Sometimes i can get caught up in the recovery and all the fast pace of life that i can forget to mention the fun, like how great it is to run with our two kids and jump, fart, snort and generally be an idiot, which they think is great but really i am just being the kid i missed out on being and the bonus is I'm having fun being that kid with our kids.
I can have a laugh at work and if someone takes the pi*s out of me, I can see it as a joke and not go into the mental spin of why did they say that etc.
I can actually laugh at myself when an old habit kicks in automatically (eg thinkng negatively about any situation)
I can come home and genuinly want to be at home , instead of working late so i have less time at home to be grilled about whatever.
I can look in a mirror and smile at myself instead of wondering who that is staring back.
As the Cars sang Let the Good Times Roll.
Light and love Zac
Zac,
What a great post! It really made me smile pal! I am also guilty of forgetting the good things. For me I think sometimes that I focus too much on the whole "alcoholic" thing and it is too consuming. It gets exhausting at times. That's why I break from the boards. Some days I just don't want to think about recovery which I sure at some point will lead to my demise. Oh well...just wanted to thank you for that "feel good" post! Hope you are doing well my friend! Kiss those kiddies and wife of yours.
What a great post! It really made me smile pal! I am also guilty of forgetting the good things. For me I think sometimes that I focus too much on the whole "alcoholic" thing and it is too consuming. It gets exhausting at times. That's why I break from the boards. Some days I just don't want to think about recovery which I sure at some point will lead to my demise. Oh well...just wanted to thank you for that "feel good" post! Hope you are doing well my friend! Kiss those kiddies and wife of yours.
Hey Zac, as always, what a wonderful post... thank you for that my friend. I so look forward to the day when I can make peace with my addiction, and quit brooding and being resentful so much, and to appreciate more the things I do have. It's still so hard for me to imagine not ever picking up again, I just keep telling myself there is only today... I also still get wrapped up in what others think of me alot of the time and get so down when they say hurtful things... so that's another quality I hope to have someday, to let others take the p*ss out of me and not care, just be strong in who I am. You set an excellent example... your beautiful children are fortunate to have you for a dad - not just a father but a real dad. Thanks again...
Val, good to see you girl... me hopes you are feeling better these days...
Val, good to see you girl... me hopes you are feeling better these days...
GDay Zac
Great to read your post and thats what recovery for me is about today. Living life. Stopping to smell the roses. Letting that inner child have some fun.
I was a survivor for 40 years and surviving is hard work. You have to lie, manipulate, con, steel, get others before they get you. On an on.
Isnt recovery great to be able to sit on a solid stool, to walk down the street and not be afraid to as Zac put it fart, sneeze or laugh? In case you have an accident. (Poo in your pants.lol) .Io be able to look others in the eyes while walking and if they are smiling to accept that some people are happy and just smile.
Once if I was walking up the street and I looked up and someone was smiling I thought they knew something about me, about something I had done the night before or in my past my paranoia was horrific.
To know what others are thinking about me is none of my business. What I think about me is my business. That people that matter dont mind and people that mind dont matter.
Its great to spend quality time with my family and friends and have a bit of fun. Thanks Zac everyone.
Have a sober 24 God Bless Lionel
Great to read your post and thats what recovery for me is about today. Living life. Stopping to smell the roses. Letting that inner child have some fun.
I was a survivor for 40 years and surviving is hard work. You have to lie, manipulate, con, steel, get others before they get you. On an on.
Isnt recovery great to be able to sit on a solid stool, to walk down the street and not be afraid to as Zac put it fart, sneeze or laugh? In case you have an accident. (Poo in your pants.lol) .Io be able to look others in the eyes while walking and if they are smiling to accept that some people are happy and just smile.
Once if I was walking up the street and I looked up and someone was smiling I thought they knew something about me, about something I had done the night before or in my past my paranoia was horrific.
To know what others are thinking about me is none of my business. What I think about me is my business. That people that matter dont mind and people that mind dont matter.
Its great to spend quality time with my family and friends and have a bit of fun. Thanks Zac everyone.
Have a sober 24 God Bless Lionel
Thanks Ciaobella and Sober2day
Hey Ciaobella as Lionel said "what other people think of me is none of my buisness" and i add to that "what i think other people think of me is none of my buisness" also resentment is another name for addiction doing pressups, usually the person i'm resenting is laying in bed asleep while i'm the one tossing and turning as the resentment grows in my head. I believe that you don't have to put up with s***e, just don't give it back physically, mentally, emotionally, or spiritually as it has a habit of coming full circle and biting me on the bum. Okay theres times i say someone is an a******, then usually i bang my head or do something wrong because my mind is not focussed, karma returns good or bad.
They say i should pray for 2 weeks for any person i resent, well i've never reached 2 weeks but i do hope they win lotto so they can F off LMAO
Hey Lionel hell manLMAO about pooing the pants as many a good pair of jocks has died for the cause when i was drinking, thank christ it's only a good curry i have to worry about now and when the kids get older i can teach them how to light there fartsLMAOLOLLOL ......sorry only kidding, keep posting Lionel.
Light and love Zac
Hey Ciaobella as Lionel said "what other people think of me is none of my buisness" and i add to that "what i think other people think of me is none of my buisness" also resentment is another name for addiction doing pressups, usually the person i'm resenting is laying in bed asleep while i'm the one tossing and turning as the resentment grows in my head. I believe that you don't have to put up with s***e, just don't give it back physically, mentally, emotionally, or spiritually as it has a habit of coming full circle and biting me on the bum. Okay theres times i say someone is an a******, then usually i bang my head or do something wrong because my mind is not focussed, karma returns good or bad.
They say i should pray for 2 weeks for any person i resent, well i've never reached 2 weeks but i do hope they win lotto so they can F off LMAO
Hey Lionel hell manLMAO about pooing the pants as many a good pair of jocks has died for the cause when i was drinking, thank christ it's only a good curry i have to worry about now and when the kids get older i can teach them how to light there fartsLMAOLOLLOL ......sorry only kidding, keep posting Lionel.
Light and love Zac
Exactly Lionel and Zac, exactly...I heard that early on: "it's none of my business what anyone else thinks about me..." ~ that was my saving grace at times. Also, I'm told resentment is the number one offender and keeps most of us drunk...unless we deal with those resentments. Also, not sure if any of you can identify with this, but I always thought, for instance if I walked into a room or in a social setting, work, or something that concerned others, I was always worried that ~ oh, I don't look good, I'm appearing stupid, I'm not skinny enough, this, that, the other...I could go on and on....and now in sobriety I realize most people really don't give a rat's butt what's going on with me when I walk into a room, etc, most of people are thinking about what's going on with them...working the Program though I'm learning to put others before myself. I'm for the most part I'm having a great time in sobriety and enjoying life.
VWGirl
I sure do identify with the on an on. And like you said most people really don't give a rat's butt what's going on with me.
VWGirl thats terrible a rats but omg lol..
By the way did you know.
The only problem with a rats race ,even if you win your still a rat .
God Bless
Lionel
I sure do identify with the on an on. And like you said most people really don't give a rat's butt what's going on with me.
VWGirl thats terrible a rats but omg lol..
By the way did you know.
The only problem with a rats race ,even if you win your still a rat .
God Bless
Lionel
Zac, VW, Lionel, I know you guys are all right... VW I totally relate to the on and on and on... funny I have never been truly overweight in my life, and yet most of my life I've worried people would think I wasn't thin enough... partly because my sister is ultra thin and she became my model for what my body should look like. I've also begun to realize that it seems almost arrogant of me to think everyone spends so much time thinking about me, as if the world revolves around me. I'm getting better about not caring so much what others think but I look forward to the day I'm completely free of those thoughts.
And hey, everyone watch what you say about rats! I have four as pets and they're my babies!! LOL... have a good day/evening everyone...
And hey, everyone watch what you say about rats! I have four as pets and they're my babies!! LOL... have a good day/evening everyone...
Hey Ciaobella treat those thoughts like you would a drinking thought, counter them with positives and even laugh at yourself for thinking them. Thats what i do and i still do, all day sometimes. Write the sayings about what other people think etc, somewhere where you can read it and positive affirm about it every day and there will be a difference. Remember to congradulate your self for good work done as i can sometimes be so concentrated on my faults i forget about the good stuff.
Hey rats are cool they are using them to locate land mines in some places because they are so light and don't trigger the mines.
Light and love zac
Hey rats are cool they are using them to locate land mines in some places because they are so light and don't trigger the mines.
Light and love zac
Laughing at myself is one talent I do have, Zac, I just have to be careful not to go from self-deprecating to self-loathing. Sometimes I take things too seriously and others I dont take things seriously enough. But I'm working on it. Thats a good idea to write that stuff down... my brother used to put little notes on all his mirrors like that. Reminders to self.
Rats are the best! And yeah I've heard about the mine-sniffing rats, they use giant pouched rats for it in Africa... biggest rats I've ever seen! Mine are really cute though, I love them very much.
Rats are the best! And yeah I've heard about the mine-sniffing rats, they use giant pouched rats for it in Africa... biggest rats I've ever seen! Mine are really cute though, I love them very much.
I cracked up out loud Lionel...well, I did'nt want to say rat's a**...I can swear up a storm whenI get on a roll...so I'm really trying to watch myself and also even when I post...it's hard cause I rattled off a bunch of expletives last night and I was jokin' around ~ and I thought nice.........very lady-like....oh, well progress not perfection.
HI VWGirl
How true progress not perfection, although Im pretty perfect at being imperfect. And I still use a few choice words now and again. I am not cured yet in step two it says. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
I used to think it said Would but it is Could because I am still in the process of being restored to sanity. Besides theres a joy in madness only a mad person would know. I have a little smile when I read that phrase. What about anyone else?
Have a great day..God Bless
Lionel
How true progress not perfection, although Im pretty perfect at being imperfect. And I still use a few choice words now and again. I am not cured yet in step two it says. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
I used to think it said Would but it is Could because I am still in the process of being restored to sanity. Besides theres a joy in madness only a mad person would know. I have a little smile when I read that phrase. What about anyone else?
Have a great day..God Bless
Lionel
