Im a thinking that I dont want any more drugs at all in my system ...hows that sound ? Oh what a horrible night I had last nite...Bryn ?...you were sooooo right about those nasty benzos...man...they are hell and I am STILL suffering from them even though Im not even on them....went to another site...got some info...pretty scary stuff...so i quit taking everything today...even the trimipramine...everything except my good ole biofem that is...dont ask...its for the old lady syndrome...got to have it...but its all natural....supposeing...
Im a thinking Ima just gonna remain drug free..ok...so this may not last until this evening...but for the moment?...HAH...im a just gonna do it !!! ....im a really tired of docs !
All drugs that is cept coffee, ciggerettes ......dont ask for the moon now...
Con.....i think yer right with the way yer thinking.....you dont need any be it the oldH ...methadone or those benzos......all very addictive and as you said you have an addictive personality ...also like me.Although im clean im still addicted or as they say using it as a tool in my recovery....the methadone that is.Yer gonna have those black days but as time goes on hopefully they will lessen.All the very best Con and a good call or thought on yer part..........Davey
Thanks Davey...I think the experience with the benzos have scared me damn straight...at least for awhile...how in the name of everything can they actually prescribe these things to people ? Its like an old blotter acid trip coming off them...and Im just not into trips these days at my age
con w1hat u,ve just said is a little like the n/a philosophy,just for today !im not going to take any drugs,,,called a day at a time,dont look any further than that,thats when u f*** up.E
Sometimes it's just an hour at a time, or ten minutes...or just until the thought passes. Con, that's quite a brave idea you're trying on and I wish you nothing but the best...confidence, courage, and support.
Peace~MomNMore
Peace~MomNMore
Mom yer dead right when i get the urge i try to wait 30mins and usually that demonic urge fades into reality i.e why bother?would i enjoy sticking a needle in my weary veins.....and as i rationalise it i say no its not.......clean body clean mind.Take care.............Davey
One minute at a time...find myself down to seconds some times....feeling clearer today...not so fogged out like the last few weeks....but the cravings are back...oh yaaaaaaaaaaaa....hmmmm.....liqued handcuffs...nope...just one second..one more scond and I can DO IT !!!!!!! ...LOL....and if not Ive got to go back to the doc on Monday...and if its the handcuffs I need I'll take them with a grin and get on with it....that is...if I can GET them...and we all know there may be only one way to do that...hate to say it...hate to know it...so....every second and Im counting and holding out :)
Alrite Con.....go easy on yerself over the wknd......i presume they will ask you for another u.a what if you get the same response i.e no opiates in yer system ...no juice......or are you planning on remedying that....not that you need me to put thoughts into yer head at the moment ......yer going thru enuff up&downs at the minute.Take care and i will be rooting for you come Monday..........Davey
wish I knew Davey...wish I knew...u have a good one too...
I know nothing about how hard what you're going through is for you con, but I know one thing in my bones - you deserve to be safe, well and happy....and on top of that the world needs all the good hearted people it can get, so you take good care of yourself.
Martin
Martin
Dang you are a tough one! I really admire your strenght in all this, i am so angry about what u and Are are going through trying to get on the meth--i dont get it at all, it must be different across the seas, here you just sign up go through a short screening give them your financial info. and bam--your dosed that day or the next, but maybe in the long run that aint so good---but it sure seems if you could go that route youde have alot less worries therfore more abilities to focus on really getting stabilized and "better" or recovered . you really touch my heart with your honesty
Con,
Wishing you well today at the Doctor's.................I hope you are safe.
Too bad you don't live back here.................I'd chain ya to the toilet tank until them cravings subsided..................whatever you choose will be what is right for you...................you've come so far, Con...............I'm proud of you.
Dang German's and their methadone................like Eckie said they invented it yet they don't wanna give it to anyone.................please be safe tonight, please.
Being an addict stinks..............oh and benzo's................YUCK!
Wishing you well today at the Doctor's.................I hope you are safe.
Too bad you don't live back here.................I'd chain ya to the toilet tank until them cravings subsided..................whatever you choose will be what is right for you...................you've come so far, Con...............I'm proud of you.
Dang German's and their methadone................like Eckie said they invented it yet they don't wanna give it to anyone.................please be safe tonight, please.
Being an addict stinks..............oh and benzo's................YUCK!
