox. lmao. Okay breathe breathe breathe. It's just they told me not to wean they'd work with me but I don't trust these docs that want so much control over your life. So hopefully even if he doesn't come through I'll be okay. I'd tried to cld turkey but I cannot walk.
Gina,
Thanks friend. I'm gonna bath in white light by day and night until this thing is healed and I am walking strong. I'm hoping I can keep that center and my focus into the recovery. I'm sure come Wed. I'll have left all these little fire dragons behind and be ready to move right on through it. Just got some jitters going. Smile.
Liz,
Thanks, I'll probably be posting whining posts for encouragement. lololol.. I'm not sure what to expect when my good knee will be out of commission and my injured knee will now be working overtime to compensate for awhile. Hopefully it will be a quick healing. Smile.
I hope it's not significant it's Pear Harbor Day! Yeesh!
Thanks everyone.
I needed this pick me up.
love,
pm
That's really sweet. Thanks so much. I will be at Panorama Surgery Center on Wed. They will send me home that evening. I have a friend who will stay at my place Tue, take me to surgery and flies out on Sat. She said she will help me get things sort of organized in the apt. and with some food for the initial time when she is gone. I'm thinking the worst case scenario is if he does microfractues to the knee in which I won't be able to bear weight. He won't know til he gets in there. In which case the following week after my friend leaves might be kind of tough. Dog walking out to be pretty interesting won't it?! OMG. I do have neighbors who have offered to help after work so that might be good. Feels strange living out here where I don't know a lot of people. You'd come help for real??? But you have your arm and your own set of problems so I just don't want to put anyone out. I'll call you later today. Let's chat about it.
Terrianne,
Thanks. I sure hope that doc makes things right. I plan to go stomping in his office on Monday to find out what the plan is and why they don't return calls. lol. It's funny the very docs who want you to take all that pain med don't want to call you back when something major is happening. I even physically went to the office when we planned out the surgery about a month and a half ago and was assured all would be taken care of. I cut out most the meds he gave me because I just had this weird feeling this was going to happen. I went off all Oxy hell and to just about 2 Vicodin a day. It's hard enough to do it this way. Flirting everyday with this stupid pill disease. I just wish I could take Ibuprofen or NSAIDs and be done with all this stinking pill crap. I'm so sick of it. Venting venting beep beep beep!!! Sorry. I just about went onto a soapbox. lmao. Okay breathe breathe breathe. It's just they told me not to wean they'd work with me but I don't trust these docs that want so much control over your life. So hopefully even if he doesn't come through I'll be okay. I'd tried to cld turkey but I cannot walk.
Gina,
Thanks friend. I'm gonna bath in white light by day and night until this thing is healed and I am walking strong. I'm hoping I can keep that center and my focus into the recovery. I'm sure come Wed. I'll have left all these little fire dragons behind and be ready to move right on through it. Just got some jitters going. Smile.
Liz,
Thanks, I'll probably be posting whining posts for encouragement. lololol.. I'm not sure what to expect when my good knee will be out of commission and my injured knee will now be working overtime to compensate for awhile. Hopefully it will be a quick healing. Smile.
I hope it's not significant it's Pear Harbor Day! Yeesh!
Thanks everyone.
I needed this pick me up.
love,
pm
i wish i could be there for you, amy to help you. please know i'm there in spirit and just a phone call away. we'll encounter many obstacles along the road to living our dreams. some obstacles may be real, some imagined, some may be tangible, and some may be intangible. some of those obstacles will be created by others, and some will be self-imposed. however they manifest, we will always be given the choice as to whether you give them power. it appears you are taking all the necessary steps to hurdle over the obstacles and put them in their proper perceptive.
one thing i've learned - for sure - is i am able to move around, over or through every obstacle with God's help.
so take this prayer with you and i wish the speediest of recoveries.
i love you darling ~
sammy
~*~*~*~*~*~
dear God,
thank You for reminding me that obstacles are temporal and temporary.
obstacles are sometimes pause points, requiring that i rethink my position or current path.
obstacles can be like a guard rail - in place to keep me from going over the edge.
obstacles on my path sometimes point out a better route that i had not noticed.
obstacles remind me to trust in You and not what my eyes or ears may report.
i know that all of the circumstances and conditions of my life are working together for my good.
i trust that life is unfolding in the most incredible way.
when i am faced with a mountain, i rely on You to carry me beyond.
Your will is my fervent desire.
nothing can separate me from You.
thank You, God.
amen
PM,
You do can this without painpills. I had 2 back surgries in Sept, 17 days in the hosiptal--and no pain pills. I did it with the knowledge that I am addict and 1 would send me on my way. Believe me the DR were more then willing to give me what ever I wanted, but it is was not going to be worth it to me. I am not saying that inside my head I was hearing that voice that is always there saying " your in pain, take it--it is from the DR " it was a HARD fight, but I won it. I prayed and asked for help, I read my books, I called friends from AA/NA they came to visit--I had nothing but good energy around me and it really did work. I am going for a visit Monday with my DR, for a release back to work--so I have made it through 3 months of no pain meds---please keep your faith---You can do this.
Mike
You do can this without painpills. I had 2 back surgries in Sept, 17 days in the hosiptal--and no pain pills. I did it with the knowledge that I am addict and 1 would send me on my way. Believe me the DR were more then willing to give me what ever I wanted, but it is was not going to be worth it to me. I am not saying that inside my head I was hearing that voice that is always there saying " your in pain, take it--it is from the DR " it was a HARD fight, but I won it. I prayed and asked for help, I read my books, I called friends from AA/NA they came to visit--I had nothing but good energy around me and it really did work. I am going for a visit Monday with my DR, for a release back to work--so I have made it through 3 months of no pain meds---please keep your faith---You can do this.
Mike
Dear Pregnantmom,
The poster above me could do that...and thats great...always the best is no pills. but pain is different for everyone, IF YOU ARE SUFFERING BADLYWITH PAIN...put the guards in place....make yourself accountable, keep someone else and your Dr. on top of the pill consumption.
One size truly does not fit all.
Dont mea- copa your self to death if you DO need help with your pain.
Sending white healing light and support,
Ali
The poster above me could do that...and thats great...always the best is no pills. but pain is different for everyone, IF YOU ARE SUFFERING BADLYWITH PAIN...put the guards in place....make yourself accountable, keep someone else and your Dr. on top of the pill consumption.
One size truly does not fit all.
Dont mea- copa your self to death if you DO need help with your pain.
Sending white healing light and support,
Ali
Sammy,
Thanks that is really sweet. You were there the last time I had surgery so I'll know you are there always. Smile. Thanks for the prayer. I've always been ready to rush into these things but this time I'm not quite centered for it. I'm trying to take the zap out of these obstacles. I'm getting there though. Today I'm cleaning and reorganizing the apartment. I slept in and woke up to a winter wonderland. Then I walked to the apartment office and told them they were going to have to do a better job cleaning the sidewalks off come next Wed or they would be hearing from me everyday unless they would like to provide me with a shovel and some salt to put down. LMAO. I think they were surprised I'm usually so very quiet and nice.
Thanks Oneill,
I know you did it w/o meds. I'm really proud of you for getting through it. I remember when I shattered my right leg I was in the hospital quite awhile before they could operate. They would medicate me with Demerol. I'd see double awhile, fall sleep briefly and then wake up. I thought wow this is great but seems to do absolutely nothing for my pain. I could not imagine pain being any worse. After that surgery I wanted to go home so bad and I had to be able to go so far on crutches. So everyday they came and everyday I'd get to maybe the door, turn white, hr pounding, cold sweat, practically pass out. So I figured it was the pain meds. So I stopped them. Noone could figure why I was refusing all pain meds but it didn't help. One day the docs came in and I was in tears I was so mad. First tears they saw in so much time and even after they sorry predictions. They asked what was wrong and I said I was angry because I could not get anywhere with my crutches. Turned out by bld count was critically low. So got 3 units of bld and the next day passed rehab and went home. So I know it can be done w/o meds. I've done it both ways. I'll do whatever I have to but I sure hate to be miserable. How are you feeling now. Are things healing up? I know it was pretty tough for awhile.
Hey Ali,
One size surely doesn't fit all. I have been brought to my knees in pain and made myself stay there enough. I've put myself in many situations to show myself I can do whatever I set out to do since the initial accident. Walked across fire, bent rebar, climbed telephone poles, traversed wires 40ft in the sky, flown through zip lines, white water rafted while on crutches down the grand canyon camping along the way for 8 days. I've been there! All in the name of yes I can do it. Now I just want to do what I have to in order to take care of myself in the kindest way.
Thanks everyone for your kind words of encouragement and support. I'm so glad I asked for your help.
Thanks that is really sweet. You were there the last time I had surgery so I'll know you are there always. Smile. Thanks for the prayer. I've always been ready to rush into these things but this time I'm not quite centered for it. I'm trying to take the zap out of these obstacles. I'm getting there though. Today I'm cleaning and reorganizing the apartment. I slept in and woke up to a winter wonderland. Then I walked to the apartment office and told them they were going to have to do a better job cleaning the sidewalks off come next Wed or they would be hearing from me everyday unless they would like to provide me with a shovel and some salt to put down. LMAO. I think they were surprised I'm usually so very quiet and nice.
Thanks Oneill,
I know you did it w/o meds. I'm really proud of you for getting through it. I remember when I shattered my right leg I was in the hospital quite awhile before they could operate. They would medicate me with Demerol. I'd see double awhile, fall sleep briefly and then wake up. I thought wow this is great but seems to do absolutely nothing for my pain. I could not imagine pain being any worse. After that surgery I wanted to go home so bad and I had to be able to go so far on crutches. So everyday they came and everyday I'd get to maybe the door, turn white, hr pounding, cold sweat, practically pass out. So I figured it was the pain meds. So I stopped them. Noone could figure why I was refusing all pain meds but it didn't help. One day the docs came in and I was in tears I was so mad. First tears they saw in so much time and even after they sorry predictions. They asked what was wrong and I said I was angry because I could not get anywhere with my crutches. Turned out by bld count was critically low. So got 3 units of bld and the next day passed rehab and went home. So I know it can be done w/o meds. I've done it both ways. I'll do whatever I have to but I sure hate to be miserable. How are you feeling now. Are things healing up? I know it was pretty tough for awhile.
Hey Ali,
One size surely doesn't fit all. I have been brought to my knees in pain and made myself stay there enough. I've put myself in many situations to show myself I can do whatever I set out to do since the initial accident. Walked across fire, bent rebar, climbed telephone poles, traversed wires 40ft in the sky, flown through zip lines, white water rafted while on crutches down the grand canyon camping along the way for 8 days. I've been there! All in the name of yes I can do it. Now I just want to do what I have to in order to take care of myself in the kindest way.
Thanks everyone for your kind words of encouragement and support. I'm so glad I asked for your help.
I hope your surgery goes well and you are able to do the things you miss...best of luck to you...Love, Sharonn
Thanks Sharonn,
I hope so too. I'd love to be able to do so many things but mostly I'd be real happy to be able to get up off the floor and do even the simple things again. I'm appreciative for all the things I can do. I just hope this takes some of the pain out of the knee so I can function better.
Thanks everyone for all the great well wishes and positive notes.
Love,
pm
I hope so too. I'd love to be able to do so many things but mostly I'd be real happy to be able to get up off the floor and do even the simple things again. I'm appreciative for all the things I can do. I just hope this takes some of the pain out of the knee so I can function better.
Thanks everyone for all the great well wishes and positive notes.
Love,
pm
