Today is day 12, yeah 12 days clean, but I will admit it is not easy. Yesterday I was so depressed. I took my son to therapy and when we got back home I sat down in the recliner for a minute, and I just started feeling nauseous. I was light headed and kind of dizzy. I laid down in the bed and went to sleep for about an hour, but when I woke up I had a felling of depression. I fought it as long as I could and ran out and picked up some beer. I drank beer until about 2:00 in the morning. When I got up this morning I felt so bad. I was so angry at myself for what I had done. I got up and said this is bulls***. I want to be clean. So, I started cleaning, done some yard work, laundry, and paid a few bills. I just have to learn that every day is not going to be a peice of cake. I didn't really have the erge to get pills though. That was the only thing good about last night. I need your prayers.
Travis
Travis,
i had an absolutely horrible crappy day too the other day....your mood will change, it will not last forever....keep telling yourself that.
im jealous that you had the energy to clean your house, i keep waiting for that energy burst..it doesnt come....
Remeber to eat properly, take any vitamins you are taking...i feel a big difference from taking vitamins...especially vitamin B ( moods )
Just know this wont last and
Im rooting for you!
Hugs,
Ali
i had an absolutely horrible crappy day too the other day....your mood will change, it will not last forever....keep telling yourself that.
im jealous that you had the energy to clean your house, i keep waiting for that energy burst..it doesnt come....
Remeber to eat properly, take any vitamins you are taking...i feel a big difference from taking vitamins...especially vitamin B ( moods )
Just know this wont last and
Im rooting for you!
Hugs,
Ali
Travis, drinking is not the answer, but I think you already know that. Do you go to meetings? You may want to try that route, that way you will have someone to call if you get the urge to use.
Keep posting sweetie, you are doing great with 12 days off of pills!
Keep posting sweetie, you are doing great with 12 days off of pills!
Im depressed as well. ive been thinking about drinking today too. im going kickboxing in an hour and that usually relieves it for me. sorry youre feeling bad. hope you get out of your funk soon--- take care
I think part of the depression has to do with the holidays...that and the lack of sunlight, i suffer seasonal depression every year.
Well congrats on those 12 days there. That's excellent.
Travis, in the last two weeks people I know who have been clean for years are saying they had really bad days. It's the weather, lack of light. You know everyday crap that everyone gets. Only the answer to that from all of us is use, use, use. So you know now the beer wasn't the answer.
Plus twelve days you're chemicals in your brain are just trying to get right. There's going to be days like that, and then others real good. Once I think if you know it may happen and you just go with it you'll be cool. Instead of beer maybe try some ummmmm Frank Sinatra. LOL Harry Connick? I don't know.
You have your son to take care of, and that is the most important job in the world, and he'll be noticing how you are pushing forward. That is what makes it ALL worth it.
hang in, brother.
Travis, in the last two weeks people I know who have been clean for years are saying they had really bad days. It's the weather, lack of light. You know everyday crap that everyone gets. Only the answer to that from all of us is use, use, use. So you know now the beer wasn't the answer.
Plus twelve days you're chemicals in your brain are just trying to get right. There's going to be days like that, and then others real good. Once I think if you know it may happen and you just go with it you'll be cool. Instead of beer maybe try some ummmmm Frank Sinatra. LOL Harry Connick? I don't know.
You have your son to take care of, and that is the most important job in the world, and he'll be noticing how you are pushing forward. That is what makes it ALL worth it.
hang in, brother.
Drinking will make you more depressed...recovery takes a long time...hang in...a lot of us get the blues this time of year...Love, S
Thanks guys. it means alot. I just want to try and stay strong. I have been looking for some meetings. Now all I have to do is get the courage to go.
Travis
Travis
TravisDay 10-12 was tough for me..thats when the
Anxiety, depression, gloom and doom thoughts really
Kick in..Just remember..It will all pass soon, and you
WILL get betterHang in there man, your worth it..
Sharonn...wassssupppp girl...
Doug
Anxiety, depression, gloom and doom thoughts really
Kick in..Just remember..It will all pass soon, and you
WILL get betterHang in there man, your worth it..
Sharonn...wassssupppp girl...
Doug
Doog...having a crappy day...depressed...don't know why...I am tired and need to rest.The holidays take an emotional toll on me...can't take the full AD dose...bummer....S
Travis.....I agree. Meetings will make you feel so much better. Everytime I feel that way, I go to a meeting and almost always after I leave I feel better. It's really helpful. Don't get discouraged, and keep trying. Your days are and will get better, but you will have down days too. At least your being honest with everyone here. That really helps too.
Belinda
Belinda
