A friend of mine had a slip, after 3 months clean she was craving very badly I tried talking to her, tried to get her to a meeting but I guess she just had her mind made up that she was gonna use again, so she gave in to the craving without trying to get help and she slipped. It was a 3 day binge of pills for her, when it was over the guilt was overwhelming, the great feeling that she thought she was going to get was non existent, when I asked her if it was worth it she just looked at me and said that she would never forget how bad she felt at that moment, she cried and said that now she realized how much better her life was without drugs, physicaly and mentally........
I guess that I wanted to share this with you because we tend to forget how much better it is to have clean time and how bad we feel when we slip.
My friend is back to meetings and said that she now knows better than to give in so eaisy . Just a reminder that that snake can bite us if we are not paying enough attention to ourselves!!!........All my Love...Shel
I went through the same thing, and it taught me the best lesson I could have ever wished for...now I know for a certainty that I CAN'T use....EVER!
Sometimes relapse has positive repercussions, if we live through it...we learn!
Sometimes relapse has positive repercussions, if we live through it...we learn!
Shel
Thanks for that reminder. Yes if you start thinking like that you're heading for trouble. The thing we have to do is realize when that stinkin thinkin is coming on and do something about.,,,,,meeting, personal contact, sponsor, etc. I'm happy your friend realized that she made a big mistake and was only on them for three days.
Take care
Frank
Hey Shel:
I did this after 2 weeks of stopping the Lortabs and wasn't even in pain - guess it was depression, had that end of the world feeling, took 8 pills in 3 days, boy, did I feel the guilt. The pills did nothing for me, I felt I should have to go through W/D again, I hated myself for doing it that bad. Glad I didn't, of course.
I did want to say I love reading all of your post, they always seem to be positive and helpful.
Love, Jean
I did this after 2 weeks of stopping the Lortabs and wasn't even in pain - guess it was depression, had that end of the world feeling, took 8 pills in 3 days, boy, did I feel the guilt. The pills did nothing for me, I felt I should have to go through W/D again, I hated myself for doing it that bad. Glad I didn't, of course.
I did want to say I love reading all of your post, they always seem to be positive and helpful.
Love, Jean
Sandyfeet,
This isn't going to come out sounding right, because of course I'm not happy that your friend relapsed, but it always helps me to hear that when someone slips it's just not worth it -- they don't get the high, the guilt is overwhelming.
That's why I'm always so grateful when someone has the courage to post that they've relapsed. Their experience helps all of us as much as the posts of those of us muddling through not slipping.
Cheers and best of luck to your friend,
Gina
This isn't going to come out sounding right, because of course I'm not happy that your friend relapsed, but it always helps me to hear that when someone slips it's just not worth it -- they don't get the high, the guilt is overwhelming.
That's why I'm always so grateful when someone has the courage to post that they've relapsed. Their experience helps all of us as much as the posts of those of us muddling through not slipping.
Cheers and best of luck to your friend,
Gina
Sometimes people believe the lie that drugs will make us feel better. We have already proven to ourselves we can't handle pills responsibly . Once we begin to believe the lie, we start to tell ourselves it will be different this time. I believed that lie for over 4 years after I got to AA. I kept telling myself it was ok to take pills as long as I didnt' drink. I kept telling myself I would feel the way I did when I took my first xan or vic but it just kept getting worse. It just got worse and worse but I didn't believe it. I dont' think any of us are here because we had control over our drug intake. If we could handle it, we'd probably still be taking them. Watch out for that lie.
Dear All,
I lived the lie for 6 years, everytime I wanted to stop I to heard the pills wisper how much better they would make me feel, how I wouldnt worry about my problems, how I could stop tomorrow ......all lies. I felt guilty, lousey, sick, in pain, in debt, spirtually bankrupt........I too feel bad for anyone that relapses but it is a good reminder why I never want to go back. Even in relapse continue to post, you can be sure that you help others while giving us the chance to help you!!! In fact why dont you post what you have learned from a relapse......
Maybe it will help someone before it happens.....All my love ..Shel
I lived the lie for 6 years, everytime I wanted to stop I to heard the pills wisper how much better they would make me feel, how I wouldnt worry about my problems, how I could stop tomorrow ......all lies. I felt guilty, lousey, sick, in pain, in debt, spirtually bankrupt........I too feel bad for anyone that relapses but it is a good reminder why I never want to go back. Even in relapse continue to post, you can be sure that you help others while giving us the chance to help you!!! In fact why dont you post what you have learned from a relapse......
Maybe it will help someone before it happens.....All my love ..Shel
Yep, it is very easy to say "I will stop tomorrow" as you are swallowing a handful of pills. It's easy to feel the motivation to quit while you are high. Then when tomorrow comes, more guilt and feelings of failure are added on top of the guilt and failure from all of the previous "tomorrows". And it builds up so much that you feel you will live out the rest of your days as a failure. And then you don't even bother tell yourself that you will quit tomorrow anymore. You set yourself up for failure by saying, "I will never succeed anyways, so why bother even trying?" And I guess that's when you finally reach the point where you lose all hope. To write it all out, it sounds even more depressing. And it is. Do you remember while you were using, that feeling that you were living in a black hole? It's not fun anymore. Nothing is fun anymore. Nothing feels good anymore. It's not living...just merely existing.
