Just For Today

Pain Pills
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Just for today I plan on staying sober. June 2004 was my last Oxy/Perc/Zanax

Due to a few drinks in AA terms I have 6 months.

But for me dates mean nothing. Just today is important. I think this new A/D cymbalta may be working. Not sure. What I am sure of is I have manged to keep my weight steady which is the hardest due to prednisone and serequel.

Proud of the change in my diet-vitamins and exercise regiment that I have kept up no matter what. It has led to better sleep. Sleep is esential for me to have any reasonable chance at staying mentaly sober. I do not fear the drugs I fear the depression.

I truly feel that I have no more run's in me. So after 16+ months of no opiates I feel confident if I can kep my moods stable I will be Okay.

I am battling awful pain --prednisone weaning --upcoming surgery--hurricane aftermath may effect our company(Job in jeopardy)--but I am sober.

My mental attitude is coming along which is the foundation of my sobriety.

I still have a major anger issue based on loss but am learning to accept life on life's terms.

Doing my best to stay focused and not Project.

I am very grateful to my few friends in N.Y and R.I who have been in the program with me for many years.

And I am blessed to have found this board. The people are amazing. Each day I read old threads and learn more about how cunning this disease is.

Thanks to all.

Jeff
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jeff, it sounds to me like your right where your supposed to be. keep up the good work...
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Hello Subman ;o),
I love "Just for Today", and another one is "Thy Will Be Done". Thanks for sharing, it sounds like you are doing well. I am so glad, I hope the Cymalta is helping. Congradulations on "all of the time you have", it's amazing. Take care, Best Wishes
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Thanks --its been a good day. I got home from work and thank god I have my cable back. No t.v for almost two weeks.

Its still very bad here in south florida. Many people suffering terribly.

Its a shame. Especialyy for the elderly.

Take care --Jeff
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Jeff..every day that you post, you sound better and better. In the beginning all you wrote about was your anger, not so much now. That's progress and acceptance on your part. I'm so proud of you.

Just for today, I have serenity and that's all I can ask for.


XXX
Lisa
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Dear Jeff.

I am so glad you found this board and here with us. You help many.
I do love your honesty and helpfulness.

I found that you are a sweetheart.

Just wanted to say that tonight and 6 months is BIG TIME!

Be proud.

Love you,
Jean