Hello All...
How's it going? Been a week today since I took my last dose of meth.
I was at my dads 2 days after (should have stayed away as it's a house full of users) and I was telling his flat mate how things were going.
Said..took my last bit 2 days ago, feel a bit s***ty, but ok
He says..so you've conned your dad into getting you some drugs?
Me..no, I'm here coz he owes me a tenner..I'm not doing any drugs, have'nt touched the powder for months now.
Him..so you don't want any of mine then? And runs up the stairs.
b******!!! I was really considering following him up there and saying..gis a bit then, but I didn't then my dad came back from the cashpoint.
How bloody easy is it to get into your head?
I have started counselling, not just for the addiction, but loads of other things too. Had my assessment and she says she thinks I need long term counselling.
So gonna see how it goes. I think it's a good idea to address this because last time I got clean, that was it, didn't do anything like this and I relapsed..ok 3 yrs later but I still did..so I need to realise I am not immune to this drug.
The kids are great and my relationship with them has definatly improved, they keep me busy and little man is teething at the mo, so lots to do.
Hope everyones well, thinking of you,
Kym x
..Kymbo..
..Nice one on getting off the meth and staying strong in not following the man upstairs for a bitta gear..it can be so easy to relapse like that, just hearing/knowing theres gear about can so easy trigger you to use but ya done well in that situation..its all a test to test ya willpower..you've come along way in getting where your at and even just a little sample of it again will f**** up all the hard work you done for yaself..maybe in future if your dads gotta give ya sum money he might understand your situation and drop the money round to you to keep you away from people who are using there, just a thought ?..good luck in staying clean..Robbie..
..Nice one on getting off the meth and staying strong in not following the man upstairs for a bitta gear..it can be so easy to relapse like that, just hearing/knowing theres gear about can so easy trigger you to use but ya done well in that situation..its all a test to test ya willpower..you've come along way in getting where your at and even just a little sample of it again will f**** up all the hard work you done for yaself..maybe in future if your dads gotta give ya sum money he might understand your situation and drop the money round to you to keep you away from people who are using there, just a thought ?..good luck in staying clean..Robbie..
On you go Kymbo! Life threw a test at you and you passed. Glad all is well, the counselling sounds like a good idea. All the best, Kev
