Hi all, just thought I would share this, I have recently passed my test and I have just reversed into the pillow on my drive due to being blocked in. Came out with lots of abuse to the man who blocked my drive, drove off, felt guilty because due to my lack of experience that it happened, can't apologise because they have gone. So I am a bad girl today, swore in front of my daughter, she said she will be my friend again if I go on the trampoline with her. So off I go just had a bump now time for a bounce. My first little car and now it's all mushed down one side. What am I like, oh well better than relapsing, went out last night got offered some drugs and said no. So that is my good news. Bumped, bouncing but behaving. xxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey andr1
thanks for replying to my other post. What happend to you today would definitely get me fired up. Aren't kids so forgiving?? Ive apologized to my 6 and 7 year old before---i dont want to act like a maniac in front of them. Are you in the program? (aa or na) When i was very active in the program things like that wouldnt put me over the edge so much. Now if only i could get my fanny to a meeting--- oh well---gotta get ready for hurricane wilma!! now if my power goes out i will be one mean B*tch!!! Take care, say a little prayer--
thanks for replying to my other post. What happend to you today would definitely get me fired up. Aren't kids so forgiving?? Ive apologized to my 6 and 7 year old before---i dont want to act like a maniac in front of them. Are you in the program? (aa or na) When i was very active in the program things like that wouldnt put me over the edge so much. Now if only i could get my fanny to a meeting--- oh well---gotta get ready for hurricane wilma!! now if my power goes out i will be one mean B*tch!!! Take care, say a little prayer--
Hi and thankyou for your reply. Yes kids are forgiving, when I was telling my mum about it and my mum was saying you must have mis judged it, my daughter was so sticking up for me and saying it wasn't my fault.
I can't believe you have a hurricane coming that is so bad and you seem so calm about it. I live in the uk so fortunately I don't have anything like that to worry about. I really hope you are all ok and that your power stays on. I take so much for granted with things like that.
No I am not in any na or aa, I started seeing a counseller a few months ago and thought he would stop me taking, he made lots of excuses for missing meetings over about 7 weeks, then decided he couldn't meet up because he had more important and at risk addicts to help. Heroin addicts he referred to . I think it gave me a kick up the a** though because I then thought "only I can do it no one else can stop me" so maybe it was a good thing. Even though I think he is a total idiot for ditching me, others may not see it like me and go the opposite way. I have been clean for two wk and 5 days, and feeling really well. I was shocked at myself how mad I went today. I was so angry towards him. I am not giving excuses but I have asked him loads of times not to block the drive, everytime I return home I am blocked, a family a few doors away have lots of visitors with cars, they are like hill billies. You cannot help likeing them they will do anything for anyone and so will their visitors from what I have seen. So I should not have gone as mad, but I did have a reason to be angry in a way. They are so laid back they could nod off. But have hearts of gold, and too many visitors always. Oh well that is my moan of the day. I hope you are well take carexxxxxxxx
I can't believe you have a hurricane coming that is so bad and you seem so calm about it. I live in the uk so fortunately I don't have anything like that to worry about. I really hope you are all ok and that your power stays on. I take so much for granted with things like that.
No I am not in any na or aa, I started seeing a counseller a few months ago and thought he would stop me taking, he made lots of excuses for missing meetings over about 7 weeks, then decided he couldn't meet up because he had more important and at risk addicts to help. Heroin addicts he referred to . I think it gave me a kick up the a** though because I then thought "only I can do it no one else can stop me" so maybe it was a good thing. Even though I think he is a total idiot for ditching me, others may not see it like me and go the opposite way. I have been clean for two wk and 5 days, and feeling really well. I was shocked at myself how mad I went today. I was so angry towards him. I am not giving excuses but I have asked him loads of times not to block the drive, everytime I return home I am blocked, a family a few doors away have lots of visitors with cars, they are like hill billies. You cannot help likeing them they will do anything for anyone and so will their visitors from what I have seen. So I should not have gone as mad, but I did have a reason to be angry in a way. They are so laid back they could nod off. But have hearts of gold, and too many visitors always. Oh well that is my moan of the day. I hope you are well take carexxxxxxxx
2 weeks!!! thats great!!! Im not pushing na or aa but sometimes its nice to get cozy and drink coffee and listen to the other peoples stories and how they behave and react and then you can say "wow, im not so bad after all"!!
Thanks for your kind words--- and whatever works for you to keep you clean
go for it!!!! :)-
Thanks for your kind words--- and whatever works for you to keep you clean
go for it!!!! :)-
Thankyou and I will try to stay positive. Wish there was a majic wand for everyone, life can be cruel, then again I suppose it's what you make it. Hope all goes well for you speak to you soonx
