Jewels

I read on a diffrent post about where did the person go that used to cook. Jewels nothing ever stays the same. Its natural that when the children have grown that you dont have sit down dinners all the time when everyone has different schedules. you are way too hard on yourself and should be celebrating your life everyday. Things change. My life is so different from when I was married, I did all the "married" stuff and I look back and I was not happier all the time , just in a different space. I know from reading your threads that you should not tolerate anything less than total respect from all the men in your life. I have not been on the board too much lately so I dont know what your status is today but I do know you are a wonderful woman and that you deserve the best
That person that used to cook is still there

hugs and take care

Carol
hello sweet carol!
thank you so much for the eye opener, you are so correct, i am WAY too hard on myself and beat myself up all the time.
i am struggling so hard to learn how to love "me"
my status for today...
well i think making a gratitude list is very helpful, i am grateful for my God who has awakened me to another day that has my sons and animals in it for me to love and enjoy!
i attend church, meetings, talk to my sponsor and am working on step 2 in my step work.
my marriage is continuing to fail as we have grown apart from other issues and my getting clean has really put up a barrier between us.
i am willing to talk, discuss, get marriage counseling whatever, but i now realize its over, for he wants no part of me, or maybe like my counselor says, maybe he is uncapable of doing so, either way it has hurt, i have cried a river of tears but today i can say i will be just fine. i had started proceedings like first getting a consultation from a divorce lawyer, but had to cancel when i had the tooth abscess and was in alot of pain, the lawyer never called back to reschedule, so its time to hit the phone book and set up for another free consult,
i struggle with feelings of being overwhelmed, but am learning how to not procrastinate and to prioritize.
the clues are all here that my husband has a girlfriend. when will i stop allowing people to treat me like a doormat is what i am praying and working on. so much to address in my life, but that is when i think of just for today and to let go and let God!
guilt, lack of trust are culprits too.
so thank you so much for your post, that means alot to me!
gotta go and do a perm so better get going here! love jewels