hello everyone my names Cleo and I really need someone to talk to and give me advice.
im a 21 year old girl living in south afica,
I was introduced to marijuana at the tender age of 13.
Iv been smoking cigarets everyday since i was 14 thats a good 7 years now
by 14 I was a depressed,irrational, moody,insecure,sexually frustrated and confused little girl,
my family situation not the best as addiction, aggresion, divorce, hurt runs in the family.
i had my first sexual encounter at 12 with a boy who was a weed addict and a pedafile. he broke my heart and made me feel like i needed to commit suicide.
I hated school always wanted to get out, smoking cigarets, masturbating under my desk, smoking weed and missing classes, i was insecure i wanted freinds.
i would get my joints from my moms weed stash ( shes an alcoholic who smokes joints when shes not drinking)
this dangerous habit of seeking pleasure continued throught my teenage life and persists in me today.
I am addicted to weed, cant handle opening up about my deep true thoughts to people, I am insecure, i try get confidenct thru the looks in men they give me i let men buy things for me for a smile.
i broke up with my bf a month ago as he loved me then hurt me, lied to me and betrayed my trust and threw my insecurities in my face and iv been feeling the need to seek out comfort and revenge but i just want to move on and recover
i am unhappy, miserable, frustrated, confused, addicted, depressedI am not financially well off. i struggle to be honest i cant stop smoking weed, my negative thoughts are killing my potentail.
my life is very unorganised and filled with insecurities a trait iv noticed in my mother.
time management i need help with time passes me by so quickly. I want a normal happy life filled with freinds, a job, pets, books, walks and flowers not this hell iv put myself in
please if anyone can talk to me or give soe advice on how to help myself please do thank you
cleo x
hi cleo, i am sorry to hear you are suffering on all these fronts- you really need to reach out to what ever services are available to you locally- have you ever been to NA (narcotics anonymous) there you will find people that are going through very similar experiences.you are not alone in what you are going through -it is important for you to get support- things can and will get better for you Cleo- you will find alot of help and support on this site- Cleo
Hello Cleo, sorry to hear about this bad stuff.
I'm 24 years old, writing here all the way from Brazil, and although my family doesn't have all these problems in this intensity, I've been addicted to this plant cannabis for 3 years, smoking a joint everyday, and also drinking often and smoking cigarettes. Well, what I can say from my experience after having stopped for 1 year now, is that I believe every person, no matter what background, can benefit greatly from not being addict to this plant and the other stuff, including alcohol and cigarettes. I feel my life has improved immensely and maybe the same happens with you also. I had the same kind of anxiety and thought nothing would work out forever, now I think differently.
Hope I have helped and good luck changing the stuff that you think are not good for your life
best regards,
Skon
I'm 24 years old, writing here all the way from Brazil, and although my family doesn't have all these problems in this intensity, I've been addicted to this plant cannabis for 3 years, smoking a joint everyday, and also drinking often and smoking cigarettes. Well, what I can say from my experience after having stopped for 1 year now, is that I believe every person, no matter what background, can benefit greatly from not being addict to this plant and the other stuff, including alcohol and cigarettes. I feel my life has improved immensely and maybe the same happens with you also. I had the same kind of anxiety and thought nothing would work out forever, now I think differently.
Hope I have helped and good luck changing the stuff that you think are not good for your life
best regards,
Skon
