Im Letting U Know Whats Up Me And And My Family

Alcohol
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HELLO EVEYONE, I'M RITA

I WANT SO SHARE THIS WITH YOU ALL. BECAUSE YOU ALL HAVE MAKE ME FEEL WECOME HERE AND
I THANK YOU SO SO MUCH... FIRST OF ALL I CAN SPELL THAT GOOD AND READ THAT GOOD.BUT
I'LL DO MY BEST OK

I WAS 11 WHEN I STARTED DRINKING.. AND WHEN I DRANK I DIDNT STOP INTILL I BLACKOUT...( I DIDNT
REMEMBER s*** NOTHING AND I MEAN NOTHING)
IT WENT ON AND ON WELL I SLOWED DOWN ABOUT 1995.... I WAS DOING GOOD... NOT
THEN I STOP I MEET THIS MAN ( A GOOD MAN I MEAN THAT TWO ) WELL THAT WAS IN 1997 I STOP IN
THE 1997 BECAUSE THIS MAN DIDNT DRINK HE WAS I GOOOD DAD... OK HE HAS 4 KIDS ONE OF
THOSE KIDS WAS HES STEP KID...(I KNOW WHAT YOUR THINKING)
ANYWAYS..WE GET MERRED I HAVE A KID BY HIM AND I GET TO KNOW THIS STEP KID... IN MY EYES AND
THERE EYES THEY WHERE NOT STEP THAT HOW CLOSE THEY WERE.. I GET A CALL THIS KID IS UP
SET... AND NEEDS HIS DAD.... THEM 2 TALK FOR 3 OR MORE HR'S WELL AT THE END IM HUBBY SAID
HES GOING TO GET HIM IN THE MORRING AND TALK MORE.. KOOL... THE SAD PART WAS 10 MINS
AFTER THEY GOT OFF THE PHONE.. WE GET A CALL SAYING HE KILLED HIMSELF BY HIS
LITTLER BROTHER HE WAS ONLY 10..........WE WENT THERE AND HE DID WITH A GUN..CANT SAY THE
REST... I STARED BACK DRINKING AND SO DID MU HUSBENT. AFTER A YEAR AND A 1/2 HE STOP I DIDN'T
I HAD TO GET HELP. I WENT TO REHAB 29 DAYS DID IT ALL GOT OUT THINKING EVERYTHING WAS
GOING TO BE GOOOD NOT
WE LOOSE ARE HOME, I GET PERGNET IN MY TUBS ( LOST THE BABY)
NOW STAYING WITH MY MOM AND DAD AND IM 30 YEARS OLD TELL ME WHY SHOULD I STOP
I JUST HATE THIS s***..... I FEEL ITS MY FOLT THAT THIS GOOOOOOOOOD KID IS NOT THERE
WITH US TODAY WELL THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY THANK YOU AND IM SORRY ABOUT MY WRITING
LOVE
RITA
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Rita, Check out my post titled "What is was like, What happened & What it's like now..." something like that. I posted it on this site around the end of March, so it's a little further down on the board here. Maybe you can identify with something I wrote. Have you tried an AA meeting? VWGirl
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hey, girl. we've missed you.
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WWGIRL, THAT WAS GOOD AND IT MAD ME CRY. BUT I WAS HAPPY AT THE END.. WAY TO GO.. ILL KEEP PRAYING FOR U

THANKS BOB WE ALL MISS U 2
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Thanks Rita for your msg. Just checkin' in to see how you are doin'. VWGirl
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ww im not doing good at all just cant do it