Waaaa waaaa waa. This sucks. I've got a hole in me now. I just watched all my brothers and sisters and thier kids go home togeather with thier wives and husbands to share Christmas togeather. Now I am home typing on the internet and hoping someone is listening. I'm sad.
Love,
Jane
((((((((((((((((jane))))))))))))))))))))))
i am alone to.................
big hugs to you honey.................
love
thumper
i am alone to.................
big hugs to you honey.................
love
thumper
I'm sorry that we are alone Do you have kids thumps?
no i dont jane............i wish i did.........
what are you doing?
anything good on Tv?
what are you doing?
anything good on Tv?
intervention is on A&E
Jane, I've been having a hard time with Christmas this year also. My 23 year old and 21 year old are out on their own. I still have my 12 and 15 year old here but they are growing up and it's not the same as when they were little. They use to get so excited tracking Santa on the internet now it's like o.k. whatever. Guess I am starting to feel the empty nest syndrome about now and not likeing it.My husband is dancing the jig. (LOL) I am not ready to let go yet... Shantel
Jane I don't really know what to say except I think you are a beautiful person and I hope things will get better for you. I really cannot imagine how that must feel... I'm sorry.
Life can deal us some pretty crappy cards. Just be thankful that you have gorgeous healthy children and they are experiencing one (if not the best) holidays in the year.
Things will look up soon sweetie. Just hold on.
Love
stac
Life can deal us some pretty crappy cards. Just be thankful that you have gorgeous healthy children and they are experiencing one (if not the best) holidays in the year.
Things will look up soon sweetie. Just hold on.
Love
stac
Well, Dylan is in bed, Tyler is in his room, I have to wait till Dylan gets to sleep so that I can play Santa. My husband is spending the night with his Mama, so I am alone too :-(
first Christmas Eve without my hubby in 22 years...but I understand that his mama hasn't been feeling well and doesn't need to be alone. I hope that he has a good night with her, it very well may be the last...but we can pray for more. I was a bit angry because my BIL is single and why shouldn't he be with her, but now I am okay with it...I got that much more room in my bed tonight...
Love to you Jane...keep posting honey...and all of you other late nighters...you east coast people are having Christmas already, I have almost an hour left.
I watched A Christmas Story (I had never seen it) and I laughed my butt off...Now I'm watching Ice Age for the thousandth time...
first Christmas Eve without my hubby in 22 years...but I understand that his mama hasn't been feeling well and doesn't need to be alone. I hope that he has a good night with her, it very well may be the last...but we can pray for more. I was a bit angry because my BIL is single and why shouldn't he be with her, but now I am okay with it...I got that much more room in my bed tonight...
Love to you Jane...keep posting honey...and all of you other late nighters...you east coast people are having Christmas already, I have almost an hour left.
I watched A Christmas Story (I had never seen it) and I laughed my butt off...Now I'm watching Ice Age for the thousandth time...
dear jane ~
there was a time when i lost custody of my children due my addiction and the behavior i exhibited while being addicted. after losing custody, i entered a detox then rehab center. thank you God for a loving family who took custody of my children - loved them, until i was able to learn to love myself. with recovery, i later regained custody of my children. however, something neat i learned that christmas when my children were not physically with me on christmas morning was the stress and angst that i willingly put upon myself when i knew i would wake christmas morning alone without them.
who said we had to celebrate christmas on december 25th? i was due several days visitation at our home the following weekend and we celebrated not only christmas but rang in the new year together too! it was awesome and a memory that is indelibly etched in my heart.
apologies in advance if your experience is not surrounded on the same conditions as mine was. in no way shape or form do i want to read something into a message that is not there. nevertheless, my point being is we can choose to celebrate love any day of any time of the year we want too. where is it mandated that we have to love just one single day of the year?
i'm hoping that what i'm reading into your message is that you dropping your children off is a temporary situation. i do not know the circumstances that warranted your separation. this morning at 4:00 a.m. one of the assistant managers of the pills anonymous site wrote how his precious 22 year old daughter, (who also was a member of PA) overdosed yesterday and was found dead in her room. his child will never be coming back to his/her home again, on this plane that is...not for christmases, birthdays, to share her excitement of a new job, love, educational, emotional, and spiritual empowerment, or the oppotunity to find positive solutions to the challenges that we all face in life.
i think it's time for me to do my gratitude list and call it a day.
much love to you, jane and if anyone hasn't told you they love you today, i do. may the peace of this season be with you.
namaste'
sammy
there was a time when i lost custody of my children due my addiction and the behavior i exhibited while being addicted. after losing custody, i entered a detox then rehab center. thank you God for a loving family who took custody of my children - loved them, until i was able to learn to love myself. with recovery, i later regained custody of my children. however, something neat i learned that christmas when my children were not physically with me on christmas morning was the stress and angst that i willingly put upon myself when i knew i would wake christmas morning alone without them.
who said we had to celebrate christmas on december 25th? i was due several days visitation at our home the following weekend and we celebrated not only christmas but rang in the new year together too! it was awesome and a memory that is indelibly etched in my heart.
apologies in advance if your experience is not surrounded on the same conditions as mine was. in no way shape or form do i want to read something into a message that is not there. nevertheless, my point being is we can choose to celebrate love any day of any time of the year we want too. where is it mandated that we have to love just one single day of the year?
i'm hoping that what i'm reading into your message is that you dropping your children off is a temporary situation. i do not know the circumstances that warranted your separation. this morning at 4:00 a.m. one of the assistant managers of the pills anonymous site wrote how his precious 22 year old daughter, (who also was a member of PA) overdosed yesterday and was found dead in her room. his child will never be coming back to his/her home again, on this plane that is...not for christmases, birthdays, to share her excitement of a new job, love, educational, emotional, and spiritual empowerment, or the oppotunity to find positive solutions to the challenges that we all face in life.
i think it's time for me to do my gratitude list and call it a day.
much love to you, jane and if anyone hasn't told you they love you today, i do. may the peace of this season be with you.
namaste'
sammy
Hey Jane. I am sorry that you feel sad. I know that Christmas can bring on all kinds of expectations; usually of things we can't have.
I hope you have a good day and know that we all care and think highly of you.
Hugs...
Sammy, that is just awful...I am so sorry to hear that.
Kerry
I hope you have a good day and know that we all care and think highly of you.
Hugs...
Sammy, that is just awful...I am so sorry to hear that.
Kerry
Jane-I could quote a barrage of cliches but the bottom line is sometimes it does s*ck!
If this is your first holiday clean and sober,it can be tough whether you're alone or surrounded by people.Being in a festive atmosphere made me more crazy than just being alone.It will pass.............Go ahead and feel the way you need to.At least you're feeling.How many times have we sailed through all of this toasted to the gills.
If I thought I was going to have a feeling,I would lie down on the couch until it passed.LOL
I'm alone this Christmas by choice.I go a little up and down about it but it's not any worse than some Mondays I've had.I had a surfing buddy,his girlfriend and brother stopped by last night and invited me to a service at 1st Baptist church.I would rather have my wisdom teeth pulled without anesthesia that sit through that.I couldn't handle all the matching little Christmas outfits let alone deal with that egomaniac minister.LOL.....bitterness seems to be one emotion that's not arrested.
Anyway,Give yourself a break and maybe watch a good movie today[funny movie] and remember.....This too shall pass.
Merry Christmas
If this is your first holiday clean and sober,it can be tough whether you're alone or surrounded by people.Being in a festive atmosphere made me more crazy than just being alone.It will pass.............Go ahead and feel the way you need to.At least you're feeling.How many times have we sailed through all of this toasted to the gills.
If I thought I was going to have a feeling,I would lie down on the couch until it passed.LOL
I'm alone this Christmas by choice.I go a little up and down about it but it's not any worse than some Mondays I've had.I had a surfing buddy,his girlfriend and brother stopped by last night and invited me to a service at 1st Baptist church.I would rather have my wisdom teeth pulled without anesthesia that sit through that.I couldn't handle all the matching little Christmas outfits let alone deal with that egomaniac minister.LOL.....bitterness seems to be one emotion that's not arrested.
Anyway,Give yourself a break and maybe watch a good movie today[funny movie] and remember.....This too shall pass.
Merry Christmas
This was my best Christmas present to wake up and see all my friends who care. Tears are comming to my eyes. I just assumed everyone was having Christmas with someone and no one would reply. This is awesome. Thank you it means alot that you care. Yes my kids are comming back later and yes I have gratitude there are tons of presents underneath the tree. It is my 3rd Christmas sober but first alone is all. I am grateful for my friends here some times this board saves my life. Merry Christmas.
i know what you mean jane.................
so glad your kids are back and you have lots of gift under the tree..........
lots of love to you from me...............
thumper
so glad your kids are back and you have lots of gift under the tree..........
lots of love to you from me...............
thumper
Just wait a few years. My teenagers used to hang out with the buddies on Chrismtas, too, but now that they're grown, we have Christmas together once again and it's SO wonderful. They WANT to be with us, and to me that's the best Christmas giift of anything. Holidays are especially tough for people living alone, too. On the other hand, I did go through a passel of stress raising all those kids, so I deserve the blessings I now have, but many do the stress part without the blessings. Christmas time is SO stressful and I'm sure that many are relieved to have it over.
Jane...I know this is late but I wanted you to know that I'm thinking about you and how proud I am of you. You have come so far, don't forget those things. I hope that the rest of your Christmas was better.....love you, Lisa
Jane,
I am late as well, Just got a chance to read the board after a hectic couple of days.......
Just want you to know, you are so loved here..............I hope things got better for you.
You are so appreciated here, I always look forward to your posts.
Big Hugs.
I am late as well, Just got a chance to read the board after a hectic couple of days.......
Just want you to know, you are so loved here..............I hope things got better for you.
You are so appreciated here, I always look forward to your posts.
Big Hugs.
first off, I hope each and everyone of you had a nice hoilday.
Jane and thumps, I am alone too. Well I am now. I did have x-mass brunch with my family. It was Really nice...first x-mass not sneaking off to chew a mouthful of pills. or sweating my butt off cause I didn't have enough. I know I am a few days late responding (i haven't had my pc on) but how are you feeling today jane??thump??anyone??
Jane and thumps, I am alone too. Well I am now. I did have x-mass brunch with my family. It was Really nice...first x-mass not sneaking off to chew a mouthful of pills. or sweating my butt off cause I didn't have enough. I know I am a few days late responding (i haven't had my pc on) but how are you feeling today jane??thump??anyone??
