Well it's my first weekend in a long time that I have been sober. I usually drink Friday nights, not always Saturday, but at least every friday. I got thru last night. It was pretty good, I just had tea, but now I want to drink really badly, i know it's not an option tho, and I am not going to. I am not going home because there's a bbq with drinking going on there, so I made plans to hang out with a friend who doesnt drink. We're going to get pizza and a movie. I am pretty excited. I got some fun non alcoholic fruit drinks we will have. Even tho i'm excited and a bit proud of myself, I am really depressed that I dont have a bottle of wine to look forward to. It's so sad, because that's what I always looked forward to that so much on the weekends. I didnt always go out of control with it, but I somtimes did, and I'd even have more than the whole bottle, and the more often I drank, the more often I wanted to. I know that's no way to live, revolving around alcohol. I'm ready to quit.
I have been feeling depressed this weekend, and I know a lot of it's to do with not being able to drink, and I also had a really bad week at work. I feel so worthless. I am confused, is this normal to feel this way when you stop drinking? I feel empty. I didnt feel this way last time I quit. Maybe it's the work thing that's bumming me out. I dont know but this sucks!! I'm going to stay with it tho.
Hey,
Just wondering how you're doing today? I know that saddness feeling-I have it all the time. It's hard trying to find things to do on the weekend when you're so accustomed to going out to bar/drinking. I made plans to watch a movie with a friend on Saturday. It helps I guess to try to make sober plans to avoid the temptation of drinking-esp. cause I know when I'm alone I start feeling lonely/depressed and end up wanting to drink. I keep telling myself I drink because I'm lonely, but I'm lonely because I drink!
Don't know if that helps at all, but just know that what you're feeling is completely normal and we probably all feel that way-I know I do.
Have a good day!
Amanda
Just wondering how you're doing today? I know that saddness feeling-I have it all the time. It's hard trying to find things to do on the weekend when you're so accustomed to going out to bar/drinking. I made plans to watch a movie with a friend on Saturday. It helps I guess to try to make sober plans to avoid the temptation of drinking-esp. cause I know when I'm alone I start feeling lonely/depressed and end up wanting to drink. I keep telling myself I drink because I'm lonely, but I'm lonely because I drink!
Don't know if that helps at all, but just know that what you're feeling is completely normal and we probably all feel that way-I know I do.
Have a good day!
Amanda
So proud of both of you! Sadness is a normal part of early sobriety, but it is also a part of life for everyone. You're starting to thaw out just a little and you are starting to feel again. You're right where you are suppose to be. You both are doing terrific!
Good day to all of you! Amanda, you hit the proverbial nail on the head! you drink because your lonely, then your lonely because you drink! that is so true. I felt sad and lonely to, like my best friend was gone, but in reality the monkey is off my back. I wish you all the best, and just change your lifestyle, and things will fall into place. It is hard at first, any kind of change is, but life is so much better when your not behind the bottle! God bless you!
Liz :)
Liz :)
Hi Im new here Ive been posting on the marijuana message board, Ive been sad for years and have been trying to ease all that pain and sadness by drinking myself into oblivion and getting stoned outa my head for years, I have recently reached the point where I just cant take it anymore, I desperatly want to get out of this viscious circle once and for all.
I had my first daap ( drug alcohol awareness program) meeting today and I was absolutly terrified, I nearly had a panic attack on walking through the door. It was incredibly emotional and painful finally admitting how bad things have really got. Tonight ( Im in England so our time scale is different) I actually feel a new kind of determination now that I know Im not alone, hidding my destructive secret, if my spelling is not quite there its becuase my head is a bit disorientated, havent had a drink since sat and I never want to drink again and I havent had a smoke since then either, although I am getting serious cravings for it.
I dont know the answer about sadness but all I can say is drink definatly makes you even sadder, I drank because I was sad and all its done is create havoc in my life Ive nearly killed myself through drink driving and I am lucky to be alive today and my kids are lucky to have a mum.
I started drinking about the same age as you and Im 35 now, its time to seriously think, do I want to enjoy some of my life and my beautiful children or am I going to punish myself forever, enough is enough. I hate alcohol, its evil and destructive when it gets a hold on you, loosing all control and dignity and yet its the most readily available drug to us, every where you look its there staring us in the face " go on have a drink", its too easy, its dangerous and it can make you hate youself. Im only at the begining of recovery and Im full of venom for alcohol because it has caused so many problems in my life.
We shouldnt let it beat us, we are worth more than that, why should we pay these big companies money we cant afford, just to ruin our lives.
I had my first daap ( drug alcohol awareness program) meeting today and I was absolutly terrified, I nearly had a panic attack on walking through the door. It was incredibly emotional and painful finally admitting how bad things have really got. Tonight ( Im in England so our time scale is different) I actually feel a new kind of determination now that I know Im not alone, hidding my destructive secret, if my spelling is not quite there its becuase my head is a bit disorientated, havent had a drink since sat and I never want to drink again and I havent had a smoke since then either, although I am getting serious cravings for it.
I dont know the answer about sadness but all I can say is drink definatly makes you even sadder, I drank because I was sad and all its done is create havoc in my life Ive nearly killed myself through drink driving and I am lucky to be alive today and my kids are lucky to have a mum.
I started drinking about the same age as you and Im 35 now, its time to seriously think, do I want to enjoy some of my life and my beautiful children or am I going to punish myself forever, enough is enough. I hate alcohol, its evil and destructive when it gets a hold on you, loosing all control and dignity and yet its the most readily available drug to us, every where you look its there staring us in the face " go on have a drink", its too easy, its dangerous and it can make you hate youself. Im only at the begining of recovery and Im full of venom for alcohol because it has caused so many problems in my life.
We shouldnt let it beat us, we are worth more than that, why should we pay these big companies money we cant afford, just to ruin our lives.
Welcome to this board! Yep, alcohol is a depressant....sometimes it takes awhile to feel good again. I have 2 1/4 years of sobriety and I still get sad at times, but not the dramatic and chaotic sadness I displayed while active in my disease. Life is going to be sad sometimes, sobriety doesn't stop the feelings. However, my Sponsor reminds me that feelings aren't facts and this too shall pass. Hang on to your sobriety like you would if you are clinging to a lifeboat...all of you are doing great. Any day I hit the pillow clean and sober is better than any day of drinking and using for me by far...sometimes I forget this, but so glad you people are here to remind me.
Today my face feels like if falling off my face , if you catch my drift, am cold and shivery, confussed, the light is too bright out side, but I take reassurance from other poeples experiences that the first couple of weeks are the worst, I am going to do this
Can you get to an AA meeting?
am seeing my counsellor tomorow so I will tell her about it & see what she says, I actually feel a whole lot better today, the thought of having a drink makes my stomach turn at the moment.
I was in the supermarket yesterday and I cannot usually pass the alcohol section without putting wine in, I didnt want to go any where near it.
I am starting to feel better about myself
I was in the supermarket yesterday and I cannot usually pass the alcohol section without putting wine in, I didnt want to go any where near it.
I am starting to feel better about myself
hey mupmup i really related to your post. i an new here and i find i don't bounce back to my happy real self anymore either when i stop drinking. this is giving me less incentive to quit and makes it harder.
used to be if I quit for a few days it was like a new lease on life. now i'm just dragging a tail feather regardless, though i do feel more clear headed (obviously) when I don't drink.
i'm still actively drinking, though trying to limit myself and have 2-3 sober days a week.
i am pushing myself to be involved in more activities cause lately i find myself drinking to ward off boredom. i do get very lonely.
used to be if I quit for a few days it was like a new lease on life. now i'm just dragging a tail feather regardless, though i do feel more clear headed (obviously) when I don't drink.
i'm still actively drinking, though trying to limit myself and have 2-3 sober days a week.
i am pushing myself to be involved in more activities cause lately i find myself drinking to ward off boredom. i do get very lonely.
Sounds like your managing and controlling, but doesn't sound like you are enjoying life...sounds like drinking might have stopped working for you....keep checkin' in and let us know how you're doing.
