Hey Izzy, been a while since I have seen you on here?
How is it all going on the campral??
Im thinking of you a lot in your recovery, hope all is well,
drop me an email when ya get a chance, Take care
Ginge
Izz, thinkin' of you too, and hoping you are well!
Hey Ginge. Haven't posted for a while but have been reading posts every other day.
Hope everyone else is fine... VWGirl.... Valarie... Idgie... and everyone else!!!
Izzy X
Hope everyone else is fine... VWGirl.... Valarie... Idgie... and everyone else!!!
Izzy X
Hey Izzy how goes it? Keep posting as it does help to talk it out even if it is on the threads. You are not alone Izzy.
Light and love Zac
Light and love Zac
Hey Zac... right now I sure do feel alone. I've not been doing so good and have been trying to get through to my Psychiatrist. 4 days now of I'll get her to phone you back and nothing! I'm cracking up... I feel like I'm just being totally invalidated. I'm only asking for 15 minutes you know. Hardly a lifetime.
Life this month has been difficult... I was drinking again but nowhere near as much as before... I've fell down the stairs... cut my wrists again... I'm just a f***ing mess and that b**** of a Psych can't even give me 5 minutes of her time. I feel like packing it all in but then I'd have nothing... so that is not an option.
I'm going to look into going to a Private Psychiatrist. I can't really afford it but at this rate I'm going to end up killing myself... ALSO I have an appointment with the alcohol counselors in November... I only got that after phoning up begging.
You know something. They think the NHS is wonderful because we don't have to pay for healthcare... if only everyone knew the half of it. It's s***. Underfunded and dismissive.
I don't have one good word to say about ANY of it.
I'm at my wits end...
Izzy
Life this month has been difficult... I was drinking again but nowhere near as much as before... I've fell down the stairs... cut my wrists again... I'm just a f***ing mess and that b**** of a Psych can't even give me 5 minutes of her time. I feel like packing it all in but then I'd have nothing... so that is not an option.
I'm going to look into going to a Private Psychiatrist. I can't really afford it but at this rate I'm going to end up killing myself... ALSO I have an appointment with the alcohol counselors in November... I only got that after phoning up begging.
You know something. They think the NHS is wonderful because we don't have to pay for healthcare... if only everyone knew the half of it. It's s***. Underfunded and dismissive.
I don't have one good word to say about ANY of it.
I'm at my wits end...
Izzy
Hey Izzy you know one day you will make a difference to the health system and through your experiences good and bad you may be able to open peoples eyes to the changes that are needed and the flipside of that is that you will also see the difficultys that some organizations deal with as well.
One day you could counsel people in the same situations as yourself and help them see that there are other options and alternatives, there is a reason that life can be a struggle and we feel alone at times and out of the corridoors of lonliness we just need to start openining a few doors and they lead us to other areas or options that went unthought of.
Hey Izzy you have so much life experience and insight and if you are helping one other you are helping yourself as well.
The difference you make in the world is like a pearl in an oyster, there are hundreds of oysters and its only when it is opened that you find the pearl, life has opened you up now let the jeweller in you make something of the pearl.
I believe that we are all alive and fighting addiction for a reason some of us may never see that reason some will and i know that by just being clean and sober my reason has a better chance.
Izzy my love, hugs and energy with every typed word, believe in yourself you are worth it.
Light and love Zac
One day you could counsel people in the same situations as yourself and help them see that there are other options and alternatives, there is a reason that life can be a struggle and we feel alone at times and out of the corridoors of lonliness we just need to start openining a few doors and they lead us to other areas or options that went unthought of.
Hey Izzy you have so much life experience and insight and if you are helping one other you are helping yourself as well.
The difference you make in the world is like a pearl in an oyster, there are hundreds of oysters and its only when it is opened that you find the pearl, life has opened you up now let the jeweller in you make something of the pearl.
I believe that we are all alive and fighting addiction for a reason some of us may never see that reason some will and i know that by just being clean and sober my reason has a better chance.
Izzy my love, hugs and energy with every typed word, believe in yourself you are worth it.
Light and love Zac
Izzy, Zac is so right, you could be the one to make a difference, when we are sober anything is possible. I know that to be true for myself, I never thought that I could parent my daughters they way they need to be parented and also stand up with confidence and let others know when I believe things are not right that are taking place in our community...keep checking in, it is safe to vent here.
Hey Zac and VWGirl. Thanks for your kind words and insights... I'm feeling a bit better about things today... I've got that appointment at the alcohol clinic on Tuesday... so am looking forward to some support and maybe an in patient programme.
I'm still annoyed that after 5 days I still haven't had any kind of response to my phonecalls... I was in a crises and there was just nobody there I could turn to. I am going to make it clear to her how upset she made me by (my perception) ignoring me.
Anyway... I have a lot to think about before I see her again...
Izzy X
I'm still annoyed that after 5 days I still haven't had any kind of response to my phonecalls... I was in a crises and there was just nobody there I could turn to. I am going to make it clear to her how upset she made me by (my perception) ignoring me.
Anyway... I have a lot to think about before I see her again...
Izzy X
Hi, Izzy.
Geeze, it sounds like you're putting yourself through hell. Do you think that the pshyc place is intentionally avoiding you or that they're so covered up they're swamped? I know the state-funded MH places around here are simply over-burdened with serious, serious cases and sometimes have no choice but to focus on those who are harmful to others.
I'm sort of in a quandry over your problem--is it a bi-polar thing?
Geeze, it sounds like you're putting yourself through hell. Do you think that the pshyc place is intentionally avoiding you or that they're so covered up they're swamped? I know the state-funded MH places around here are simply over-burdened with serious, serious cases and sometimes have no choice but to focus on those who are harmful to others.
I'm sort of in a quandry over your problem--is it a bi-polar thing?
Hi Izzy,
Sorry to hear all your going through right now. Hang in there it really does get better. Take care of yourself.
gi
Sorry to hear all your going through right now. Hang in there it really does get better. Take care of yourself.
gi
Hey Izzy...... poise and pause and 3 deep breaths before you talk to the psychologist about the lack of response. I say this because sometimes THEY cope better if you go in yelling and angry as thats what they tend to expect...SO a bit of reverse psychology is in order just go in and as calm as you can just explain the effect of there lack of action use diary notes and times and dates as backup. Izzy always note calls made and any contacts you have good or bad as it pays to document actual dates and times.
Hey Izzy good on you for being onto your highs and lows and the fact that our own perceptions can be different, yet they are still important.
Good on ya Izzy and Ant music is here to stay.
Light and love Zac
Hey Izzy good on you for being onto your highs and lows and the fact that our own perceptions can be different, yet they are still important.
Good on ya Izzy and Ant music is here to stay.
Light and love Zac
Hey Zac. Thanks for the advice. I usually go in calmly and clearly put across what's bothering me like an adult.
In between times though I just get so frustrated with it all I launch into a rage.
SKG I have got Borderline Personality Disorder and possibly Bi Polar type 2 but that's still to be confirmed. The Psych doesn't have the time to spend with me anymore...
Izzy X
In between times though I just get so frustrated with it all I launch into a rage.
SKG I have got Borderline Personality Disorder and possibly Bi Polar type 2 but that's still to be confirmed. The Psych doesn't have the time to spend with me anymore...
Izzy X
Hey Izzy ,
Sounds like you are having a bit a bad patch my friend,
I hope you get to see your physc, but keep on coming back to here to read the posts, we ALL care about you a lot!
Ginge
Sounds like you are having a bit a bad patch my friend,
I hope you get to see your physc, but keep on coming back to here to read the posts, we ALL care about you a lot!
Ginge
Hang in there Izz, picking up a drink doesn't fix anything and you know that...so hang on...we're all pulling for your kiddo!
Hey all...
I'm back on track. Thanks for your support.
Izzy X
I'm back on track. Thanks for your support.
Izzy X
Glad to hear it Izzy...let us know how the Doctor's appointment goes.
Hi Izzy. Glad you're back on the tracks again. What do you mean that the pshych doesn't have time for you anymore? Is it a matter of merely talking with someone or was your phsyc keeping you out of the ditches?
It's hard sometimes keeping things buttoned in, but you hang in there. I'm still not sure how much value the boards add in recovering, but it sure seems like the folks here care about one another. That in itself is worth gobs, in my opinion. Certainly better than doing it alone....
It's hard sometimes keeping things buttoned in, but you hang in there. I'm still not sure how much value the boards add in recovering, but it sure seems like the folks here care about one another. That in itself is worth gobs, in my opinion. Certainly better than doing it alone....
Hey I zzy,
Good to hear you back on track, Good stuff..
SKG, You say you dont think the boards add much to recovery?
I was a drunk before I came on here, Between here and my D&A physcoligist Im now sober, And have been for 20 mths, finished with the physcoligist 4 mths into it,
My opinion for what its worth is this board really helps in recovery, well it certainly helped me,
And I now have which I consider life long friends on here,
Ginge
Good to hear you back on track, Good stuff..
SKG, You say you dont think the boards add much to recovery?
I was a drunk before I came on here, Between here and my D&A physcoligist Im now sober, And have been for 20 mths, finished with the physcoligist 4 mths into it,
My opinion for what its worth is this board really helps in recovery, well it certainly helped me,
And I now have which I consider life long friends on here,
Ginge
The board aids in my sobriety as well...when I can't get to a meeting sometimes I just go back and read the "gratitude" thread or "I will not drink today" thread and it puts me right back on track.
Hells bells SKG if you were a fisherman you would never go hungry LOL you should stick to sheep awww bugga that was me wasn't it LMAO. For my 10 cents or nickle or 10p's worth the boards help to add to the quality and gratitude of my sobriety and you are right SKG we all do care and in it's own way that is bloody special as it again confirms to me that i am not alone in this world.
Keep posting
Light and love Zac
Keep posting
Light and love Zac
