HO HO HO All,
Boy, can these pills tell some sweet lies. I mean, I never realized how I could rationalize almost anything when it came to finding an excuse to do drugs. But today, my third full day totally free of pain mends, I came so close to caving. See, I had 4 pills left. I had almost justified taking one. I told myself "Im traveling and will feel better", "I will better be able to pack, do errands", etc But in reality, the drugs prevent me from accomplishing anything. So I flushed them.
But I was amazed at how I almost was able to convince myself that taking one would have been OK. It would not have been. Not for me. I would have lost my battle. I would have been accountable to all of you, and to the rest of my life.
So I flushed them. And as soon as I did, a waive of exhilaration that could not be produced by any pill electrified my body. I huge smile spread across my face. I had won!
I have to say, the joy I felt, and still feel, at making the right decision for me is more powerful than any drug I have ever taken.
I just had to share that and say THANK YOU to everybody here for their support. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year filled with endless possibilities to you all.
JR
JR
Way to go with the flushing, and your 3 days clean! Hope that you and your family have a wonderful holiday too........
Tina
Way to go with the flushing, and your 3 days clean! Hope that you and your family have a wonderful holiday too........
Tina
JR Good Luck to you.Have a nice safe trip and a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!mj
You just faced your problem, honestly and realistically, and overcame it. You just made proof of what I was trying to tell everyone is in fact very possible.Thank you very much and Congratulations. That's a big step, especially when you feel as good about it as you do. Whatever comes at you next, use your newfound strength, be honest so you find a realistic approach that will work for you, and overcome.
CHEERS
CHEERS
JR,
Wow, that is just wonderful! I can feel your excitement through your postings. It is contagious. I do hope you have a wonderful, and sober holiday! Please stay safe, and remember, you have given yourself the best present ever! Keep up the great work!
Lady M
Wow, that is just wonderful! I can feel your excitement through your postings. It is contagious. I do hope you have a wonderful, and sober holiday! Please stay safe, and remember, you have given yourself the best present ever! Keep up the great work!
Lady M
Way to go..
I am still amazed how these stupid little white pills make me lie, to myself, to others..I always felt honesty was the best policy.. but I catch myself lying to myself all the time..
Way to go on the three days..
kerry
I am still amazed how these stupid little white pills make me lie, to myself, to others..I always felt honesty was the best policy.. but I catch myself lying to myself all the time..
Way to go on the three days..
kerry
Way to go JR -- I'm a big believer in flushing. lol Congrats on your 3 days, and a sober Christmas! M.
JR,
You won the battle. But just remember you won the battle for today. Each day we must keep our guard up and do whats necessary for that day.
"One Day At A Time" Doing whats right will soon become second nature, but in the beginning, and sometimes after years of sobriety, it's a day to day fight, sometimes minute by minute.
Great job, hang in there, have a great holiday, Merry Christmas.
Take care....................................God bless.......................................Bob
You won the battle. But just remember you won the battle for today. Each day we must keep our guard up and do whats necessary for that day.
"One Day At A Time" Doing whats right will soon become second nature, but in the beginning, and sometimes after years of sobriety, it's a day to day fight, sometimes minute by minute.
Great job, hang in there, have a great holiday, Merry Christmas.
Take care....................................God bless.......................................Bob
Hi all and Merry Christmas,
Thanks for the warm outpouring of support. I do feel really good. All day I have been glowing just thinking about how close I came to giving up, and knowing how much better I feel today because I did not. I am so very grateful to you all for your kind posts.
Bob, I know that I won today. I also know that the past does not equal the future, in fact I count on it. Yes, it is a daily struggle. Yes, it is a lifetime battle. But having gone these days, and having overcome the discomfort of withdrawal (that is really all it is, discomfort), I know I will never go back. I have stopped temporarily before, but I have never felt that I won before. Now I know I won.
Still, I know that I must keep my guard up every day. I know that I can never again take an opiate pain medicine.
So today I won, and it FEELS GREAT. I highly (no pun intended) recommend it. I had a glass of wine with dinner and did not worry about my liver exploding.
Last week I would not have believed that flushing 4 pills would make me feel better than taking them. Now I know that is true.
Thanks again to all, and please know that I am here for anybody in any way if I can help as you have all helped me so very much. You have given a man the best Christmas present possible: his life back.
Merry Merry
Thanks for the warm outpouring of support. I do feel really good. All day I have been glowing just thinking about how close I came to giving up, and knowing how much better I feel today because I did not. I am so very grateful to you all for your kind posts.
Bob, I know that I won today. I also know that the past does not equal the future, in fact I count on it. Yes, it is a daily struggle. Yes, it is a lifetime battle. But having gone these days, and having overcome the discomfort of withdrawal (that is really all it is, discomfort), I know I will never go back. I have stopped temporarily before, but I have never felt that I won before. Now I know I won.
Still, I know that I must keep my guard up every day. I know that I can never again take an opiate pain medicine.
So today I won, and it FEELS GREAT. I highly (no pun intended) recommend it. I had a glass of wine with dinner and did not worry about my liver exploding.
Last week I would not have believed that flushing 4 pills would make me feel better than taking them. Now I know that is true.
Thanks again to all, and please know that I am here for anybody in any way if I can help as you have all helped me so very much. You have given a man the best Christmas present possible: his life back.
Merry Merry
