Hello MJ board, today is the first day I've been on for a time. I allowed myself the indulgence once and it's continued for far too many weeks. I am currently laid off from work which makes it easier to smoke and harder to find motivation.
An earlier post I read, I think by hc, said something about some people not having drive to do anything when they smoke....... that's me in a nut shell!!
It's an extreme contrast when I'm smoking to when I'm not. I have always found motivation to stay sober (for me from alcohol and mj) when I work. Work is a structure, otherwise I can't seem to stay clean.
I am so sick of this lifestyle, why do I continue to do damage to myself ?????
I'm usually a very health conscious person. I watch what I eat, exercise regularly, and try to nurture myself emotionally and spiritually. Then I smoke or drink and it all goes to sh** , I stop working out because of laziness and eat only convenience food high in fat. This is not who I am, so why do I have such a hard time giving it up. I really want to. I guess it's all up to me.
Please send positive vibes my way, I could sure use it!
Thanks for listening :)
dustygirl
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Well you will probably not get any disagreement on the "it's up to me" statement, and if it brings any of the meenies currenty prowling this board out, ignore em.
Just do your best to keep to your straight routines, that should help to keep the cravings to smoke away. It's easy to fall in that trap when something happens like losing your job, not only do you have more time on your hands, it's a rejection even if you were only laid-off through no fault of your own. Not to mention making it harder to pay the bills. But then that also means it's that much more important to not spend the bill money on weed.
Well you will probably not get any disagreement on the "it's up to me" statement, and if it brings any of the meenies currenty prowling this board out, ignore em.
Just do your best to keep to your straight routines, that should help to keep the cravings to smoke away. It's easy to fall in that trap when something happens like losing your job, not only do you have more time on your hands, it's a rejection even if you were only laid-off through no fault of your own. Not to mention making it harder to pay the bills. But then that also means it's that much more important to not spend the bill money on weed.
thanks hipp for your kind words. Your right about keeping straight routines. Slowly I've been making changes, like going for walks and eating clean. I've tasted straight life not long ago and I want it back. But I want to go slow so it will last this time :) ! Oh, and I guess coming back to this board is another good change I've made.
BFN;
dustygirl
BFN;
dustygirl
hey dustygirl, welcome back. My healthy life also wnent to "pot" when I smoke. I munch out too much at night, i drink to much coffee/coke/energy drink, it is up and down all day long. I am sitting here 9 weeks out, feeling like a FIT HEMAN, I eat better in the morning, no more dunkin doughnuts, have mostly given up coffee, although 1/2 cup today - i didn't swear it off, eating better at night, taking vitamins - multivitamin drink, fish oil, garlic and brain amino acids and my body feels so good. No more waking up bleary eye and groggy in the a.m., now i basically need only 6 hrs of sleep.
Just had a high pressure work situation, meeting of the minds, and i performed so good and smart. Pot makes me dumb! not at first, but it wears me down and after a few months my brain is DULL. I'm sharp as a tack, 3 hrs of work and I'm off to Vegas for a relaxing business meeting.
Just had a high pressure work situation, meeting of the minds, and i performed so good and smart. Pot makes me dumb! not at first, but it wears me down and after a few months my brain is DULL. I'm sharp as a tack, 3 hrs of work and I'm off to Vegas for a relaxing business meeting.
Well HC enjoy Vegas!!! Talk to ya when you get back. Glad your doing so well.
aea
aea
thanks AEA, i think today I am doing well, for today, at least I don't feel like crawling under a bush in my swamp with my pipe. hope it continues. i have had this gnawing, mj want, feeling that just won't stop.
Thanks for the welcome hc. I recall you talking a bit about the amino acids you were taking, glad to hear your doing well. How did you start taking the amino acids? Enjoy your trip to vegas.
dustygirl
dustygirl
