ive been using for about 2 years now. i didnt even do percs roxys fetnyol nothing before heroin. i mean i would mess with roxys every once in awhile but i didnt have a problem what so ever. just a fun on occasion thing. then i met my man/ex idk what he is right now. who was recovering when i met him. then he started selling it n bringing those people around. may 17 2012 i tried to get clean for the first time- before that i was doing a ball of h a day cause he sold it n it was free, and stayed with my cousin for a week, 2weeks something like that. and stayed clean. and my man got locked up for selling but only has till nov this year. this has been the roughest 2 months ever. ive relapsed about twice a week since and im on my second day clean. cant sleep, took the smallest crumbs of suboxone to feel some what normal. i just want this to be over, but i have no one to turn to or talk to and this is the hardest thing ive ever done in my life. any advice? or anything? i crave it constantly!
this is my first post btw. so hope its ok..
So many of our long time friends on the H board are off living their recovery lives that it's been pretty quiet here...but that should give you hope. There is no failure except a failure to keep trying, so you hang in there and do it one minute at a time..."I won't get high for the next 5 minutes"...then again, and again, until you've piled up a bunch of 5 minutes. How are you taking care of yourself? Warm baths for the rattles, maybe some OMEGA-3 fish oils, amino acids, immodium for the loose bowels, and gatorade for the electrolytes...anyone who is not a user there to help?
Keep coming back...and read as many posts as you can...
Peace ~ MomNMore
Keep coming back...and read as many posts as you can...
Peace ~ MomNMore
