Hi all, hope everybody is doing well. I do miss my old friends, and think about you all ofen. I'm expecting my second baby - due next month! Everything is cool with me. Last year ended on a sad note. I finally buried my ex. He died a long lonely death, and I wonder if he'd still be here if I'd done things differently, but I have to stand by decisions. I feel a lot of guilt and responsibility over his suffering and death. But my pain is a salve for my conscience. Like Al Pacino in the Godfather, it's right that I suffer.
Anyway, as I said, I miss you all, if anybody wants to contact me, you can get me on facebook. Meredith Blake - Wales. No more cloak of anonymity required since I'm now a clean living responsible fully paid up member of society...
love you
Diff xxxx
YAY! It's Diff. Good to know you're well and ready for a wee bairn. Row will be SO excited. Diff, you are an inspiration to us parents...God bless you...see you on Facebook.
Peace ~ MomNMore
Peace ~ MomNMore
Nice one Differ,glad alls good with you .....and a baby bro or sis for Rowanne....great news.....sorry to hear bout yer ex.The best of luck to you and the growing family.....best wishes as ever....................Davey
Hey looks what happens when ya leave the door open- -
Hi Diff- so glad to hear from ya !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If you have scanned thru a few of my other posts,you'll see that that job you used to tell me that I stressed too much about is over.
A 13 yr era- - Feels like I was kicked in the stomach. All the people, friends that I cultivated relationships with thru the yrs- - its a real bummer
Its kind of like a divorce, I get it > it takes time to go thru the separation anxiety- a grieving process,if you will. Doesnt make it any easier though.
Just wish the economy was more promising
Listen to me- going on about myself... What are you up to- -the kid?? The guy??
Where are ya ???
Hope your year is starting off just the way you want it to.
Fill us in , if you can. We all miss you. Your name pops up from time to time- I just smile- knowing that you came a long way and are continuing to grow. I smile when I think of all the advise you have given me personally, most if not all has been spot on (to borrow a British term)
take care of yourself
with much love
jack
So sorry about your ex- so much suffering- you were like an Angel thru the whole thing
Hi Diff- so glad to hear from ya !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If you have scanned thru a few of my other posts,you'll see that that job you used to tell me that I stressed too much about is over.
A 13 yr era- - Feels like I was kicked in the stomach. All the people, friends that I cultivated relationships with thru the yrs- - its a real bummer
Its kind of like a divorce, I get it > it takes time to go thru the separation anxiety- a grieving process,if you will. Doesnt make it any easier though.
Just wish the economy was more promising
Listen to me- going on about myself... What are you up to- -the kid?? The guy??
Where are ya ???
Hope your year is starting off just the way you want it to.
Fill us in , if you can. We all miss you. Your name pops up from time to time- I just smile- knowing that you came a long way and are continuing to grow. I smile when I think of all the advise you have given me personally, most if not all has been spot on (to borrow a British term)
take care of yourself
with much love
jack
So sorry about your ex- so much suffering- you were like an Angel thru the whole thing
Diff,
~smile~
It is good to see your name & your little fire-breathing dragon. Congrats on the new little one on the way and I hope for many blessings for your entire family. I am sorry for the loss of your ex, I remember how you helped him and were there for him.....may he find peace.
Take good care of you,
Stacey
~smile~
It is good to see your name & your little fire-breathing dragon. Congrats on the new little one on the way and I hope for many blessings for your entire family. I am sorry for the loss of your ex, I remember how you helped him and were there for him.....may he find peace.
Take good care of you,
Stacey
Hi all, sorry this will have to be quick. So sorry about your job jack. But when one door shuts, another one will open, probably taking you in a direction you could never have forseen. And mom n more - hope to see ya on facebook soon, and anybody else who fancies a chat. Shoulda given my email, woulda been easier - mablake@talktalk.net. And Stacey, yeah, I too hope he is at peace. The one thing I say to him in my moments when I talk to him, either in my head or at his graveside is please don't look back - you owe this life nothing, you suffered the torments of hell in the last 3 years, you earned your wings, go fly my love. And I'm sorry for hurting you so badly.
I don't think the wound in my heart will ever heal, and I'm not sure I want it to. I did love him, right till the end, even though I left him, for the sake of my own survival. As I have said often on this board, what has a back has a front, and the depth of my pain is a reflection of my love. Poor Rich. I hope he knew that. I did tell him often, but seeing him in those last months and weeks and days, it was a trauma I could never explain, or even attempt to. It wasn't a peaceful death, that's all I can say. It will haunt me forever.
ok gotta go folks xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I don't think the wound in my heart will ever heal, and I'm not sure I want it to. I did love him, right till the end, even though I left him, for the sake of my own survival. As I have said often on this board, what has a back has a front, and the depth of my pain is a reflection of my love. Poor Rich. I hope he knew that. I did tell him often, but seeing him in those last months and weeks and days, it was a trauma I could never explain, or even attempt to. It wasn't a peaceful death, that's all I can say. It will haunt me forever.
ok gotta go folks xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
mablake@talktalk.net.
Can get this to send??
Can get this to send??
Jack, translate please? You can mail me direct if ya like.
love ya jacko xxxxxxxxxxxx
love ya jacko xxxxxxxxxxxx
I think I got the note to finally send- - my system wasn't sending my e-mails
Did ya get an E-Mail from me yet,Differ??
Did ya get an E-Mail from me yet,Differ??
Differ!!
So good to see that your well and the family is growing! Good for you.
SO sorry to hear of your loss. From what I can remember, you at least were on some sort of decent terms am I right?
I will check you out on facebook. Do you have to sign yourself up for that? I don't know how it works.
Take care of yourself and best of luck giving birth,
xoxo
D
So good to see that your well and the family is growing! Good for you.
SO sorry to hear of your loss. From what I can remember, you at least were on some sort of decent terms am I right?
I will check you out on facebook. Do you have to sign yourself up for that? I don't know how it works.
Take care of yourself and best of luck giving birth,
xoxo
D
..Alrite Diff..
..Nice to see ya to see ya nice..thats well cool your due next month..happy days ahead huh ?..my sympathies go out to you concerning your ex and i hope you can move on in life without fighting your guilt to much..good luck to ya in your chosen path..take care of one n all..Robbie..
..Nice to see ya to see ya nice..thats well cool your due next month..happy days ahead huh ?..my sympathies go out to you concerning your ex and i hope you can move on in life without fighting your guilt to much..good luck to ya in your chosen path..take care of one n all..Robbie..
Diff-
I don't think my note to you made it all the way to Wales- maybe its lost somewhere over the cyber Atlantic
Use mine, tceffo@earthlink.net - if you want ,this way I can use the one that is sent
I don't think my note to you made it all the way to Wales- maybe its lost somewhere over the cyber Atlantic
Use mine, tceffo@earthlink.net - if you want ,this way I can use the one that is sent
k, jack, I'll do that...
nice to hear from you Robbie and Danie - hope life is being good to ya's!
love
Diff xxx
nice to hear from you Robbie and Danie - hope life is being good to ya's!
love
Diff xxx
So good to have a update on ya Diff. A new baby too wonderful news. I'll have to make a face book to keep in touch and to see pics of the babies.
Hey Diff, glad you 've shown your face. Congrats on the new baby...
Dear Diff,
So good to hear from you! Wow, a new baby is on the way! That's wonderful! I'll have to get my daughter to find you on Facebook. I'd love to see some pictures!
Your accomplishments give us new hope for our addicts who are/might be struggling. Thank you for that!
I'm so sorry to hear about your ex. I KNOW that he knows how much you loved him. I could tell that through cyberspace, so I'm sure he could see it in your eyes. You had to do that you did for your own survival. If you had stayed with him, you might not be here with us and neither would your babies. Guilt doesn't do anyone any good. Don't accept it. You don't deserve it.
My son got married on November 1st. They started to buy a house about 6 months before that, but the week after their wedding the guy my son was working for started to have problems coming up with work. They paint houses....a lot of their work was new construction and since the market here is so bad, the new houses are setting....unsold....costing the builders LOTS of money so of course they're not building anymore to just set. He's trying to find a job, but his record is hurting. Please say a few prayers for him. I'll keep you in my prayers for a safe and easy delivery of a beautiful, healthy baby. Please let us know when you have him/her.
Love,
Susan
So good to hear from you! Wow, a new baby is on the way! That's wonderful! I'll have to get my daughter to find you on Facebook. I'd love to see some pictures!
Your accomplishments give us new hope for our addicts who are/might be struggling. Thank you for that!
I'm so sorry to hear about your ex. I KNOW that he knows how much you loved him. I could tell that through cyberspace, so I'm sure he could see it in your eyes. You had to do that you did for your own survival. If you had stayed with him, you might not be here with us and neither would your babies. Guilt doesn't do anyone any good. Don't accept it. You don't deserve it.
My son got married on November 1st. They started to buy a house about 6 months before that, but the week after their wedding the guy my son was working for started to have problems coming up with work. They paint houses....a lot of their work was new construction and since the market here is so bad, the new houses are setting....unsold....costing the builders LOTS of money so of course they're not building anymore to just set. He's trying to find a job, but his record is hurting. Please say a few prayers for him. I'll keep you in my prayers for a safe and easy delivery of a beautiful, healthy baby. Please let us know when you have him/her.
Love,
Susan
