I haven't been on for several days but alot of things have turned around. I told you about not being able to turn on my cousin and feeling bad about doing so. He did it for me. He called me the other night cussing and yelling. I didn't mention he was also my connect. So I havent talked to him for two days and I don't plan on it. He is not the type who will call me first either. He is getting in too deep and that really scares me. I know that I cannot save him or change him and all I can do is take care of me. So here I am. I want to change and make things better so today is my first step. My body is hurting and I have that shaky echoing feeling inside my entire body. I know this is only temporary and it will get better. I just need to stay out of the refrigerator. I think I have eaten everything that is not tied down then some. I am going to bed now. Thanks for all the positive stories. They help alot.
hahaha, I can relate to the fridge comment . You got the right idea , best wishes .....we are always here for ya .....AL
The fridge scene is oh so very real!! Isn't it funny when you're off the meth everything sounds so good and you can't seem to get enough food?! Since I started this stupid habit, I've gone up and down 30-40 lbs. Wish I could just lose all I want, and stay there permanently - eat what I want and never gain another pound again. teehee. That would be just the golden olden days, being a teeny bopper and having a bottomless pit!! Hang in there Tamara. These too shall pass.......they will get better sooner or later. Just keep positive, ONE DAY AT A TIME works well with all of us too. We're learning togehter, and together, we can make it happen.
I am needing any information that any of you may have that will help me. Two years ago I thought I was in "love" so I moved out of my home and in with my guy. Well two years later after being kicked out and having to grovel to get in, hoping that my garage door opener will work and not be unplugged, hoping that he is in a good mood when he gets home and wondering if he wants us here. Because I am me plus three. Needless to say, I am tired. After the drugs and the no job and the emotional beatings. I am tired. I need to get a place of my own. I have called tons of shelters and the only one who doesn't have a waiting list is the City Union Mission. I tried to get into one that had counseling and had a very strict program which I was welcoming. But because my U.A. came up dirty they never would return my calls. I was completely honest up front and told them during my intake that it would and that I wanted change in my life. Unless you are a battered partner or a drug addict (which I am) then no one can help you. Makes me sick. I just didn't want to put my kids through what I know I need. Kinda of like doing counseling while they are at school or meetings after school for an hour or so when it is okay for them to be at home without me. I just need to get out of here!!!!! I live in Kansas City, MO. So if you have any suggestions or ideas I would love to hear. Thanks again for all your support and kind words...
Any suggestions??? Please.
I am not familiar with your area, you might try www.methmadness.com I know several of the people there live in MO. They might be able to help you more
