Hi Jack,
Awwww...you are going through it BAD huh? I feel awful.
I think alot of where you're at is you have to be in pain, and your eye of all things, and I'd be mad, and want to use because i screwed up by falling. never mind a "LAPSE". Pain+A-Hole boss+Guilt+Life In Genral= Wanting to use.
For me anyway......I guess that's why people say I had a "Lapse" instead of a "Relapse" Jack, cause like you say it's a real mind Fer. I can just imagine. Maybe too cause you were getting down so low with your metheadone. It has to be scarry. The whole thing ya know? Well yeah ya do.
You're super intelligent, and a big heart, and handsome. All us ladies said that. Well maybe now with they eye, and the stitches, and all you ain't pretty. LOL
Apealing to me is a few scars. LOL Naw. You also are a dad, and a great one at that. Your son knows how hard you try, and how you succed, Jack. It's just a string of things all happened at once. Bing, bam, boom. You need to vent. Let it out. Why's it always so hard? I wish I knew.
If anything it's these teens keep us going, going, going. Seriously with what they are against, and doing, and all. I gotta be straight. My daughter has a new boyfriend local. The old one was away at college. Easy that way. This one is everyday, and the open display of affection, and the not calling to check in, and a lil' atty-tude. You know, Jack. You know it. Plain and simple they need us. Don't show it, but absolutely. Your son has you, Jack.
Feel better Jack. Like Darin ummm I mean GYAC LOL always says like his moniker "Give Yourself A Chance". Please. We all care.
Bryn
Thanks for asking and caring- - yeah Im going thru a bad time. Mental battles.
Which Im winning at this point. But if I dont get on track ,hell I dont even want to think about it.
Ill be all right- maybe Im being a little meladramitic- but its scary to think that I could lose it all if I dont get motivated to help myself again
All you guys a GREAT-but its up to me to do the right things.
I have support from my kid,my G/F and family. They arent stupid,they see that Ihavent been myself. Like I say -I just need to get a little push and Ill find that motivation again
Again -thanks for giving a sh**
ps-send me a cheesesteak that might help
muchlove
jack
Thanks for asking and caring- - yeah Im going thru a bad time. Mental battles.
Which Im winning at this point. But if I dont get on track ,hell I dont even want to think about it.
Ill be all right- maybe Im being a little meladramitic- but its scary to think that I could lose it all if I dont get motivated to help myself again
All you guys a GREAT-but its up to me to do the right things.
I have support from my kid,my G/F and family. They arent stupid,they see that Ihavent been myself. Like I say -I just need to get a little push and Ill find that motivation again
Again -thanks for giving a sh**
ps-send me a cheesesteak that might help
muchlove
jack
Here, here jack i am sending ya a Tastykake.
Tastykakes will motivate ya. Then here's a mustard pretzel. THEN your cheesteak.
Actually that's a steak "with". There's a heirarchy of ordering ya see. Often it's whiz. Mmmmmm yummy. Melted orange whiz on your cheesesteak. Top it off with it on your fries, and have a big fat fountain soda. Like 42 oz. of pure caffeine, and sugar. That's a Philly diet.
Hope today finds you better. Your boss needs me to take him to the Liberty Bell. See the crack. I'll stick his head in that bell LOL Come on, Jack I need ya to be better. Hope your eye is better.
You do have good people love ya.
Tastykakes will motivate ya. Then here's a mustard pretzel. THEN your cheesteak.
Actually that's a steak "with". There's a heirarchy of ordering ya see. Often it's whiz. Mmmmmm yummy. Melted orange whiz on your cheesesteak. Top it off with it on your fries, and have a big fat fountain soda. Like 42 oz. of pure caffeine, and sugar. That's a Philly diet.
Hope today finds you better. Your boss needs me to take him to the Liberty Bell. See the crack. I'll stick his head in that bell LOL Come on, Jack I need ya to be better. Hope your eye is better.
You do have good people love ya.
