I am so bored of saying the same old thing on this poxy site, all I seem to do is talk about trying to get clean and failing again and again. I f***ing hate my lifestyle at the minute I can see exactly where it is leading yet I seem to be powerless to do anything about it. The thing is I know all it takes is a couple of days of feeling uncmfortable them I will be ok again. Its not as if I am trying to do a rattle, all I am trying to do is make the transistion from gear to Subutex but after a day and a half my head is on bits. The mad thing is all the gear at the moment is absolutely s*** so by rights this should be the easiest time to do it. Instead I have spent the past 2 weeks driving all over trying to find something decent - all the while knowing full well its all snide yet trying to convince myself that todays gear will be proper. The craziness of addiction. I have had a mad week in all sorts of ways and I will talk about it tomorrow, I don't care if your not interested!!! peace
Danny,
Been there and done that,and i care about all addicts because i am a recovering addict.All i can tell you is what worked for me.I went through 3 and a half days cold turkey on my own, just so i would remember the pain.Then i went to detox at the hospital.After 5 days i was down to 5mg of methadone then 0. Then i checked into a rehab for 21 days and completed the course.now here i am clean and sober and feeling strong.you allready are on the first step you admitted you were powerless over your addiction and your life has become unmanagable.So if you follow through with what i said above and really want it you'll be OK.
sincerly Bruce B recovering addict.
Been there and done that,and i care about all addicts because i am a recovering addict.All i can tell you is what worked for me.I went through 3 and a half days cold turkey on my own, just so i would remember the pain.Then i went to detox at the hospital.After 5 days i was down to 5mg of methadone then 0. Then i checked into a rehab for 21 days and completed the course.now here i am clean and sober and feeling strong.you allready are on the first step you admitted you were powerless over your addiction and your life has become unmanagable.So if you follow through with what i said above and really want it you'll be OK.
sincerly Bruce B recovering addict.
Hi danny Just goes to show you want off as you wouldnt be on here if you didnt just give yourself a chance wether it takes just the once or a million times of trying you will get there in the end and as for snide gear i live in scotland and the bags are the smallest i have ever seen i tell you somthing you got more for a phone card in prison than what you get here for 10 haha i am not lying so just tyo make me feel ok and not rattle it was costing me at least 60 a day and if i wanted to get a buzz it was 100 120 a day so i know about snide gear take care sue
HI DANY, I FOTE YOU WERE GONNA STAY AT YOUR MUMS AND COME OFF IT WILE SHE WAS ON HOLIDAY??OR HAVE I GOT THE RONG GUY???
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Hey Dan-I was just reading (yes, I read;Don't live w/ my head in a spoon ALL day) how Physicists have found an antigravitational force out there 14 TIMES bigger than everything, everywhere in the known Universe. They don't know what it is-BUT I DO: It is the Dimension of my Boredom, a whacking great giant cloud of Ennui,about to descend & smother everything, & it sounds as if it may be YOUR Boredom, too.I am a Yo-yo like you w/o the comfort of Subu-whatsis you got. I just feel damn strange,every day- my head KNOWS I gotta stop but the bod says Go Baby Go...I live in the Antipodes, but am originally from L.A.(Land o the Tar Babies...)& I tell u this, these Antipodeans have NO CLUE whatsoever when I comes to conducting business. It is an exercise in futility to get anything decent w/these clowns.So why do we put ourselves thru the Anxiety Grinder of trying to get decent stuff? If we could only silence that tiny yet overwhelming voice that nags @ you "Maybe it's better elsewhere" if only I could reach the point where I can say "STOP! Here & no further!" But then the phone rings..."Heard you were lookin"...Oy!
