Life. Well hell living life on lifes terms sucks. I have years clean and still seem to have a messy life. I have no issue staying clean at this point but i just cant seem to get rid of the unmanagable parts, namely people. I thought i was done dealing with people who make me miserable and do nothing but hurt and hinder me. But once again here i sit. Alone but surrounded by people. Sometimes the most alone i feel is when im in a room full of people. I thought when i left my husbsnd years ago it was the hardest thing ide ever do, but boy was i wrong. I loved him and somehow it made leaving sorta easier. But the person im with now i truely hate. But i honestly fear them too. They truely dont mind upsetting hurting or putting me down over and over. Its really sad that even tho im clean i feel more stuck than i did in the worst of my addiction. Now im not saying im going to get high or anything. I guess i dont even know why im posting. Well besides i have noone and sometimes just writing help. Anyways sorry to ramble on.
Raerae
Rae, why are you staying with this person? Does he have a gun to your head? You have CHOICES. Take your life back girlfriend. You beat amazing odds and are clean and sober! You are strong and powerful. You get to decided how you live your life and no one can make you do anything you don't want too!
I don't get it...why are you with him?
If you think you have no where else to go, you're wrong. There's always somewhere.
I don't get it...why are you with him?
If you think you have no where else to go, you're wrong. There's always somewhere.
Rae: i remember your post from years ago. Sorry to hear your still having struggles not nessarly with addiction, relaspe, or using, just general struggles. I'm Proud to hear even with this stress your not thinking of using. Only advice is to put yourself first. U already know how strong u are you have over came harder struggles....you will overcome this also. Quote As "diff" from this board use to say," the only way out, is through."
