...and thank all of you have written to me via personal email or posted to me here. I can't say I am doing a whole lot better because I am trying to recapture my peace and serenity without working my program, for me, and I know that it is not for everyone, but for me it is essential. I need to get connected with my HP a lot more closely, get back to my meetings for my recovery, and be of service to other alchoholics and addicts...and take direction from my Sponsor... just get into action...I feel like I've hit yet another bottom in sobriety, every year I've hit some type of bottom and this feels like the worse , but I know pain is the touchstone of growth for me. I lost priceless assets to me while my self will has been running wild: humility, reliance on God, trusting the process, and walking in faith....so I believe I may be finally ready to surrender and let go and am promised that my peace and serenity will return...I am letting go of my current drug of choice, my youngest daughter. She actually is doing well...she is doing good in school, caught up with everything and is making good grades...she will be surfing in a competition beginning on Saturday, she has over 60 days of sobriety, she says she is going to meetings and she got a job at a local hot spot breakfast restaurant working the register...you see as hard it is to admit for me, I can finally see my part in it...I will at times still create drama and chaos when there is no need for it because that is what I lived on a daily basis until I was 44 years old....and I get comfortable at times returning there...but it doesn't stay comfortable and I get miserable, which is a good thing...and if I am sitting in untreated alcoholism, like I've been, my head runs and takes me right to fear...I'm finally not skulking down back beach alleys at night, calling every number on my daughter's cell phone, getting angry with her "friends", oh I could go on and on...God is right there for her too and he has a plan for her...as I step out of the way she gets better, or at least I should say our relationship gets better. Lastly, I want to welcome any newcomers to this board, there is a solution to treat your alcoholism and if you are sick and tired of being sick and tired you don't have to live that any longer; welcome back to those of you who haven't been here for awhile; I also want to offer my condolences to those who have recently lost loved ones; and just hello to everyone and thanks for still being here sharing your experience, strength and hope with all of us....whether you know it or not you've helped this recovering drunk stay sober one day at time and I thank you for that. Geri
Hi Geri, thanks for checking in.... I was wondering how you were. I'm sorry to hear that you have been having a tough time lately. Don't give up, sooner or later those fears will subside as sobriety and serenety become a habit.
One day at a time... Cookster.
One day at a time... Cookster.
Thanks Cookster, so happy you are staying sober! That is awesome...you know despite all the trials and tribulations I've been through in sobriety I cannot say I would trade in one of those days for a drink...things are happening to me that happen to everyone in life...I just use to drink and use over them...now I have to implement the coping tools I've been given...easier said than done sometimes though. One day at time...thank God, it's just one day at a time, thanks for reminding me again!
Just wanted to support ya on your part of the Board as well VW Girl.
Kinda like the kids on my space.....just showing ya page some love <333.
Whatever the heck that means.
You know you've helped me many a time.....I'm happy for you.
Kinda like the kids on my space.....just showing ya page some love <333.
Whatever the heck that means.
You know you've helped me many a time.....I'm happy for you.
Bryn <3 is a heart so <333 is a bunch of hearts I would guess
Hey Bryn,
Another thing I did was turn in numerous myspace accounts of her friends....brought them down....the guy who was my daughter's BF (yes, the 21 year old convicted felon that I went to court against) had his myspace website with a pic of the Wicked Witch of the West on it and his title (screen name) was I'm am K*********'s Mom!"....(the pose where she is saying I'll get you my pretty...) of course when I saw himat the local Alano club I complimented him on that, pretty f****** ingenious I told him, I take it as a compliment!" I am was so whacked back then (a few months ago)...I'm getting better, really I am! Thanks for the support!
Another thing I did was turn in numerous myspace accounts of her friends....brought them down....the guy who was my daughter's BF (yes, the 21 year old convicted felon that I went to court against) had his myspace website with a pic of the Wicked Witch of the West on it and his title (screen name) was I'm am K*********'s Mom!"....(the pose where she is saying I'll get you my pretty...) of course when I saw himat the local Alano club I complimented him on that, pretty f****** ingenious I told him, I take it as a compliment!" I am was so whacked back then (a few months ago)...I'm getting better, really I am! Thanks for the support!
Hi Geri....Happy to see your check in...have been thinking of you! The one thing I have learned is that recovery...life....is a series of lessons...My father (sober for 21 years) always says "Blessings and lessons"...We might take what we think is a step or two or three backwards but there is a reason, a lesson in it all and what matters most...is not what we did "wrong" or what we think is "wrong" but what we do about it....what we have learned about ourselves...progress not perfection....
Remember to give yourself a break....and know that everything you did came from your heart...a mother's heart....right, wrong, indifferent....
Love Gina
xo
Remember to give yourself a break....and know that everything you did came from your heart...a mother's heart....right, wrong, indifferent....
Love Gina
xo
Hiya Geri,
Thanks for checking in, its so nice to see you. Keep doing what you need to do for you and just know your loved here. I know I'm not here a whole lot anymore but its nice to see a message from you when I do log in...take care of yourself..
huggss..
gi :o)
ps...hello to everyone else!!
Thanks for checking in, its so nice to see you. Keep doing what you need to do for you and just know your loved here. I know I'm not here a whole lot anymore but its nice to see a message from you when I do log in...take care of yourself..
huggss..
gi :o)
ps...hello to everyone else!!
Hi Geri
Thanks for stopping by. I did the same wanting to wish you a happy Easter. I had no idea, you had some negative issues going on- (I usually stop by more often and probably would ve known).
It seems like that freaking "My Space" was involved in some of your pain recently. Well ,I also have a son who uses that site -OK he's 20 years old, not a kid, but I see the type of stuff on that site and some of it can be quite disturbing.
I just I just want to say hang in there and show my support . Someone a lot smarter than me once said >
"Trials give you strength, sorrows give understanding and wisdom"
Whatever is going on > take it as a trial- the way you say you feel now ,will change and all involved should be stronger and wiser for going through these tough and confusing times
By the time you get this ,I hope your heads in a better place -
with much respect,
jack
Thanks for stopping by. I did the same wanting to wish you a happy Easter. I had no idea, you had some negative issues going on- (I usually stop by more often and probably would ve known).
It seems like that freaking "My Space" was involved in some of your pain recently. Well ,I also have a son who uses that site -OK he's 20 years old, not a kid, but I see the type of stuff on that site and some of it can be quite disturbing.
I just I just want to say hang in there and show my support . Someone a lot smarter than me once said >
"Trials give you strength, sorrows give understanding and wisdom"
Whatever is going on > take it as a trial- the way you say you feel now ,will change and all involved should be stronger and wiser for going through these tough and confusing times
By the time you get this ,I hope your heads in a better place -
with much respect,
jack
Hi Geri...
It's always so good to see when you pop in and post....I hope you are taking care of yourself today and letting God take care of the problems....You are such a beautiful spirit and I just wanted to say "hey"...Miss you...
xoxo
Stacey
It's always so good to see when you pop in and post....I hope you are taking care of yourself today and letting God take care of the problems....You are such a beautiful spirit and I just wanted to say "hey"...Miss you...
xoxo
Stacey
Hello Vwgirl
Its been awhile but to come in here and see youre still here really makes my day.
They say insanity is inherited its caused by kids. I think I agree with that.
Lifes good on this side of the world at the moment Talking about insanity I just brought a new surfboard yesterday 10 foot I remember when a 54 would hold my weight. And at 56 years old cant wait to get in the water and see what it can do. crazy.
Although in my practising alcoholism they were days when I didnt have the energy to pass wind .
Its good to hear your daughter is getting on with it. Hopefully that will give you time to look after you.
I hope we can talk again soon. You know when I pray in the mornings I ask God to direct my thinking and that I may be shown the way of Patience, Kindness, Tolerance and Love because at times I lack in those areas of my life I ask this so I may be of better use To God and my fellows.
I also ask that I be given the ability to be Patient, Tolerant, Kind and Loving towards myself, which at times I forget to do and its hard to give away what you havent got.
Again hope to talk to you soon.
God Bless
Lionel
Its been awhile but to come in here and see youre still here really makes my day.
They say insanity is inherited its caused by kids. I think I agree with that.
Lifes good on this side of the world at the moment Talking about insanity I just brought a new surfboard yesterday 10 foot I remember when a 54 would hold my weight. And at 56 years old cant wait to get in the water and see what it can do. crazy.
Although in my practising alcoholism they were days when I didnt have the energy to pass wind .
Its good to hear your daughter is getting on with it. Hopefully that will give you time to look after you.
I hope we can talk again soon. You know when I pray in the mornings I ask God to direct my thinking and that I may be shown the way of Patience, Kindness, Tolerance and Love because at times I lack in those areas of my life I ask this so I may be of better use To God and my fellows.
I also ask that I be given the ability to be Patient, Tolerant, Kind and Loving towards myself, which at times I forget to do and its hard to give away what you havent got.
Again hope to talk to you soon.
God Bless
Lionel
