I just cant sleep.Its not w/d's.Ive been cean14 months.I even switched to 50/50 caffeine.It sucks.Maybe when my Bankruptcy hearing is finished in Dec I might start sleeping again.I just lay in bed thinking until I cant stand it anymore and get up.I think sometimes Im losing what little sanity I have left.I cant even take naps.If I had spotlights in my yard I would water the lawn.That would really freak the neighbors out.
Im sure they already think Im some kind of crack head.Just before dawn is the best time to kill snails.
Well, what can you do? Contemplating the meaning of life has gotten real old.Im scared to death of taking benzos.Melatonin gives me bizzare nightmares.Benedryl gives me a hangover.
Oh well,'ll just get ready for work.My speech is even getting weird.When someone ask me a question,I just see it as rhetorical and they dont want an answer its just a way they can make me appear crazy.
Anyway,I have this bulletin board.I dont even have to pretend that Im sane here..Yall already know the truth.lol
Tim:
I have it too. It's 4:49 here, ugghh. The gym doesn't open until 7:00! Good morning!
Rachel
Hi Rachel.I used to go the gym at 5:00 every morning.That actually felt good.You got it over with and it got the blood pumping.Maybe I need to try and get into that habit again.Im working today and i have to wait till at least 8:00 to go to anyones house.Especially on the weekend.
Im just in this weird cycle of sleeplssness.I'm like walking and doing stuff but it doesnt feel like my bodys moving.I also will stand and just stare at something and become hypnotized.Like "Wow,look at that trashcan.Ive never noticed it before"......
Im just in this weird cycle of sleeplssness.I'm like walking and doing stuff but it doesnt feel like my bodys moving.I also will stand and just stare at something and become hypnotized.Like "Wow,look at that trashcan.Ive never noticed it before"......
I know what you mean. I hate whe people say insomnia won't kill you. It might not but it makes me unable to focus and very tired throughout the day.
At least you can put on make-up.I look like the walking dead.LOLYou wil go the gym,come back and be all perky.Im glad I will miss that.LOL
I could get an evil resentment.
Seriously,have fun today.Youve always got a bright attitude.I bet you have to fight the guys off.
I could get an evil resentment.
Seriously,have fun today.Youve always got a bright attitude.I bet you have to fight the guys off.
Tim:
You're very sweet :-) I am on vacation for a week, yay! I won't be wearing much makeup, thank God and if I did I would probably have to spackle it under my eyes to conceal the dark circles, lol. I am drinking coffee now. That might be the kiss of death. There's no hope of returning to bed. I've crossed the line. I am up for the day, geesh!
Rachel
You're very sweet :-) I am on vacation for a week, yay! I won't be wearing much makeup, thank God and if I did I would probably have to spackle it under my eyes to conceal the dark circles, lol. I am drinking coffee now. That might be the kiss of death. There's no hope of returning to bed. I've crossed the line. I am up for the day, geesh!
Rachel
Tim,
It may be nasty, but warm milk actually works.. oh, and if you want to do landscaping in the dark, a miners helmet works the best. My neighbors think I am nuts as well. Back in my using days I would sometimes cut the lawn in the dark wearing one.
Regards,
Tom
It may be nasty, but warm milk actually works.. oh, and if you want to do landscaping in the dark, a miners helmet works the best. My neighbors think I am nuts as well. Back in my using days I would sometimes cut the lawn in the dark wearing one.
Regards,
Tom
Tim the next time you cant sleep give me a shout my singing will put anyone to sleep lmao jaxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey Guys...Thats my biggest problem right now..I think i am
becoming phychotic from lack of rem sleep...lol
Doug
becoming phychotic from lack of rem sleep...lol
Doug
when i went through this, i got a TON of loose herb chamomile and made tea that was as dark as coffee..
knocked me out for 6 hours at a time.
it was the only way i got any sleep..
knocked me out for 6 hours at a time.
it was the only way i got any sleep..
Hey Tim,
When I couldn't sleep, I think it was you that told me to exercise. I did and got way more active and it worked. I sleep pretty good now. I do have nights when I have a little trouble...because I have too much on my mind and can't turn my brain off. I'm sure when your bankrupsy stuff is done that will really help you too. Good luck to you and sending fairly dust your way. Sleep soon.
Belinda
When I couldn't sleep, I think it was you that told me to exercise. I did and got way more active and it worked. I sleep pretty good now. I do have nights when I have a little trouble...because I have too much on my mind and can't turn my brain off. I'm sure when your bankrupsy stuff is done that will really help you too. Good luck to you and sending fairly dust your way. Sleep soon.
Belinda
Tim,
Insomnia sucks. So does anxiety -- and I assume you're having that in regards to the bankruptcy hearing. You've probably already tried this, but when I was having difficulty sleeping for a while at 6 months I started taking a magnesium citrate supplement and GABA (a megadose -- 5 grams) at bedtime. It worked amazingly well and had no side effects.
You already practice yoga and meditation so you know all the breathing exercises to clear the mind, etc. I shall endeavour henceforth not to be perky in your direction, lol.
Tom,
I love the miner's lamp idea. People are so conformist. Who says the lawn must be mowed in daylight? Sheesh...
Love,
Gina
Insomnia sucks. So does anxiety -- and I assume you're having that in regards to the bankruptcy hearing. You've probably already tried this, but when I was having difficulty sleeping for a while at 6 months I started taking a magnesium citrate supplement and GABA (a megadose -- 5 grams) at bedtime. It worked amazingly well and had no side effects.
You already practice yoga and meditation so you know all the breathing exercises to clear the mind, etc. I shall endeavour henceforth not to be perky in your direction, lol.
Tom,
I love the miner's lamp idea. People are so conformist. Who says the lawn must be mowed in daylight? Sheesh...
Love,
Gina
Hey Tim,
My sympathies go out to you. I have been clean for 3 months and still can't sleep, can't nap either. Exercise does help, but only once in a while. The herbal tea might work but then I run to the bathroom all night so that's out. I also feel like I am in fog all the time and have no energy. I recently caught a bad cold so with coughing and hacking what little sleep I was getting has disappeared. Glad for these postings cuz my family doesn't get it. I just pray it gets better the longer I stay clean. And yes I feel like I am losing my mind sometimes from lack of sleep. It's just awful.
My sympathies go out to you. I have been clean for 3 months and still can't sleep, can't nap either. Exercise does help, but only once in a while. The herbal tea might work but then I run to the bathroom all night so that's out. I also feel like I am in fog all the time and have no energy. I recently caught a bad cold so with coughing and hacking what little sleep I was getting has disappeared. Glad for these postings cuz my family doesn't get it. I just pray it gets better the longer I stay clean. And yes I feel like I am losing my mind sometimes from lack of sleep. It's just awful.
Tim, If you're not opposed to medication, try trazadone. It's prescription and non-narcotic. My sister had horrible insomnia for weeks due to addiction and post traumatic stress disorder. She tried everything from benzos to ambien to herbs and more. Nothing worked until trazadone. She takes the lowest dosage and sleeps all thru the night. She feels alert in the mornings. And she no longer has nightmares, which she was suffering from in the couple of hours she did manage to fall asleep. Just a suggestion. Take care, Atlas
Good post Atlas...Tim doesnt remind me of a tea person..lol but anything will help.
Tim, Rachel,
It must be going around... I've had it all week, and it sucked... but it finally passed last night, I went to a midnight meeting and was falling asleep, got home and slept from about 3am until 12:30pm. I may have wasted half the day but I feel great now!
Tim - I also filed for bankruptcy and had my hearing a few weeks ago. If you want to talk about it, email me at wharfratmatty@gmail.com
Happy Saturday everyone!
Love,
Matt
It must be going around... I've had it all week, and it sucked... but it finally passed last night, I went to a midnight meeting and was falling asleep, got home and slept from about 3am until 12:30pm. I may have wasted half the day but I feel great now!
Tim - I also filed for bankruptcy and had my hearing a few weeks ago. If you want to talk about it, email me at wharfratmatty@gmail.com
Happy Saturday everyone!
Love,
Matt
Tim,
I feel for you and hope it passes soon. I don't have insomnia but I'm up and down all night because my hips have been killing me lately. I'm just sleeping lousy and that sucks. I'll get up, check the computer or read a little.. but mostly I toss and turn. I have to get up early & we have the heat turned down so I don't want to leave my nice, warm bed. Brrrrr! I just lay there and wish for sleep.
Good luck on the bankruptcy heariong. That stress is probably the culprit.
Kelly
I feel for you and hope it passes soon. I don't have insomnia but I'm up and down all night because my hips have been killing me lately. I'm just sleeping lousy and that sucks. I'll get up, check the computer or read a little.. but mostly I toss and turn. I have to get up early & we have the heat turned down so I don't want to leave my nice, warm bed. Brrrrr! I just lay there and wish for sleep.
Good luck on the bankruptcy heariong. That stress is probably the culprit.
Kelly
Thanks for all the suggestions guys.Im home for lunch and then heading back to work.Im afraid my social skills are slipping into a black hole.I just had a wonderful treat awaiting at my first clients house today.She insinuated that the reason why some of her flowers had died was because of the roughly manner in which my worker had planted them.Of course it had nothing to do with them screaming for a drink of water from her obvious unattentiveness.It would put her in the position of filling her new Smith and Hawkins pewter watering can and making the long trek out to the patio where she could have so easily f***ed up the 300.00 manicure she had just gotten.It was our fault that we manhandled the poor creatures and just crammed them in the soil like the common brutes that we are.I cant wait to get home and type this bitches invoice.She might think her manicure was pricey but wait till she what a 4" petunias going to cost.
Yes, a good nights rest is in order.Ill pass on the Trazadone.As I recall the effects from that drug made me act like Sybil for a couple of days.
There seems to be little doubt why I use to eat Percocet like m&Ms on days like today
I think its time to go back to work.I think it best I finish what i need to do without any direct quality time with the client.
Yes, a good nights rest is in order.Ill pass on the Trazadone.As I recall the effects from that drug made me act like Sybil for a couple of days.
There seems to be little doubt why I use to eat Percocet like m&Ms on days like today
I think its time to go back to work.I think it best I finish what i need to do without any direct quality time with the client.
The worst thing about insomnia is worrying about not sleeping..it's self-perpetuating and a vicious cycle...once I stayed up for 5 days....literally had a nervous breakdown.Now I know why I'm 10 lbs. heavier...Elavil makes me sleep correctly ...kills the libido and puts your bowels in lockdown...been cutting them in 1/2 some nights...I feel for you...lack of sleep is hell.....Rachel, you crack me up...spackle for under the eyes...pass it over here.....Tim, have you tried melatonin? Maybe a combo of melatonin and some raucous sex (oops) will knock you out. Best of luck....Sharonn P.S. Dunkin Donut's Drive-thru/medium lattew/double shot of espresso....my emergency favorite.
Ive had insomnia since i was a kid--its awful. when i dont sleep i feel literally sick the next day-- i totally feel my immune system down. that is definitely when i want to use too. The melatonin worked for me (i liked some of the nightmares) if i took a teeny weeny little bit. like 1/8 of a 3 mg. then i would fall asleep in about a 1/2 hr. But if i used it for too long i would start waking up around 2am and NEVER go back to sleep. You just cant win sometimes. Try thinking out a story in your head and think of every little detail. sometimes that bores me into sleep. good luck!
