Hi call me TC I spent 2 years in prison for prescription pills. When I first went in I spent a month in a hospital prison on methadone treatment. the day I arrived at prison I was high as could be. I was eating as many as 50 - 75 10/600 pink vicotin a day. but I beat it. I got out on March 19,2006 I stayed clean for six months. Now I'm hooked again not as bad but any is bad. My wife found my stash of tabs valiums and cocaine two days ago. now I'm really having trouble I can't quit cold turkey,I'll be to sick. I have to keep functioning! HELP I need advice!
When you were in prison, did you attend NA or AA?
You know the drill, the only way out is through. Flush what you have, deal with withdrawals and get your life back again. Sounds like you need a constant reminder as to why you can't do pills again. NA can do that for you. Do you have people you can trust face to face to help you with this? Do something now before you get to that point of no return.
Welcome to the board. There are a few really good guys here that you should talk too. Tim is one.
Cowgirl
You know the drill, the only way out is through. Flush what you have, deal with withdrawals and get your life back again. Sounds like you need a constant reminder as to why you can't do pills again. NA can do that for you. Do you have people you can trust face to face to help you with this? Do something now before you get to that point of no return.
Welcome to the board. There are a few really good guys here that you should talk too. Tim is one.
Cowgirl
TC, The board is kinda slow right now but it will pick up later so hang in there. I have no experience with Vics or cocaine so I can't help you much. Stick around. Shantel
Tc I am back for number three and yes you can do it Hell you kicked a 50 pill a day habit and you don't think you can do this. Yes you can!!!. I can't taper because I just take whatever I have and rationalize but I did flush both times before when I quit it felt good at the time but days later boy was I wishing I still had those pills which is why it was great that I had flushed them!!!! So listen to Cowgirl she is a very good sourse and flush the pills. I am only on day 7 and struggling but this board truly does help
Hang in
Roxy
Hang in
Roxy
Hey:
I don't know if I'll be any help since I, too, am a "lortab loser". They are a b**** to get off of and I've been struggling for a while. You said you were off for 6 month, which is great. I can't remember if you said you took methadone, but there is now a drug called suboxone, I don't know if you're familar with. There is a lot about it on this forum. I'm new to the forum and don't know a lot about suboxone, but I do know a lot about lortab addiction. Do you have a support group? You mentioned your wife finding your stash. I lost everything, and I mean everything due to my addiction. And here I still am. I actually went for 8 years!! So it is possible. Lots of people on this site have done it and can totally understand. I think my prob was, although I went 8 years I didn't have a support group or anything like that. It was in my past (i thought) and the people I was with for those 8 years knew nothing of my past and could'nt relate. Then tragedy struck, I lost a child, and I had no coping skills at all to save myself. I ran from the pain in the best way I knew. The lortab have really taken everything from me, I'm so numb emotionally, maybe I don't feel the gut-wretching pain, but there's no joy or excitemnt or anticipation or anything left. Just me and my lortab. Don't end up like that. I wish you the best in kicking the a** of this monster.
I don't know if I'll be any help since I, too, am a "lortab loser". They are a b**** to get off of and I've been struggling for a while. You said you were off for 6 month, which is great. I can't remember if you said you took methadone, but there is now a drug called suboxone, I don't know if you're familar with. There is a lot about it on this forum. I'm new to the forum and don't know a lot about suboxone, but I do know a lot about lortab addiction. Do you have a support group? You mentioned your wife finding your stash. I lost everything, and I mean everything due to my addiction. And here I still am. I actually went for 8 years!! So it is possible. Lots of people on this site have done it and can totally understand. I think my prob was, although I went 8 years I didn't have a support group or anything like that. It was in my past (i thought) and the people I was with for those 8 years knew nothing of my past and could'nt relate. Then tragedy struck, I lost a child, and I had no coping skills at all to save myself. I ran from the pain in the best way I knew. The lortab have really taken everything from me, I'm so numb emotionally, maybe I don't feel the gut-wretching pain, but there's no joy or excitemnt or anticipation or anything left. Just me and my lortab. Don't end up like that. I wish you the best in kicking the a** of this monster.
Thanks for all the ideas and support. I don't feel like i've got alot here. sure my family wants whats best for me, they just dont understand what it feels like. ya'll do. Cowgirl you got the goods down doll. thank for the straight no bs talk.
Roxy you are doing great I wish I was as far along as you. congrats to you all I think Ive found me some place to hang my hat
Roxy you are doing great I wish I was as far along as you. congrats to you all I think Ive found me some place to hang my hat
Hi LL or TC,
I am Jane I had a terrible everything addiction. I went to jail and ended up detoxing there. It was nothing nice. So just be grateful that you are at home. Take those pills and s*** and flush em and get your a** some help. I know you got to go on functioning but that is not going to happen real well if you don't reach out for some help. We both know how bad it can get. Don't end up at another rock bottom. Jail/Prison. Get some help and get it done. Welcome to the board. Your in good company here. (((((hugs)))))
Jane
I am Jane I had a terrible everything addiction. I went to jail and ended up detoxing there. It was nothing nice. So just be grateful that you are at home. Take those pills and s*** and flush em and get your a** some help. I know you got to go on functioning but that is not going to happen real well if you don't reach out for some help. We both know how bad it can get. Don't end up at another rock bottom. Jail/Prison. Get some help and get it done. Welcome to the board. Your in good company here. (((((hugs)))))
Jane
Cowgirl I did go to all na/aa classes in prison, heck I was clean it was a peace of cake then no options except maybe a motrin. I had some teeth pulled when i got out thats where i went down hill. I know how to get them. If I don't take something I can't get out of the bed , I'm sure we all know what thats like!!!!!
I do have some underlying medical problems with some minor to moderate pain.
I've had my ribs literally crushed, busted all left ribs and seperated all cartlige that holds left and right rib cage together. I can't take motrin or tylenol, they just don't work. to high tolerance then i get stronger! BAM THERE I GO AGAIN!!!!
I NEED AN INTERMEDIATE DRUG COURSE WITHOUT ALL THE ADDDICTION! where do i go from here of course you've figured out a stupid hard headed male by now with an ego to go with my addiction
I do have some underlying medical problems with some minor to moderate pain.
I've had my ribs literally crushed, busted all left ribs and seperated all cartlige that holds left and right rib cage together. I can't take motrin or tylenol, they just don't work. to high tolerance then i get stronger! BAM THERE I GO AGAIN!!!!
I NEED AN INTERMEDIATE DRUG COURSE WITHOUT ALL THE ADDDICTION! where do i go from here of course you've figured out a stupid hard headed male by now with an ego to go with my addiction
Lortab Loser--Im with you bud.....
The tabs were my thing too. You can beat it and it doesnt have to hit the bottom again.
GOOGLE Suboxen...There is a Dr Finder on one of the sites--Use it and find the list of Dr's in your area- Start calling and dont stop until one of them tells you that they can get you in today or tomorrow !! Depending on your area it can be difficult to find a Suboxone Doctor--
Dont give up !!
January 8th of this year--I was in the same boat as you--I reached out for the paddles and they were gone !! I made a decision that i was going to be done with this sh*t !! It was my 2nd time getting caught up in the Hydros..I couldnt believe I did it again....
Well January 8th i went to a Suboxone Dr and i have been Hydro free since !!
IT IS that easy----
YOU ARE NOT A LOSER--YOU JUST NEED TO BE LEAD TO THE 1st PLACE TROPHY AGAIN !!!
GOOD LUCK AND GOD BLESS YOU--
Keep me posted
The tabs were my thing too. You can beat it and it doesnt have to hit the bottom again.
GOOGLE Suboxen...There is a Dr Finder on one of the sites--Use it and find the list of Dr's in your area- Start calling and dont stop until one of them tells you that they can get you in today or tomorrow !! Depending on your area it can be difficult to find a Suboxone Doctor--
Dont give up !!
January 8th of this year--I was in the same boat as you--I reached out for the paddles and they were gone !! I made a decision that i was going to be done with this sh*t !! It was my 2nd time getting caught up in the Hydros..I couldnt believe I did it again....
Well January 8th i went to a Suboxone Dr and i have been Hydro free since !!
IT IS that easy----
YOU ARE NOT A LOSER--YOU JUST NEED TO BE LEAD TO THE 1st PLACE TROPHY AGAIN !!!
GOOD LUCK AND GOD BLESS YOU--
Keep me posted
thanks jane just tc will work, odd enough my initials are TLC.far from the truth! thanks for the response my stash is gone. help is starting in the morning rehab closest by so much for 24 hr help! any kind of opiate is my thing I've done oxcy,morph,norco,vicotinis tops for me, in the hospital i was on 180mgs of methadone every 8 hrs. my tolerance is through the roof. then i have to have soma's or valiums to sleep.morphine is the only thing hat will stop the craving, oxcy are way overated in my book, i could take 6 or 7 80mg just to stop the shakes. thanks for the advice i,ll be around
Good I am glad you are getting help. Please stay around and post. You are doing the right thing but I understand how empty that sounds at first. Thank god you found some place to get you in fairly quickly. This is the best thing you can do. So are you taking anything now? Are you sleeping o.k.?
TLC you are giving yourself some good help. Very strong of you to reach out.
Much love and respect,
Jane
TLC you are giving yourself some good help. Very strong of you to reach out.
Much love and respect,
Jane
thanks soberdaddy ijust printed the list off of dr finders in my ares i'll be calling in AM. thanks alot that was a big help for me now i have some where to start thanks again it gives me hope to have support from all of yall. i truly mean it!!! anyone who has ever been to the bottom with any addiction know there is no bond like it in the world. good luck to you and god bless you and yours, i had jail house religion which is easy but in the real world finding it isn't so easy, he's calling my name, i think thats the voice im hearing making me reach out! thank you!
Jane whats sleep? I have had 2 really srtong drinks otc sleep meds, benadryl and about 14 # valium and 2 tylenol #3 oh and a drink of nyquil. lets hope it helps. no worries about od! i've done way worse to my body on much greter levels. this is just my tolerance. thanks for the love sober daddy gave me some good tips for a dr finder i'll strart that in AM. maybe cheaper than rehab
LOL I understand the amount of "normie" med's you would have to take to get that screaming out of your head. But you got to get those tools so consider the rehab. If not get to some meetings or read some literature. There are things you need to get to continue sobriety not just white knuckle it. You are a good person you will be fine.
Love
Jane
Love
Jane
Hey TC...just so you know? You can endure pain without pain meds...lots of people do it every day. Our tolerance to pain is pretty low because of the abuse, when we get clean, it gets better. I had open heart surgery, broke open my sternum, and quit taking the meds after the 2nd week. It had nothing to do with being a hero, I just didn't hurt that bad. I've been clean almost 3 years now and my pain tolerance has changed dramatically.
Yep, you're gonna be sick for awhile. It's part of the process. Just like you didn't get addict over night, you're not going to get clean over night. It's going to suck for awhile. But, what are you waiting for? There never will be a good time. Except for now.
Take care
Cowgirl
Yep, you're gonna be sick for awhile. It's part of the process. Just like you didn't get addict over night, you're not going to get clean over night. It's going to suck for awhile. But, what are you waiting for? There never will be a good time. Except for now.
Take care
Cowgirl
thanks jane and cow girl you are both right in your own ways. cw you just got that tough love about you! dont change a thing, jane our compassin is comforting i need a little of both and cant get it at hhome nobody understands, hell i dont understand. my wife doesn't drink never took dugs or doesn't enen smoke. undestandibly she is hurt mad and very non tusting. she didn't know about my previous addiction till i wound up in the hospital. i dont know what to say to her? nothing comes out right and the truth seems like a lie to her, i have rebuild that trust that i had barely got a foundation under from the first time i have hit bottm!!!! where is that rope or ladder?
Tell the truth. Always tell the truth. Lies can't come back to bite you in the a*s that way. Your wife is smarter than you think and probably understands more than you know. Can you guys go to a counselor together, so that someone can help you tell her? What about suggesting alanon to her? I guess first things first though, you've got to get some clean time under your belt again. How are you doing today? Cowgirl
Lortab ? Did you make the calls today ? Lets hear it
I hope all is well--Let me know how you are making out --You WILL beat this !!
I hope all is well--Let me know how you are making out --You WILL beat this !!
Lortab Loser,
You've gotten some great advice here already, so I'll just say, Welcome to the board. Keep coming back.
Hang in there.
Gina
You've gotten some great advice here already, so I'll just say, Welcome to the board. Keep coming back.
Hang in there.
Gina
Lortabs suck I really found nothing like them and I tried everything even oxy nothing got me high like lortabs and the b**** of it is they are prescribed for EVERTHING so you can get them far to easily. Just get your self together and start again but don't leave the board. My problem in the past was I would be doing well I would think I could go it on my own and when I would relapse I would feel guilty about coming back so hang in there and change your name you are not a loser here.
Roxy
Roxy
