Hi folks
I have,nt been posting lately,I guess since I returned from that trip to Chicago, but I do stop by and check up on youse guys!
Truth is - - I havevnt had much to tell, especially on the recovery topic. Sometimes I feel that I treat this board more like a chat room ,than a recovery orientated forum.
Anyway, Im trying to get my creative juices flowing thru painting. I mentioned awhile back that I picked up a bunch of supplies in the drawing/-painting with water couleurs dept.
It seems there is is no natural hidden talents that I found & uncovered in this area. However, it is fun (if you dont get frustrated by taking it too seriously)
I dont have the space to do this comfortably,so I have to make due with a small spare room. Creates quite the mess. Im definitely not the best as far as picking up after myself.
OK -just want to check in- hope all is well. Bryn I see you,re getting by -wacky as ever.
Diff- Im so sorry about the situation with your dad/parents- that kind of deceit is devastating. The male mind ,when going thru miggle age is so insecure- (except for mine- its probably been firing 2 cylinders short for awhile)
Hang in there
love&respect to all
jack
Hows all ..J?the painting sounds like a winner even if we dont get no Mona Lisas...i understand what ya mean bout the chatroom bit ..but i think thats a natural progression and a good one...i was havin a laugh on another thread bout me makin mega $$$$ out of doin metal sculptures..as im a welder ...so Jack ..mate anythings possible.
Take care pal..........Davey
Take care pal..........Davey
Hi there Jack, soooo glad to hear that you've done something to provide a bit of an outlet for you. I'd love to get back to my drawing and painting. I'm a very creative person. I actually used to be quite good at it. Went to art school and all that bollocks (and it is bollocks - full of pretentious twats). But I haven't picked up a pencil in anger in years. Stick at it, and try and learn as much as you can. Drawing. It's one of those things that when you know how to do it, and how to work with perspective etc that you can just pick up your pencil and draw things just the way you see them, which is normally not the way everybody else sees them. Especially not you!! And you ain't firing on two cylinders, you're just had a bit more of a life than most!!!
And this thing with my dad. It's wrecked me. I feel like I'm turning into a manhater, and it's so unfair, coz I don't want to feel that way. I feel so disappointed, so let down, that the person I based my moral values on turns out to be a fake. He made vows. There's no excuse. Not to lie and lie like that. Not to just expect my mum to put up with it, and stop trying to spoil his fun. I've not always been faithful, but I've never done what he's done, such deceit on such a scale. It's shocked me, it really has. I don't know how to feel about him anymore.
Anyway, enough already! Just glad to have you back, my friend. At least you're not a fraud...
love ya
Diff xxx
And this thing with my dad. It's wrecked me. I feel like I'm turning into a manhater, and it's so unfair, coz I don't want to feel that way. I feel so disappointed, so let down, that the person I based my moral values on turns out to be a fake. He made vows. There's no excuse. Not to lie and lie like that. Not to just expect my mum to put up with it, and stop trying to spoil his fun. I've not always been faithful, but I've never done what he's done, such deceit on such a scale. It's shocked me, it really has. I don't know how to feel about him anymore.
Anyway, enough already! Just glad to have you back, my friend. At least you're not a fraud...
love ya
Diff xxx
Hi Jack,
My name is Lily O.K............somebody else can be Rosemary.
Fell not alone........yeah we chat.........we're blooming chatters........and I am the head one responsible for being chatty...........I should suffer for this.
Anyways, keeps me sane alot........and away from dope street.
Yo, you all are using your creative juices........consult Wonder Woman on chakra clearing cause it rocks.
Miss ya Jack..........no I ain't wacky..........I wanna get high............cry and get high............nod and itch and scratch.........and forget all this bull*hit........and feel NORMAL again because ain't we normal using........evened out........too bad all the other crap comes with it........glad ya posted, Jack.
My name is Lily O.K............somebody else can be Rosemary.
Fell not alone........yeah we chat.........we're blooming chatters........and I am the head one responsible for being chatty...........I should suffer for this.
Anyways, keeps me sane alot........and away from dope street.
Yo, you all are using your creative juices........consult Wonder Woman on chakra clearing cause it rocks.
Miss ya Jack..........no I ain't wacky..........I wanna get high............cry and get high............nod and itch and scratch.........and forget all this bull*hit........and feel NORMAL again because ain't we normal using........evened out........too bad all the other crap comes with it........glad ya posted, Jack.
this site is the best--one of the main reasons is becausae its somewhere i can come to to let it all hang out and not worry about what people are gonna say or think or whether i need to protect my thoughts in fear of backlash--sometimes its not totally on the subject of recovery--but theres more to us than just our addiction and that is certainly part of recovery--the littlest most minute stuff is what might take us back out there, and i know i need to laugh sometimes-and this board is good for that but i know i can bare my soul here and be respected and understood-so whether you wanna tell a jok, talk about the weather or tv or just plain rant and rave--thats what i need to hear and you need to get out--just for today sp dont worry about being "off topic" ive been "off topic " all my life-<smile> so stop worrying and speak out
