Crystal,
I have been lurking on this site for months and every once and awhil i will post a comment. I did post to you about quitting cold turkey & and who had actually stayed clean. Well i am currently on sub and doing great I have just noticed some of the things you are going through I am also.I really want to join in and hopefully find someone who shares the same kind of worries as me. i know we all have the same addiction but each person is different in how they treat it and how the handle their recovery. I would love to share my story and find out more about yours.
Thanks, Renny
Hello.Renny
Good to hear from you.id love to hear more about you and your story .how long you been on sub. and how long did you use?What did you use ? I was a peracet user.Or whatever i could use to help with the wlds .I used for 5 years and i have back problem is why my doctor was prescribe them to me.I use it as i was to in the begining and like all addicts we start useing to block out the hurt and pain in our lives and some just for energy.i used for all the above.I have done alot to hurt my family and i have 2 girls 12 and 10 years old .My husband who didnt understand and still he dont really but.,he tries to understand it.I made him read alot about addiaction and made him learn some about it rather he wanted to or not.We watch intervention on sunday nights and we watched something last night on A&E about meth,users i forgot the name of it.i love to watch these kind of things and it makes me want to keep clean and not go back down that path again .My mom past of cancer in april 2004 and i didnt Cry at all then.i was useing so heavy then.Took her for years to treatment and then in Jan. they said she would not live 2 months.Anyways she stayed in my home and passed.I just couldnt belive this had happen to me and the addication on top of all that.It was like i was going through Hell.Guess it trails that God has put my through to see if i pass the the test.I pray i passed...Im on sub. and i am on 4mgs as of now.It has really really helped me.i dont think im in the clear yet ive got to get off on this but, for now im not comeing off .ive already tried to 2 times .i think maybe i get something that works for the deprestion i would try to again...i thought i was going to kill myseld by,OD or doing something stupid.I still suffer from deprestion alot.i have alot of pain pys. and mental i deal with daily and i just know i have to keep clean or i will end up looseing my family.or my mind no telling where id be today if i hadnt of find sub... .I know alot of pill user around here and what really helped or helps me is by hearing or seeing what happens to others.Its helps me to think and say ok.thats what happen to me or could of have if i would of done it or used any longer .i mean i tried it all except crank,crys meth. thank God i didnt get my hands on those after what i watched last night.well I got to run and i hope to hear from you again soon. I will post to you again later,i got to get off and clean up some...take care crystal
heres my email address if you like to talk....
lovelytobe23@yahoo.com
Good to hear from you.id love to hear more about you and your story .how long you been on sub. and how long did you use?What did you use ? I was a peracet user.Or whatever i could use to help with the wlds .I used for 5 years and i have back problem is why my doctor was prescribe them to me.I use it as i was to in the begining and like all addicts we start useing to block out the hurt and pain in our lives and some just for energy.i used for all the above.I have done alot to hurt my family and i have 2 girls 12 and 10 years old .My husband who didnt understand and still he dont really but.,he tries to understand it.I made him read alot about addiaction and made him learn some about it rather he wanted to or not.We watch intervention on sunday nights and we watched something last night on A&E about meth,users i forgot the name of it.i love to watch these kind of things and it makes me want to keep clean and not go back down that path again .My mom past of cancer in april 2004 and i didnt Cry at all then.i was useing so heavy then.Took her for years to treatment and then in Jan. they said she would not live 2 months.Anyways she stayed in my home and passed.I just couldnt belive this had happen to me and the addication on top of all that.It was like i was going through Hell.Guess it trails that God has put my through to see if i pass the the test.I pray i passed...Im on sub. and i am on 4mgs as of now.It has really really helped me.i dont think im in the clear yet ive got to get off on this but, for now im not comeing off .ive already tried to 2 times .i think maybe i get something that works for the deprestion i would try to again...i thought i was going to kill myseld by,OD or doing something stupid.I still suffer from deprestion alot.i have alot of pain pys. and mental i deal with daily and i just know i have to keep clean or i will end up looseing my family.or my mind no telling where id be today if i hadnt of find sub... .I know alot of pill user around here and what really helped or helps me is by hearing or seeing what happens to others.Its helps me to think and say ok.thats what happen to me or could of have if i would of done it or used any longer .i mean i tried it all except crank,crys meth. thank God i didnt get my hands on those after what i watched last night.well I got to run and i hope to hear from you again soon. I will post to you again later,i got to get off and clean up some...take care crystal
heres my email address if you like to talk....
lovelytobe23@yahoo.com
hello, Renny
i was checking to see if you are on tonight.crystal
i was checking to see if you are on tonight.crystal
Hey ,
I'm here. I am so glad to her from you. You asked wht was my doc well at first it was oxycontin i tried some of my husbands who took them for legit pain and before long I was hooked. I could not believe it had happened to me i used to hate pain pills. the made me sick and I hated to take them. But when I had my first oxycontin it felt like heaven. After that i would take them for cramps, or when my feet hurt after running, or when my kids were driving me nuts. Before I knew it I was hooked I still can't believe it. That was about7 years ago.Let me tell you those years seem like a dream like it was someone else living my life. Every month consisted of getting pills taking pills and running out way to soon and then came the withdrawal. every month for seven years I went through at least a week of withdrawal. And every time it took a piece of my soul with it. I mean it I lost a little of the person a was until I just became this empty person who felt like life would never get beter. Until last March my husband found out about sub and asked if I was ready to try it, I said my only other alternative was dying. So he made me the app. and let me tell you it was the best decision I have ever made. I am getting better every day and I can finally see a future and thatis something I have not thought of in a long time (a future).
Now please tell me more about you and ask any questions you have about me.
Renny
I'm here. I am so glad to her from you. You asked wht was my doc well at first it was oxycontin i tried some of my husbands who took them for legit pain and before long I was hooked. I could not believe it had happened to me i used to hate pain pills. the made me sick and I hated to take them. But when I had my first oxycontin it felt like heaven. After that i would take them for cramps, or when my feet hurt after running, or when my kids were driving me nuts. Before I knew it I was hooked I still can't believe it. That was about7 years ago.Let me tell you those years seem like a dream like it was someone else living my life. Every month consisted of getting pills taking pills and running out way to soon and then came the withdrawal. every month for seven years I went through at least a week of withdrawal. And every time it took a piece of my soul with it. I mean it I lost a little of the person a was until I just became this empty person who felt like life would never get beter. Until last March my husband found out about sub and asked if I was ready to try it, I said my only other alternative was dying. So he made me the app. and let me tell you it was the best decision I have ever made. I am getting better every day and I can finally see a future and thatis something I have not thought of in a long time (a future).
Now please tell me more about you and ask any questions you have about me.
Renny
renny
Yes that sound about like me and my life .How old are you? Im 28 if i havent told you earlier.....What state are you in? I used 90 per's in a week and a half in the end .I felt like i could have used more and did if i found someone else to get them from to go along with mine.Not counting the one i had to buy for the other two and a half weeks .It didnt matter though .No matter how many i had it was never enough ...I just cant belive all the money i have blowed on the pills.I know the sub, is alittle expences the first vist but,after the second or third vist it was well worth it.i dont thnik im cured by no means.I just saying im better and hope to get better everyday as i progress through getting off for good........I sent you a email and i will look for one for you tomm. take care,,,crystal
Yes that sound about like me and my life .How old are you? Im 28 if i havent told you earlier.....What state are you in? I used 90 per's in a week and a half in the end .I felt like i could have used more and did if i found someone else to get them from to go along with mine.Not counting the one i had to buy for the other two and a half weeks .It didnt matter though .No matter how many i had it was never enough ...I just cant belive all the money i have blowed on the pills.I know the sub, is alittle expences the first vist but,after the second or third vist it was well worth it.i dont thnik im cured by no means.I just saying im better and hope to get better everyday as i progress through getting off for good........I sent you a email and i will look for one for you tomm. take care,,,crystal
Renny
I did respond to you ....i wrote a long email at that and it said system expired and it had messed it up.if i dont send you one tonight i will in the morning ..my yahoo mail has been acting up....sorry crystal
I did respond to you ....i wrote a long email at that and it said system expired and it had messed it up.if i dont send you one tonight i will in the morning ..my yahoo mail has been acting up....sorry crystal
