Today my sister phoned me. She is 4 years older than me. She lives in France.and I live in England. She is my last living relative from childhood. My dad died years ago, my brother too, my sister in 2007 and my mum in 2008.
She has been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and I'm in bits since she called. Although we have had our moments, I love her and hearing this makes me realised how much I do.
I can't bear to think about what she will have to go through, she is such a bundle of energy!
She's going to have a line put in for chimo soon and she is on morphine. She'll have radiotherapy too, surgery not an option presently.
Just yesterday, I was discussing going to see her later on this autumn.
I feel like I want to be there with her now; I guess I will go soon but I know I'll not be able to stay very long because my husband is not in terribly good health himself and needs me too although he is all for me going when it can be arranged.
But, Friends, I do feel so awful and yes, devastated is the word. I know I must not be pessimistic about her illness; I just have the feeling its just not good.
Sorry for unloading my sad thoughts here, it's not a pick me up message but thoughts and feelings keep whirling in my head. Just *putting pen to paper..."
Thanks Mom for you post, I'll answer when I feel a tad better.
Don't worry about replying to my post, Bibo. I am so sorry you had to get such awful news, and I cannot imagine what it must have taken for your sister to have to tell you. Cancer suck, plain and simple and I will return your kindness and say a prayer for you and your sister. Don't let this threaten your clean time...your sister needs you whole and sound...you need you whole and sound...keep the faith.
Peace ~ MomNMore
Peace ~ MomNMore
