Hi all, thought I'd write a little update. Loads has happened in my life since the start of this year, most of it bad... but I can say I have kept my head above water and haven't drowned my sorrows with drink.
I will admit to having a few glasses of wine here and there but the whisky bottle has kept well and truly out of my life. That's probably about a year now I haven't drunk hard spirits... I feel good about that.
I found out the other day I have a new Psychiatrist, and between you and me he is so much better than my old one, she used to treat me like I was in a sausage factory... in and out as quick as you like didn't listen very well either.
Anyway, my Uncle's funeral is on Tuesday... some relatives are coming that I haven't seen for years, a bit nervous about that with all the questions... what have you been doing with yourself? Hardly the time or the place to tell people you spent the last six years of your life pissed out of your head, in and out of hospital etc... It's gonna be tough for me but I think I can handle it.
And Martin, thank for asking how I am over on (heroin). I think this answers your question.
Take care all,
Izzy X
It does Izzy, thank you.
You are one strong, shining soul and if your relatives have half an ounce of sense they'll appreciate you for who you are and not for what you've done.
Doing stuff is the easy bit.
Being who you're meant to be while you're doing it is sacred.
Gotta get that stuff in the right order or you end up doing the wrong stuff and it doesn't really mean anything at all!
You are one strong, shining soul and if your relatives have half an ounce of sense they'll appreciate you for who you are and not for what you've done.
Doing stuff is the easy bit.
Being who you're meant to be while you're doing it is sacred.
Gotta get that stuff in the right order or you end up doing the wrong stuff and it doesn't really mean anything at all!
Thanks Martin, you've given me something to think about there...
My sis confided in me today that she thinks she has a drink problem, she says that when she feels bad she has a drink and it makes her feel better... I did think to myself that she was drinking a bit too much but I can support her coz I know what it's like. She's got a lot of stress in her job and like anywhere has a few who just like to make life miserable for her... I feel sorry for her because she's on anti depressants but she doesn't have a 'recognisable' disorder so it's harder for her to get time off work when she feels she needs it.
Anyways, I'm just focusing on the funeral now, need to get my strength up to be able to try and have a conversation if need be..
Thanks again,
Izzy
My sis confided in me today that she thinks she has a drink problem, she says that when she feels bad she has a drink and it makes her feel better... I did think to myself that she was drinking a bit too much but I can support her coz I know what it's like. She's got a lot of stress in her job and like anywhere has a few who just like to make life miserable for her... I feel sorry for her because she's on anti depressants but she doesn't have a 'recognisable' disorder so it's harder for her to get time off work when she feels she needs it.
Anyways, I'm just focusing on the funeral now, need to get my strength up to be able to try and have a conversation if need be..
Thanks again,
Izzy
Hi Izzy,
How are you doing?
Isn't it funny that I actually care? Isn't that a miracle? Across an ocean and thousands of empty, moonlit miles, your gentle human soul touched mine, and so I care. Along with dozens, maybe hundreds of others who know you or might one day come to know you. A constellation, a galaxy of loving human souls stretching around the globe, caring for someone they have never met and will never met. Caring about you, Izzy.
Never, ever, think you are alone.
That thought is very comforting to me tonight. Thank you for helping me find it.
M
How are you doing?
Isn't it funny that I actually care? Isn't that a miracle? Across an ocean and thousands of empty, moonlit miles, your gentle human soul touched mine, and so I care. Along with dozens, maybe hundreds of others who know you or might one day come to know you. A constellation, a galaxy of loving human souls stretching around the globe, caring for someone they have never met and will never met. Caring about you, Izzy.
Never, ever, think you are alone.
That thought is very comforting to me tonight. Thank you for helping me find it.
M
Hiya yeah, Thank you for the lovely post. I'm in the UK... where are you?
If anyone else fancies posting where they are from please do, I think that would be really interesting...
Izzy
If anyone else fancies posting where they are from please do, I think that would be really interesting...
Izzy
Hi Izzy,
You are welcome. Actually, I was serious when I said that after I'd written it down I realised that the thought was comforting to ME as well!
The thought came to me because I genuinely felt for you and wished you well....and then the thought struck me (I'm a slow learner) that if it was true for you and everyone else in the World it was also true for me....people really do care about each other, and it is wonderful.
I'm a Londoner living in Cardiff. It's funny that I assumed you were American!
I hope you're feeling better today....you know as well as I do that it will take time.
Take good care of yourself Izzy,
Martin
You are welcome. Actually, I was serious when I said that after I'd written it down I realised that the thought was comforting to ME as well!
The thought came to me because I genuinely felt for you and wished you well....and then the thought struck me (I'm a slow learner) that if it was true for you and everyone else in the World it was also true for me....people really do care about each other, and it is wonderful.
I'm a Londoner living in Cardiff. It's funny that I assumed you were American!
I hope you're feeling better today....you know as well as I do that it will take time.
Take good care of yourself Izzy,
Martin
Yes I think that is true of people, especially those who have similar problems or have people around them who suffer because of their problems.
Take care,
Izzy
Take care,
Izzy
