I was lucky. I got clean in a rehab with all kinds of staff around to help me at all hours of the day. I realized after I got clean that I had suffered for years off and on with depression but was medicating myself through my use. It helped for many years and then the drugs took on a life of their own and started controlling me and weren't working anymore. That is when I hit my bottom. Depression is no picnic but it still is better than the life I had at the end of my using.
I'm so happy for you that rehab worked but sorry to hear about your depression. Are you on medication for that? How long ago was rehab for you?
If you'd like to continue our conversation tomorrow, I'd be more than happy to. I certainly don't want to take any more of your time, I know it's late where you are. Thank you for helping me through this difficult hour. I did not use but I was close!!
Thank You
:-)
If you'd like to continue our conversation tomorrow, I'd be more than happy to. I certainly don't want to take any more of your time, I know it's late where you are. Thank you for helping me through this difficult hour. I did not use but I was close!!
Thank You
:-)
I went through rehab twice. First time for 5 weeks. second time was for months. I take antidepressants and weekly psychotherapy. If you think you can sleep now I'll let you go and also would like to chat again tomorrow. Let me know if you would like to try to sleep and if so I say good night and pleasant dreams if not I'm still okay.
junem,would it be rude of me to just leave after all the time you have invested into me?
I can honestly say, talking about my cravings tonight has helped a great deal.
I think I'll be okay and tomorrow will just have to be a different layout so I don't end up feeling like this again (probably do huh) I have heard that coming off of opiates runs you into a depression <?> Is that one of the sideeffects of w/d ?
You must be tired, I know I'm getting there.
I can't thank you enough.
Without you, I would have paced a little more, stared at my screen and eventually would have taken that pill, so tonight I am grateful that fate brought you here when I needed you.
Sleep well. I look forward to talking with you again!!
Sorry Eric, I was no help for you tonight. I'm so sorry. I do feel bad not getting to further talk to you about your day. Hang in there, I will try the same.
I can honestly say, talking about my cravings tonight has helped a great deal.
I think I'll be okay and tomorrow will just have to be a different layout so I don't end up feeling like this again (probably do huh) I have heard that coming off of opiates runs you into a depression <?> Is that one of the sideeffects of w/d ?
You must be tired, I know I'm getting there.
I can't thank you enough.
Without you, I would have paced a little more, stared at my screen and eventually would have taken that pill, so tonight I am grateful that fate brought you here when I needed you.
Sleep well. I look forward to talking with you again!!
Sorry Eric, I was no help for you tonight. I'm so sorry. I do feel bad not getting to further talk to you about your day. Hang in there, I will try the same.
good night
HI SAVANNAH AND JUNEM
YOU BOTH SOUND LIKE VERY SPECIAL PEOPLE
I ENJOYED READING
I HAVE TWO IDEAS FOR SAVANNAH I CAN RELATE ALOT
I HEARD YOU SAY THAT YOUR MIND WAS A PROBLEM DID YOU EVER WRITE DOWN SOME OF YOUR THOUGHTS ESPECIALLY THE NEGATIVE ONES AND QUESTION IF THEY WERE REALLY ON THE MONEY OR IF YOU COULD DISCREDIT THEM IT'S AMAZING THE THINGS WE HEAR OUR MIND SAY AND THERE IS NO TRUTH BEHIND THEM YET WE BELIEVE THEM
ALSO FOR ME I JUST LISTEN AND/OR NOTICE MY BREATH
WHEN I BREATH IN I FILL MY STOMACH AND LUNGS UP TO THE MAX AND SAY I BREATHE IN GOOD CALM ENERGY AND WHEN I BREATHE OUT I BREATHE FULLY AND SAY OUT GOES ALL THE **** YOU CAN SAY ANYTHING AT ALL WITH EACH BREATH AND YOU DONT EVEN HAVE TO SAY ANYTHING SEE HOW MANY TIMES YOU CAN FOCUS ON EACH BREATH WHEN YOUR MIND WANDERS BRING IT BACK A GOOD FIRST STEP IN MEDITATION
GOOD LUCK
FONDLY
CRYSTAL
YOU BOTH SOUND LIKE VERY SPECIAL PEOPLE
I ENJOYED READING
I HAVE TWO IDEAS FOR SAVANNAH I CAN RELATE ALOT
I HEARD YOU SAY THAT YOUR MIND WAS A PROBLEM DID YOU EVER WRITE DOWN SOME OF YOUR THOUGHTS ESPECIALLY THE NEGATIVE ONES AND QUESTION IF THEY WERE REALLY ON THE MONEY OR IF YOU COULD DISCREDIT THEM IT'S AMAZING THE THINGS WE HEAR OUR MIND SAY AND THERE IS NO TRUTH BEHIND THEM YET WE BELIEVE THEM
ALSO FOR ME I JUST LISTEN AND/OR NOTICE MY BREATH
WHEN I BREATH IN I FILL MY STOMACH AND LUNGS UP TO THE MAX AND SAY I BREATHE IN GOOD CALM ENERGY AND WHEN I BREATHE OUT I BREATHE FULLY AND SAY OUT GOES ALL THE **** YOU CAN SAY ANYTHING AT ALL WITH EACH BREATH AND YOU DONT EVEN HAVE TO SAY ANYTHING SEE HOW MANY TIMES YOU CAN FOCUS ON EACH BREATH WHEN YOUR MIND WANDERS BRING IT BACK A GOOD FIRST STEP IN MEDITATION
GOOD LUCK
FONDLY
CRYSTAL
Good Morrning Crystal, you have some great ideas there, especially trying to write my thoughts down. I guess I never really focussed on that too much simply because when my mind races like that, none of it makes any sense. They go in circles, come and go so fast, I wouldn't know where to begin my sentence. But you're right, it's worth a try.
I'd have to try out your breathing technique first to calm a little and then begin my journal.
Thanks for jumping in with your helpful posts!
:-)
I'd have to try out your breathing technique first to calm a little and then begin my journal.
Thanks for jumping in with your helpful posts!
:-)
HI SAVANNAH
I HAVE READ A COUPLE OF YOUR POSTS AND YOU SEEM LIKE A VERY SPECIAL LADY TO ME
GOOD LUCK AND LOOK AT THINGS REALISTICALLY MY THOUGHTS ARE CRAZY AND OUT OF CONTROL TOO AND REALLY TEARING APART EACH ONE IS A LOT OF WORK BUT IT HELPS TO REVAMP
I RATHER SPEND THE WORK ON THIS THAN TRYING TO WISH MYSELF BETTER ALTHOUGH I DO THAT TOO
FONDLY
CRYSTAL
I HAVE READ A COUPLE OF YOUR POSTS AND YOU SEEM LIKE A VERY SPECIAL LADY TO ME
GOOD LUCK AND LOOK AT THINGS REALISTICALLY MY THOUGHTS ARE CRAZY AND OUT OF CONTROL TOO AND REALLY TEARING APART EACH ONE IS A LOT OF WORK BUT IT HELPS TO REVAMP
I RATHER SPEND THE WORK ON THIS THAN TRYING TO WISH MYSELF BETTER ALTHOUGH I DO THAT TOO
FONDLY
CRYSTAL
Hi sav im so sorry your not feeling too good hun i hope your better today my taper is going badly also i seem to be having most in the mornings then craving in the evening i set myself 10 a day but just looked at calender and see im having 11 more and more often not too bad but i need to watch things its hard to taper but i guess the best way for some people. take care hun jackie xxxxx
Hi Savannah!
Rough night, eh? Wish I could've been there to help. I've been going to bed a little earlier this week! LOL! Not tonight though... Post up if you can't sleep.
I hope you have a better one today and that we catch up later.
Hi Junem!
You're a real trooper! Way to go!
God Bless both of you!
JC
Rough night, eh? Wish I could've been there to help. I've been going to bed a little earlier this week! LOL! Not tonight though... Post up if you can't sleep.
I hope you have a better one today and that we catch up later.
Hi Junem!
You're a real trooper! Way to go!
God Bless both of you!
JC
There is some good suggestions to help cravings under the nutrition section of the Holistic section (see top tool bar on this site)
I hope it helps.Let us know
Lucia
I hope it helps.Let us know
Lucia
Thank you Lucia for the craving suggestions, I'll check it out; never thought to look under hollistic approaches.
Yup it was a pretty rough evening JC, hope you are doing well. I'll be around tonight :-)
Jackie how is your taper going? What kind of plan did you make for that and what are you tapering off of?
Also, Crystal, thank you for your encouraging and kind words; today is a little better. I spaced my last dose 13 hours apart and just had a dose of one pill. I guess you can hardly call that a 'dose'. I'm not planning on takling any more until later tonight to follow my schedule and then none until tomorrow.
Catch you all later tonight :-)
Yup it was a pretty rough evening JC, hope you are doing well. I'll be around tonight :-)
Jackie how is your taper going? What kind of plan did you make for that and what are you tapering off of?
Also, Crystal, thank you for your encouraging and kind words; today is a little better. I spaced my last dose 13 hours apart and just had a dose of one pill. I guess you can hardly call that a 'dose'. I'm not planning on takling any more until later tonight to follow my schedule and then none until tomorrow.
Catch you all later tonight :-)
