hi why is it so empty in my guts my hart is so lonely and heavy a dont whant to use for today and i havent i did two meetings today. ifeel a littel better thank u god for helping me stay clean and sober today
some times in our on stinkin thinkin we think that we need to have excitment in our lives we look for termoil we look for how knows what
tweaknomore, I sympathize with wth you. My first 30 days I did alone. Boy those were some empty lonely days. Filled with despair and intense cravings. Then I started walking and enjoying the scenery. I joined n.a. I even started taking empty garbage bags and cleaning up litter. ( It dismays my spirit to see our land so trashed.) I started doing a lot more work around the house and volunteer service for n.a. and for my community. I joined about four recovery sites and I post a lot of letters. I rarely have any free time left to "pity pot" in. LOL. All of these things have restored my self esteem and allowed me to feel pride in myself. Your friend, Linda
well linda your right im setting on my pittypot im being selfcenterd and selfish so im feeling sorry for my self i love my family and my sobriety god help me stay clean and sober today
Hi tweak no more, Thanks for writing. I know how hard the first days are. Before I joined N.A. I quit meth many times on my own. In fact I made it 4 years in 1989-1993. I didn't learn the tools and have all the support that I have gained through joining N.A. Or maybe I just wasn't quite ready. Meth. is like a physco mate. So seductive and sweet to keep you but so nasty and mean while you're hooked. Never wanting to let it's hold on you slip. So even as wonderful as I feel today, 104 days clean, I know I have to stay vigilent always. My ex-partner, meth, knows my triggers and weak moments and is just waiting, waiting. Ever ready to recapture my interest in whatever way it can. I pray that this time is my last hurrah. That I need never gird myself again. That I have vanquished my dragon for the final time. My support and prayers for you, Your friend,,,Linda
well linda you are right it was and still wants to be my lover but just for today it want be thru prayer i keep doing meetings today i think i will do 2 today at fremont fellowship
Hey tweak, the beginnings of being clean can be overwhelming , at times I wondered if it would EVER get better . Without going on and on , I'll just say it DOES get better . After a while it will be easy makin it day to day . But stay strong always , every once in a while the cravings and depression sneak up on ya , but if you stay resolved in your efforts to stay clean those feelings go away almost as fast as they appear . As good things happen to you , think about them, keep them in your mind . while using meth your minds own way of rewarding itself was replaced by the meth itself , The natural pathways for "feeling good" need to be rebuilt , So go ahead and be as proud as you can be for each day you get through without using , everynight read that note you got , relish the true feeling of love and caring from your family. it's the real deal, not drug induced ..... come here or go to your meetings ...whatever makes you feel like the person you want to have pride in ......I'm glad your hangin in there ......obviously no where near as glad as your family best wishes ; jom
hi guys well im still clean thank god well im89 days clean today i was worried about some pain pills the dentist gave me today but im in alot of pain so i took a viconden but i will die first befor i ever use speed agian just for today i love life god keep me clean and sober today
